Julia
Juju, pig, ah keow. wadeva u call n i approve. heh.
Ju is a christmas baby, 25/12/1990
GMPS, CCHMS, VJC , NUS FASS
Affliations to YMCA, CCHMS wushu team, genacts...



1) continue wushu if i have time
2) do well in my mods in NUS
3) be more pro in my di zi
4) successfully join the police force?
5) can go shopping and splurge!!!

finally i'm back frm ycon after the halloween night. damn seh sia. slpt for about 1 hr den choing for y con le. plus all the lipstick marks on my face cannot be removed le lo. (sounds scandalous^^) but yea. it sucks to have everyone, esp the boys, askin why ur face like that one. haha. plus i gotta wear a cap due to my now green hair. heh. damn mafan luh. this is all due to a moment of chong dong-ness. haha. i tink the lipstick will be damn scary so i bua quite a lot, now everything is stuck to my face and it is quite gross lo. tmr cannot go out liao laa. =( den wad, the hair oso the same. next time i go for ycon i muz bring cap along le lo. cuz of my hair and someone says it is bad influence to the boys. oh wells, looks like my sadistic level alrd up one level, to the 自讨苦吃 level le. LOL. i really like my hair though. hehe

after the round of halloween party i came to stuffs i noted bout lo. val val sorta proved it true that honeymoon period in a relationship does not only last for 1 mth to 2 yrs due to attraction when ur hormones are raging and there is some physiological changes leading to attraction to the specific person for the period of time. after the honeymoon period is over there will be nt much left to sustain the relationship. but yea. she proved it otherwise. very very envious when she says she misses her boyfriend. well, i guess it is a bliss to love someone and get the feelings reciprocated yea? happy for val =) and yea. time will pass vv soon. no worries to val yup? hehe. i look forward to getting such a strong relationship. thank val for injecting some hope to what i feel about such stuffs lo.

during the long long chat at night b4 we slp (and that was wad caused us frm all slpin for only a short short period of time say 1 hr plus?) the topic really got me thinking bout me n him now. ok i shall give him a name too, uuhhmmm, kmkz for kamakazee? haha yea. seriously, they asked me a question that left me thinkin, what do i really see in him that kept my crush going? what do i like bout him lo. well, rather stuck at this question. hmmm. at first it was chemistry ba, attraction? yup, you wun noe wad kinda stuff can such bodily changes cause. then due to the constant suanning of someone that i start to see more good of him? being with him makes me feel really comfortable luh~. but that was during the start when we knew each other? yea. he really give me that kinda feeling that i feel he is a guy that i like. yea.. like, aiya i dunno how to say la, though he is playin arnd all the time he is the kinda guy that really thinks deep into the situations and consider circumstances? considerate thinking i would say. hmm. this is the biggest part that attracted me. other things like cute behavior and stuff. makes me <3... hahaha, but ya, recently due to some dunno incident we nv really talk le. not really close as b4 le lo. i feel its a waste but the feelings are still there.. yes it sucks with no common topic and stuff like that, but being with him make me happy enough. its only when i tink about the dist b/w physical bodies and the dist b/w the hearts, its so freakin near yet far, this will sure make me emo luh...... haizzzz. well i need time to sort out my feelings but as of now, i think 走一步算一步. dun wanna think of it for the moment.

another thing, gosh, i feel unfair at times. when we were back at the table talkin bout our stuff erm some guy was sitting there. ok i know its wrong but i have a bit of thing to bitch bout him lo. hmmm. he is always listening to our woes and emo little secrets and everything. expects us to let him know everything and keep him involved but does he do the same to us too? i dun feel it lo. he is always keeping everything to himself. when you ask what is going on with him he always say nothing. like, man, this is wad frenz are for. i dun believe you have no problems that you wanna share with someone lo. but like, i dun feel like a close enuff fren lo. like i keep telling you stuff and you are not confiding into me, nt even to anyone. gosh, like, why liddat, mebbe he dun wanna bother us with his problems since we have so many problems at hand le. but he seem to always want to be part of everything. for our little chats, i tink he will express his dissatisfaction in us not telling him stuff lo. then what, threaten us? hmmm. this is our little secrets yea? ok i shall stand firm when i need to but i just feel it is unfair, at least to me. but ya la, i am the one sharing my stuff with him so i dun tink i have the rights to say anything here. hmmm.

he's getting from bad to worse luh~. i understand the situation of being involved in every activity, but when some stuff dun even concern you why are you involved too? why is he like everywhere for every single activity. like, ok, i noe you wanna be in, but isn't that getting a bit too far? it is even getting on to my nerves lo, so i guess probably the situation getting worse le? now it seems like i am drawin the line clear now but ya, it gets a bit irritatin when you are also there in stuff that don't concern you yea? omg. i'm bitchin so much agn. ok, but hope he changes for the better, though i seriously dunno how to tell this to him. haizz..

alrite, enough of bitching la. today y con was nt bad but nt v good either. lol. din like the rainy weather sia. it sucks, but yea. it stopped magically, like wad bf junlong said. WOW. we got to kayak but it wasn't that sorta good cuz there is so little chance to kayak lo. =( but still i tink the boys n volunteers did get to enjoy a bit of the kayakin ba. haha. keepin an eye on them today was a bit tiring but i guess victor help us made the situation easier after the warning for the boys. lol. realised they are actually cooperative in nature but they wanna act cool so thats why they din wanna do stuff. lol. empathize with amanda and jan and chikki. omg this is like half of my team? hmm. amanda, really tough for her cuz her buddy is so cold towards her luh. poor gal we see wad we can help yea? chikki, lucky or nt lucky for him his buddy din get to kayak. gosh this is bad. how is he gonna survive camp with his buddy when the bondin is still nt there. haiz. jan, omg, really hope that she feel so bad bout her buddy sia, but that is my fave pair out of my ycon grp, the rapport they built up. omg. this is good, but hope it juz stays as a platonic relationship yea? haha

woo finally get all the rubbish out of my heart le. it sucks to be kept in sia. LOL. this post is made up of 2 parts cuz one part is when i was waitin for my hair to dry b4 i go to slp, the other is after i wake frm my sleep. hehe. julia had a big achievement today! she manage to not follow ahem all the way down le. juju can stay firm and learn nt to go places that don't concern me to waste time cuz someone is there. haha.

tmr is sun le. hmmmm. we'll see how it goes luh~. haha, dunno if i'm lookin forward to it or nt lo. lol......