Julia
Juju, pig, ah keow. wadeva u call n i approve. heh.
Ju is a christmas baby, 25/12/1990
GMPS, CCHMS, VJC , NUS FASS
Affliations to YMCA, CCHMS wushu team, genacts...



1) continue wushu if i have time
2) do well in my mods in NUS
3) be more pro in my di zi
4) successfully join the police force?
5) can go shopping and splurge!!!

today was i freaking tiring day. being volunteer is so great compared to being a leader man. yea. today apsn outing was to gamehaven to play wii. i guess they benes have a nice time, but i din really get the chance to play it. so ya lor. its the benes time n nt mine anyway, so it is great to see them enjoy themselves. haha. jospeh gave a deep deep speech to us, where some of the points really hit me, nt hard but ya, i guess i realised i have real much room for improvement.

1. sometimes it isn't good to keep nagging at the benes, they will get irritated. they feel what we feel though, so yes that will feel irritated
2. we don't need to make our benes actively participate in everything. nth can be so perfect and go ur way, so yes. be passive at times when u handle benes?
3. though benes are nt good un using their 5 senses tgt wif logical thinking, they have this intuition thing that make them realise things arnd them and this is how they gets to remain at this world. so ya lor.....

wad i've learnt. a lot lo. to be more organised and think of the whole process and activity b4 anything starts. hmmm, think more thoroughly b4 everything, dun be too hard on the rules. heh. ya la wadeva man. ytd was so nt prepared lo. i cannot slp at 3 b4 outings liao. muz slp earlier.

yea ytd i got 3 ppl to say sry to, now still wanna sae sorry.

first to babysitter, though he wun read the blog and i dun wan him to read the blog. man ytd was crap. i told him that i dun wanna associate with him sia. it was totally the wrong stuff i was thinkin about la, so juz blurted out the thing lo. sia la, it is totally damn bad, freakin totally. arghhh. REALLY WANNA SAY SORRY. told him le but still i guess it was too traumatic for him. omg i feel like a super bad woman sia. shit. and ytd i tink its cuz i dun have enuff slp plus dunno why la, i feel i damn bad towards him lor. shit man, keep pickin on his pronunciation stuff. arghh. nvm la, after a few days then i go back talkin to him? hmmmm

2nd is peifen, hmmm, i was totally nt prepare for setting the dates la. shit, this made her lost confidence in me huh? i hope she doesn't, cuz i really wanna do well at this camp. hmmm. sorry peifen. i will think more next time b4 each meeting de.

lastly is MR. hmmmm. wad belay team said is true. physical or emotional. i was a lil worried when i met him at night. had this little distance from him lo. but nope. i dun think it is a problem le. hmmm, he knew his limits. i guess he din wan me to feel uncomfortable ba. lol. thanks belay team for the concern. =) for now i will be more aware but still, wanna say sorry to him cuz i sorta doubted him. haha.

yea, today was good but a bit weird. like every sun i've been meetin MR, suddenly a sunday we din meet up, like sth missing huh. lol. shit man, like wad val says, i guess i'l falling le. haha. yea. still hope my belay team is there to look out for me. =) but after ytd's incident wif babysitter, one less person is no longer a belay team le lo. shit man.

i've been scolding a lot of shits today, but yea. the shitty feel bout ytd is still there...

quote:
when you start thinking if you love that someone, you alrd stopped loving him.

this is an old quote but reading thru my past posts i feel this is real meaningful. yes i totally agreed to it.