Tuesday, September 30, 2008
emptiness
tmr is hari raya dunno wadeva lo. well, it'll be another day of muggin le lo. damn. tryin to studyin is damn sian. keep procrastinating and not startin, the feel is killing mi. wanna start but can't bring myself to start. gosh. this is bad bad feeling. lets hope tmr i'l feel good enough to mug yea?today saw my og mate in j1, shan't say hu la, but i feel vj people, a handful of them, are damn fake sia. ok, its nice to give a smile to sae hi, but, wads with the big fake smile sia. this irks mi la. nt lyk at cch, when u smile, it is an almost genuine smile (muz gif them the benefit of doubt). gosh. i hate this feelin man. i tink this is really time for me to get ready for the working world le. haiz. sucks man.
我还想成为你的小女孩,让你捧在手心里疼。
当初所有的点点滴滴,都在心中不停的翻腾。当初走的是我,为什么现在又有这种思念的感觉?
连老天都在嘲笑我,大雨不停的落下,似乎想冲走我忧郁的心情,却无法发挥那神奇的功能。
雨,已经加重了我以周遭的心情。我,不想再想了。today shuffle my songs in the mp3, man, even songs can trigger the thoughts in my mind lo. heard 大男人小女孩,way back into love, 玫瑰花的葬礼,wad the hell. all the songs r songs of THAT time. now all appear today. reminded me of the past lo. mockin me eh? jellybean said to not look into the past, and dun put the useless thoughts into ur mind. quite true. the past is history, the present is passing, what matters is the future. look to the future man.
haiz, another emo day la. plus the emo weather. man. mebbe i shud listen to 'another night' to cheer up more. but well, for now, thanz jellybean. =)
9/30/2008 09:43:00 PM
Thursday, September 25, 2008
miracles actually do happen
luck is when opportunity strikes when you are prepared.
miracles happen when luck n coincidence occurs.
this is damn freakin true for mi this time round lo, for prelims.
i guess everything is quite alright la. no a or b grades, a lil disappointing. i thought i'l get A for math but well, i guess its the amount of effort i put in la, careless plus not enough practice. well i tried to reflect, but actually... dammit la, stupid math paper, wad the hell sia, i could have gotten A de can. stupid paper. dumb argh. bio: D; chem: E; gp: E.
econs case study 1 gittin back tmr. hope i dun screw it lo. bt no matter how bad i do i'l still pass la. whish is like. wow. finally i passed my econs. guess that was the miracle that happened lo. n my essays were ok lei. upon 25, got 3 ques, 16, 15, 7. ok wwad the hell 7 upon 25. lol. i did the killer question lo. bt thats nt the point, impt ting is dat my essays finally improve lo. haha. really luck is when opprtunity meets preparation. cool sia. juz humtum sum rubbish, plus a bit of content, lol. econs is not you mug everything then can score de. hmm. i'm tryin to slack la. oh wells. hope tmr everything goes well.
n bio! i passed with a nt bad grade lo, considering i only mugged for 6 hrs for bio. lol.
woo crap so much bout exams sia. prelims suck. i wan liberation from hell la. i hate muggin!! hmm. some time to start complainin? oh hell no. i should say,
i love mugging! its my life man. i can't live without muggin!!dis is crap la lol. trying so hard to psycho myself. haiz. i still can't find the real meaning in muggin can? besides proceeding on to uni and get into the course of my choice den to a job i aim for. hmmm. long reflections eh? well, last shot le. 1 mth to A's. jiayou gambette all the best, aja aja hwaitin. wadeva la.
special thanz to jellybean lo. lol. he rock man. guess he'l b smiling when he sees dis part, and say, : ya i know i rock. LOL! thanz for pei-in me n encouraging me. lol.
ooh tmr gittin colours award lei. yay! my third award. this came as a surprise oso too. grats to myself. wahaha. din remember there was such thing like colours award until (dunno who) told me lol. thanz huiying for lending mi the ah ma shoes. lol. its looks real ah ma though. lol!woo. i feel damn shiuang after bloggin so much. like blogged 'legally' la. damn shuang. woohoohoo!!now, i shall read some chem stuff inpreparation for chem mcqs practice tmr. lol. happy time for me!
9/25/2008 10:27:00 PM
Monday, September 22, 2008
est. plus thanz to uncle wh ;)
haiz.
exams are finally over le. i should have blogged straight after exams, now i've forgotten wad i wanna say bout prelims. on the whole, it sucks. really sucks big time. i hate exams la!!! i'm prepared to screw prelims, but my mum is just adding oil to fire. arghh, shan't blog bout her. she sucks la. fuck sia.
shant tok bout her le. some happy stuff lo. went to suntec ytd wif uncle. thanz for gng wif mi yea? i get to watch almost the whole est lo. yoyoin rocks n i officially announce: i'm gonna learn yoyo after a's!! marcus was damn zai. so was lionel. haha. both of them r my sub sub idols. heex. bt aik hwee is still the most zai!! he's judge lo. big big sia, though shadow judge only. lol. din get to c idol perform la. sian. lol. bt aniwae, boss damn nice arh. watch whole of est lo, almost the whole. i tink waihan is interested in yoyoin le. lol. n after tokin to AH. lol.
k la dats bout it le. damn my mum la, i got kicked off le. shall blog more next time.
9/22/2008 10:48:00 PM
Friday, September 5, 2008
2 more days to prelims
wa sian. this 2 weeks i'm freakin unproductive la. go sch study did only 2 chaps, go macs study oso do 2 chaps. its the same routine everyday lo, yet i'm nt makin any effort to improve. man. dis time prelims sure screwed de la. haiz. shall try to do a bit more today. b4 i go play tmr. lol!
thanz jiehao for the french toast today. lol. nt bad lo. v cheezy (ahem, i mean the toast, lol) bt cold le so... nvm still its nice. heex. den had a cup of coffee frm the macs 2 bucks breakfast. damn la. after the coffee i'm so bloated that i din eat the sausage mcmuffin, at last gif jh lo. sian. go home le i feel lyk pukin la. lyk some pregnant women sia. wanna puke bt nth comes out. damn damn sian. cannot mug for the day le la. nvm nvm. still muz try, cuz tmr go play le!!!
hmm, i keep sayin i gng to play, gng to meet jellybean den go watch cubin comp. lol. gonna git my yoyo tmr lo. yay!! hope it isn't too hard, n that it wun b a super distraction for mi study for prelims la. lol. dun care le. tmr den sae. lol!
aawwww, i'm feelin excited lo. lyk finally can go out play after so many days of unproductive muggin. but play is more impt dan muggin, hope i can mug better after playin.
hope i faster git well soon ar. the nauseous feel go away, my running nose run away. grrr. damn it.
2 more days to start of prelims, first 2 papers killer paper lo. chem essay ques n econs essay ques. my hand sure die de. haiz. sian to the max.
wish mi luck man. i hate exams.
9/05/2008 09:42:00 PM
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
i saw my idol!!
aawww man. in the morn when muggin wif may at mp lib. reached there at lyk 9.55am. wa the whole entrance filled wif ppl sia. lol. damn loads la. when the door open chiong up to the top storey lo. faster dan the ppl takin lift. ha too bad, no space for you bleh. den started math. may came so late la. many people came by to ask, eh is ani1 sittin. damn paiseh sia, cuz the sign put, nt reservation of seats. lol. bt eventually she came n we started muggin. did some econs n math arh. damn un productive(lyk it had been in the past whole week) lol. may keep gng down to git dis git dat. i was a bit beta lo. only go toilet. haha. we went at arnd 2.45pm for lunch.
lunch at parkway hawker. the wanton mee damn suck sia. lol. may's porridge was nice, v nice lo. got the wok smell. ok its my imagination le. bt well. i shud have eaten dat la. after lunch may bought tissues. she wanted to give it all away lo(*after keepin 3 packets for herself) bt dunno how to gif. lol there we go to suntec.
36 was rather crowded lo, eventually we reached. now i noe where to stop le*-.-"* den may wanted to gif her tissue la. damn lame. n no1 wants it lo. i got 3 packets frm her. den the rest. hmm. walked to carefourre to buy my jellybeans lo. went to the wrong storey so went up. there she was tryin to gif ppl her tissue!!! of cuz no1 wants it. lol finally she left it on the public fone booth there (orh hor!). finally on the correct storey n i found the jellybeans station, bt it was a bit too ex, so nv buy lo. awwww. we went to the electric piano side. may was spammin the piano lyk all the other kids n ppl there lo. lol i admit i was damn bored then. haha
finally we left, walked thru my playground lo. den saw sum ppl doin yoyo. i was lyk. eh? yoyo here one meh? was lookin at them arh (ok, also searchin for aik hwee haha) n i tot i saw him. i tot, cuz it was quite blur. haha. aawww man, den dunno y he suddenly turn arnd n was lookin at mi? lol. wa siao, damn paiseh, dunno y, mebbe cuz i was in shorts ba, damn unglam. haha. i siam-ed i tink, pull may away lo. haha. den eventually we walked back n he was lyk, wavin at mi. -.-" haha. v lil yoyoers lei, i tot ll have at least 30 odd? apparently not. haha
then he was sayin lyk, b sum random passerby n stand there to look lo. lol yup we did so, n yoyo-in is cool man. i am more determined to learn liao. haha. saw ppl playin diabolo, wa oso v zai sia. bt offstring still damn cool.watch for a while le jiu go toysrus to 'play' le. lol.
wa we created havoc sia. may was tryin to juggle n i was knock down a few v heavy tings(dunno wad izzit la) den blah blah. saw yoyo too, n cube and stuff lo. lol. disgraced myself la, lyk totally. den i was wearin vj shirt. wa gg la. lol. den i tink we went back to my playground bt they nt there le. den wanted to show may spinworks so ya. went there lo. halfway we stopped for magic show. damn lame sia. haha. the crowd reaction was damn bad. den when to spinworks to look at the yoyos. wa a hayabusa is lyk, 50 bucks? siao. freakin ex la. lol. n the counter weights r damn cute. haha. den blah blah blah. wa suddenly a yoyo roll over. stopped it in time. lol! man, it was AH's yoyo!!! haha. its a white haya. damn cool lo, bt i stepped on it lei. damn. should have picked it up la. bt aniwae. its cuz of dat he talked to mi. lyk wow, i'm tokin to my idol. waaaaaaa. haha.
'wad time u leavin?' 'soon lo, mebbe now' ......(i forgot) 'den when u cumin agn?' 'hmm dunno lei' ' nvm est arh' 'ya hor ok next week,..., i gng off now lo, dun forget my yoyo arh!' lol!
sth liddat la. it was a damn short convo only. marcus walked pass lo. i feel its purposely de la, though mebbe its i tink too much le. lol. ya thanz to the hayabusa i talked to my idol yea? lol.
den afterdat went home lo. den tuition.
at tuition wanted to ask if the new hci guy lyk noe jellybean or nt la. i still haven tok to him b4 sia. lol. bt ya. din have the chance to. n wad the hell. wayne is havin his last lesson last sat la. damn, nv tell us earlier. wa stupid guy. aawwww. i guess we'l all miss him lo. lyk the last 2 mths n he left.
hmm dats bout it for last sat. sun n mon, as usual, unproductive muggin. damn sian. gonna go geylang east lib to mug tmr. lol
9/02/2008 02:48:00 AM