when life takes a turn

看后感

2010-10-05T22:59:00.003+08:00

因为这出戏是内地戏，所以以上就用花纹来写这则博客。
看了这出戏之后，突然有了我婚宴的理想。
我不享有雪白雪白的婚礼，我要一个特别的。想了想，想到了两个颜色主题，一，粉红色的烂漫婚礼；二，蓝色的梦幻婚礼。
觉得这两个颜色都不错，也不如一般的纯洁似的白茫茫一片，但我对蓝色较有偏袒。
man, it sucks typing in chinese. ok back to english haha.
this will be the wedding ceremony only, not the banquet in some restaurant or wad. hmmm.
a pretty blue wedding, a dreamy kinda theme. lovey dovey. backdrop will of course be the bright blue sky. clear sky, with white fluffy clouds floating by. tables and chairs will be blue in colour. it will be held in the open. soft music in the background, played by a life band, music genre is blues and jazz. dress code for guests is fluffy. like fluffy white dresses, for guys, white tux eh? =) as long as the colours are the warm pastel colours. me, i will come out in a pretty blue gown, fluffy too! my love will be in this light blue tux too. manz. i feel like i am in the situation alrd luh.
dreaming and dreaming about it le. =)

the carpet will not be red. i want it to be white. so it feels like i am stepping on the clouds to reach the final point where the marriage is being witnessed. cupid statues ( or pictures or models) will be there, the stage will have a greek mythology kind of theme.

the marriage song will be in jazz version. changed the idea of the song from rock version to jazz version. more soothing and not so traditional too. hehe.

as we walk down the white carpet hand in hand, there are little kids behind scattering flower petals. the flower petals will have many many colours. red, pink, blue, purple. whatever colours there will be it will be on the flowers. as we walk down the clouds, when we finally reach the stage, a traditional post will be there, where the person who witness this reads the vow and we both say i do.

during the exchanging of the ring there will be blues music playing at the background. the rings will be damn cool. it will not be the traditional diamond ring. it will be a sapphire ring. simply cuz the wedding theme is blue.

and when ceremony is over. refreshments will be available. heh. on a blue cloth long table. there will be many many kinds of cakes and desserts. yummy! of course. each guest is supposed to eat a cotton candy. its a must!! they get to eat the pretty clouds and have a dreamy feeling. there will be a 吃在嘴里，梦在心理 feeling.

aww manz. everything don't seem to make sense cuz i am having a lot of thoughts right now. but yup. hope my wedding ceremony will be something similar to this. cotton candy is a must must! =)

hehe thats all for today. wad a great contradiction from the previous post. now i feel contented already. it must be because of the pleasant things happening to me these few weeks. hope this continues... =)

i tink i'm suffering from depression

2010-09-13T23:13:00.002+08:00

totally need a venue to talk about my feelings.
omg i feel like i am having a prolonged PMS. feel so damn pissed even at tiny things about you. sometimes i hope i dun ever wanna know you. and you nv know how i feel, and i dunno how to talk to you cuz i dunno how to talk my way out from you. you are always right, den me? did you listen to my point of view.
i value punctuality, you were nv early.
i hate people breaking their promises, and you always do it. unintentionally, but its done le. there is no way to change anything alrd.
because of you i feel so irritated by myself and cry at the smallest things.
can't concentrate on everything because i keep thinking about how u think about me, do you really put me in ur mind?
can't priortize, you are always the top, am i the case?
can't stop crying, i feel so sucky do you even know it?
you want support from me, do i get it from you? i am about to fall and die and are you there to talk to me about it. so fucking stressed up this week do you know? and there you go celebrate birthday happy happy did you even ask about me? then when u did u just ditch everything by saying i'm sorry. wow. if life is that great. haiz
do u even understand me?
i feel like i dun have all my social support le. feel like there is no one out there who can understand me, pamper me and gimme some life. no.
mebbe dying off may be a good idea. permanent solution to all the problems.
i think i am suffering from depression le. omg.
yes life takes a turn, to the worst of the worst.
who understands??

I just want to talk to you

2010-01-26T22:49:00.002+08:00

long time no blog. heh
ok thats nt the point. damn, emo days are coming agn. haiz. this is bad, getting emo for a prolonged period lo.

hmmm, last week had this damn bad tear session emo-in. bloody hell, getting more and more dependant on you. the emo day i kept thinking that i overestimated my place in ur heart. seems like work is more impt than me? izzit that i am too sensitive? first you take me and dominated my whole world. then you leave me alone and be so so busy with ur work. arghhh. fuvk. after that you called, sayin thats the first thing you do after you finish ur stuff. haiz. i'm alrd disappointed. wad else to say.

SA keep talkin to me nowadays. oh wells, tot he will be a form of entertainment for me to talk to him while waiting for ur reply. yea, somehow it did. dunno why there is this guilty feeling like i am doing sth wrong, but i am perfectly doing the right thing, its just chatting. but yea. chatting is nice, msn, sms. nice time chatting with him. but today i realised. how nice izzit if its you instead of him that is talkin to me. talkin to SA is nv a way to skip missing you. fuvk. this sucks man. damn ur job laaaaa.

manz... gimme more of ur attention can? i sound like a super despo now but yes. i'm still gonna say it. if you are nt gonna gimme so much of ur time please don't be so nice to me from the start. fuck.

arghhhhh...

reflective...

2009-11-12T12:19:00.002+08:00

reflective is from my sat's y con lo. asked my group to use one word to describe their whole ycon programme. i tink la. mine was reflective. really felt so lo. cuz i really reflected without the direct help from tom like the previous ycon what can i do to make this ycon a meaningful one for the group. haha. did a lot of reflections on the last ycon lo. so yea, thank jan for the cute picture on my knee, but too bad i din get the chance to take a pic of it and post it up here. haha. but wait, i dun tink i even posted pictures lo. so mafan. haha.

tues was quite a slack day. went to lee kong chian ref lib to study agn. totally love that place sia. quiet, many spaces, many books. great place. den at night met up wif him for dinner lo. gosh, damn scary lo, i was juz craving for wanton mee and he was like, lets go for wanton mee. lol!!
"有默契浪漫就不难." from wang li hong song.
yup, agreed. feel nice lo. haiz. wad if i dun need to stay at home. how nice will it be man. no time limit. "今夜有最适合谈心的天气，能不能晚点回去" RAWR!! another quote from the same song agn.
and that night i concluded that i dun like small cars. haha. dunno how ta get in sia.. -.-" haha

wed was a totaly slack day. spent my night waiting for a phone call that nv seem to come. hmmm. den when it finally came, it was such a short short while. damn, shan't complain le la. muz accommodate!! heh.

suddenly tot of sth that really made me wanna blog. the use of the word 'sacrifice' is really hurting. alrite it may be out as a joke, as sth to disturb me, but this is brought too far. gng out with me is really a sacrifice? izzit really that bad a thing, sacrifice ur slp and rest time to go out with me, damn, it a f-ing strong blow to me. ok. i think i thought about this enough to keep me awake till late night, time to move on. f**k the word sacrifice, u tink u sheep or pig? sacrifice. argghhhh.

heard a nice new song on radio in the car ytd. hmm, lets see, i tink its on tues? yup, 画沙 by jay chou and cindy yen, the song is damn good luh. melody by the gal, lyrics by fang wen shan. if the male singer weren't to be jay the song will be much better. hmmm, i guess, TANK or cao ge will make the song much nicer, seriously. yup its totally the kinda genre i like man. geezzz...

Quote:
午后的风摇晃枝丫抖落了盛夏
我对着蝉认真说话在对你牵挂
晚风轻敲着海沙浪堆积起无暇
我跟纯真在比傻爱上你放不下

这风景如画（开满凤凰凤凰花）
院子里花撒（挠灌着那种情话）
等最美的晚霞等故事长大

用手中的流沙画一个你啊
曾说过的永远我们一定不会擦
我的青春开始在喧哗
因为大声说爱你而沙哑

用手中流沙轻描着你的脸颊
也答应说好的未来绝不会重画
许过的承诺我就不会再去拿
因为我爱你呀

将思念压成花有你的记忆干燥成瓶中沙
像沙漏般想着你滴滴答答
擦美美的指甲喝你泡的茶
原来幸福可以这么优雅

不论多大风沙路多分岔我一样找到你呀
管它风怎么刮管雨又怎么下
越痛我就越来越潇洒
不摘不属于自己的花
喔爱闪着泪光为你我可以当傻瓜

这风景如画（开满凤凰凤凰花）
院子里花撒（挠灌着那种情话）
等我们的童话等誓言落下

（画沙，周杰伦与袁咏琳）

finally finish assignments!

2009-11-09T10:56:00.003+08:00

julia nv blog for a long long time le!!!

haha i tink the last time i blogged was arnd 5 days ago? finally i'm free to blog lo. finish my last assignment, chin essay, last fri la. heh, last min work agn, finish the whole damn essay in 5 hrs. damn, i dun tink i'l do well lo, CAP sure screwed de. but nvm, wad i wan is psyc. heeee.
JULIA IS SO HAPPY HER SEM IS GONNA END!!!
but ya, with that, comes exams and then YCAMP! heh. excited luh!!!

anyway, after the completion of the assignment, went out wif MR to celebrate lo. okok la, nt really celebrate. when to bedok blk 85 to eat. heh, the lala is damn good lo! yummy, i'm so gonna go back there to eat agn man. julia feels hungry now. lol. oh ya talkin bout gng bedok, saw mayer di on wed when i went lo. heh. wads the face di gave me sia. but yup, MR complimented di, sae he damn handsome. of course handsome lo. my di can? lol.ya damn long nv see CCH wushu team ppl le. hmmm. wait till their exams finish sia. heh.

sun was a GREAT day. went ta watch poker king lo. long since i watch a chin movie. e!hub is good but he wasted like 8 bucks playin the pick the toy machine. haha. ya man. felt so damn relax on sun la, like finally all my dumb assignments all over le, can play happily le. but julia is gonna start mugging le. tmr shall go ref lib at nat lib to mug chin! gosh, that is like a treasure place la. so happy i found it, goodness, haha.

rite that about it. but ya, about 2 weeks ago i juz tot of sth damn funny. saw on tv the blonde bimbo who din dare to go down the water slide. den i suddenly had this tot, bimbos are named bimbos mebbe cuz they are more expressive with their emotions and thoughts lo. sometimes when we dunno stuff we juz keep mum and hope to find clues on what is that thing by listening to other people's convo. bimbos will just ask straightaway without stopping to observe what is going on and thats why they look damn dumb askin stupid questions. haha. ya man, next time cannot blame bimbos for being so bimbotic luh. cuz mebbe a lot of people are bimbos and himbos themselves just that they dun express their thoughts and emotions so much. make sense eh? heee. obtained another level of enlightenment le! =P ok la this is a bimbotic comment now. RAWR!! but ya, just to add on, mebbe bimbos are not to bimbotic after all. they noe what is going on but they just want attention so thats why they make themselves seem stupid. and stupid gals make guys less alert with them around? haha. dunno why i suddenly have all these thinking sia. but yup. my feelings bout bimbos. LOL i am laughin when i'm reading wad i've typed la. haha.

alrite i guess thats about it. heh.

Quote:
多想要记住这一分钟
回应我幸福的要求
我或许没有别的梦
唯一的是
我爱你你也爱我

不担心一杯红酒，把我的真心透露，或许你在就该懂
冰淇淋在喉咙，能多冷静几秒钟，气氛在浪漫都不够。
烛光晚餐像一场美梦，向这样望着你到永久
一束玫瑰交到你的手中
这一天这一刻这一切，你属于我

多想要拦住这一秒钟，
你每天晚餐都陪我。
美味比不过你温柔，
从此以后，我爱你你爱我

多想要记住这一分钟
回应我幸福的要求
我或许没有别的梦
唯一的是
我爱你你也爱我

我不是个浪漫的家伙
却甘心为你这样做。
想要什么都跟我说
从此以后，我爱你你爱我

我是不是有一点别扭
从不曾这样说出口
太多的愿望在心中
重要的是，我爱你你也爱着我。
（烛光晚餐，曹格）

i love kkochi

2009-11-01T13:09:00.002+08:00

30/10/2009, fri
fri was an uneventful day. 2 hrs of lessons in sch, den went home to try to do chin assignment but to no avail. guessed i procrastinate too much agn. read up on the articles but it took me so freakin long to read it la, shit damn pissed me off. din get the chance to meet him on fri. yea, felt a bit bored lo. glad he still called me at night to chat. haha. this time round our chats were broke up to 3 parts lo. with him stuck at office and the last one was late night, when i off-ed my com. haha. alrite. i guess the only good thing that happened was i finally get to have dinner wif my family. haha. damn, felt abit bad for not gng down to help out the phone interview but yea, i guess it's almost done le rite? hmmm. was looking forward to dry run, with the small small hope that he might attend in the afternoon though his job is holding him back.

31/10/2009, sat
dry run was great!!! i love the programs lo. the way dry run was structured was damn good. those super strenuous ones were done from the start. den slowly the games got more n more slack. dunno wad to say but i really feel that the games were superb! and i guess the ice breakers really helped us break the ice lo. haha. it was almost full force for the leaders la. even melvin went can. wow. i guess he is less busy than.... haha anyways yup. everyone really spoke up. and marlon was damn crazy sia. haha. dry run was good!

after bathing at home i went back to shines to meet them agn to go out. when we started walkin out, damn the rain got bigger la. and i juz finish bathin can?!?! haha eventually we went to have steamboat. damn, i like the steamboat place lo. the waiters and workers there are v friendly sia. i'm gonna go back there agn. hehe. mebbe with MR? yup. after steamboat i left early to meet up wif MR. haha, we seem to meet at least twice every week? went ta KLP to have the damn good kkochi agn, the chicken kebab? dunno how to say la. MR tried the level 3 spicy-ness this time. hiong sia. damn shuang la, esp for a cold weather liddat. he brought along a jacket for me. so nice luh~ i was juz askin for a change of clothes cuz i was cold. heh. he brought like jacket towel and shirt la. but i guess my steamboat smell difffused to his jacket lo. too bad.. haha.

caught a late night movie lo. watch pandorum. damn its nt really good sia. its a typical sci-fi show. hmmm. so far the movies we've watched were nt that nice lo. man. next time muz really read up on it first le. haha. ytd i broke house rules agn, reached home at 2am. LOL. frm ytd, i got some conclusion. unlike wad i told val, i tink it will take a damn long time b4 he asked me that question. seriously. that was a conclusion frm ytd luh~... but nvm, more chance to see first. haha.

today will be a sucky day cuz i need to work on my last assignment den i am free to mug for my exams le! i totally hate assignments can. RAWR!! haha. need ta get back to work liao...

quote may come later at night. LOL

different feelings....

2009-10-29T23:46:00.003+08:00

val said i very long nv blog le. haha here i am. no time to blog everyday lo, got ohilo to read up on and then calling. haha. but once every 2 days i guess its fine ba. bloggin is the first thing i do when i reach home today la, cuz there is stuff to say bout today lo

today is the last main comm meeting for y camp. many many ppl sia. haha. i bit paiseh i nv do up my survival guide lo but nvm, i guess we still have our chances. haha. yup. mix feelings in me now, ok mebbe just now. when i see her and kmkz jokin with each other, omg, i felt it agn. RAWR!! damn weird feeling la, a bit the irritated, ok dunno why it came out but ya, i cannot feel like that, i got MR liao. haha. then during meeting she said like, nt a lot, but her words came out a bit wrong la. oh wells, that did make me feel nt really happy oso. ya. its oso a bit on her insensitiveness i guess. good thing i wasn't her co-**...haha ok la, but her words make sense, just that please don't put it in such a way i guess. ya lo. dun like it when i have this feel.

b4 meetin me n hazmi went hanging arnd ps, ok acty nt much of hanging arnd, more of sitting down, eating and chatting. haha. hazmi wanted to buy moisturizer sia. omg, he got some strawberry flavoured thing frm body shop lo. smells edible la. if i gotta apply it i will eat my hand man. and ya. he was so damn secretive bout it la. super funny lo!! but yup. its damn nice hanging out wif mimi. heh. i tink he is my second y fren lo. ok now my whole hand is filled with smells of perfume from the body shop. it is good, but too much of a good thing sometimes gets a bit irritatin. damn i'm gonna bathe after bloggin sia.

finally submitted the philo paper, damn it f pissed me off sia. juz anyhow do lo. i tink i'l screw up this sem's CAP la. but nvm. slowly slowly sia. today's lesson was quite fun. ponned emotions lec to go for make up tut for chin. haha. i realized chin literary works are quite interesting sia, no wonder tracia was so into it then. haha but i tink i wun find time to go n read such stuff de lo. i'l get more of english stuff ba.

today i sorta missed him a little. dunno why but after ytd i feel that i am a bit inferior to his ex gfs. yea man. like a bit pei bu shang him, shit why i always have this inferiority complex sia. but there was a sentence he said: all my ex gfs very good at expressing themselves and more inclined towards the arts side. hmmm, i felt a bit inferior when i heard it lo. like. damn, i'm just a student. what am i to him man. RAWR!! then today after i said i ended lesson den he nv reply me le. until now sia. i'm still waitin for his reply lo. damn. i checked my phone so many times today la. for his msg, his predicted missed calls, anything... but dun have sia. hmmmm. why? izzit i say wrong things agn, or he really thinks we are nt suited for each other. hmmm. i'm thinkin of that question oso lo. but ya la its too early to say so. juz now got another more exaggerating thought la. i suddenly start to worry did he fell off the building when he wanted to reply an sms, or mebbe MY sms? damn can he please freakin reply?!?!

ok as usual i heard this song on my mp3 agn. explained what i felt for a moment, den i realised mebbe this song can be one of those that he choose to dedicate to me. hehe

Quote:
今夜玩得有一点疯狂
其实我早就该回去
整夜的笑容在你的脸上
你是我最美的旋律

牵手牵得那么自然 ah
有默契浪漫就不难
像是手表被谁快转
你说真的时间太晚 oh no no

oh 在每一秒里都想见到你
爱是不停在期待的心
拥有完美感情才有好心情
能不能晚点回去

oh 在每一秒里都想见到你
太多话我想讲给你听
今夜有最适合谈心的天气
能不能晚点回去
(每一秒里都想见到你, 王力宏)

today is quite a nice day though he nv reply me. haha. nice weather too. hope it will be the same tmr, but with him replyin. RAWR!!

Another night

2009-10-27T21:48:00.002+08:00

Another Night, Real McCoy

Another night, another dream, and always you
It's like a vision of love that seems to be true
Another night, another dream, and always you
In the night I dream of a love so true

Just another night, another vision of love
You feel joy, you feel pain
'Cause nothing will be the same
Just another night, it's all that it takes
To understand the difference between
lovers and fakes, oh baby

I talk, talk, I talk to you
In the night in your dream of love so true

In the night, in my dreams
I'm in love with you
'Cause you talk to me, like lovers do
I feel joy, I feel pain, 'cause it's still the same
when the night is gone I'll be alone

Another night, another dream, and always you
It's like a vision of love that seems to be true
Another night, another dream, and always you
In the night I dream of a love so true

Just another night, another dream
Another vision of love,
And we are here to set you free
I am the lover, your lover
Hey, sister, let me cover your body with my loving
Is my loving just a number?

Vision of love that seems to be true
we will do all the things that only lovers do

WHEN THE NIGHT IS GONE I'LL BE ALONE..

i'l miss ning!!

2009-10-27T17:00:00.003+08:00

went to send ning off at the airport early this morn lo. gosh. i actually felt a bit like crying when ning started to. damn. this must be the retribution for making ning cry. RAWR!! but i really wanted to hug her luh~ no intentions of making her cry de. mannn. really hoped i could have cried out but dunno why after so long of nt cryin my tears juz got choked at the ends of the tear duct. man, din feel it when we sent jieru off lo. this is the second person i sent this year. heh. ning, like now we've been really close she just left sg lo, i think i'll miss out on someone to talk to when i feel confused and stuff liddat le. and i lost my partner to speak in lingo le lo. though MR speaks it too. haha.

will miss ning for being there every saturday to accompany me lo. cuz val usually has family stuff so cannot join the big grp. so most of the time its just me ning and the guys. haha. really thanks so much for ning to be there. all the htht's i'l miss times sharing things with her. nvm, i guess 53 days will past really quickly. after all my exams and y camp she will be back agn! yay! julia is being optimistic.

after ning left we went off home lo. have this real burning urge to call MR to make him comfort him. shit, i sorta longed for him to be there so that he's there to lend me his shoulder lo. arghh. finally when i am alone le i called he was sorta busy and cannot chat with me. haizz. hu was the one who say 'girl, you can call me anytime you want'. damn.

i tink like wad val said, i'm falling liao. ok, i guess i fell le. sobs, i feel like meeting him everyday. but this is impossible for me lo, esp wif my mum. haiz, stupid reasons can only be used once. darn. i'm damn scared he's toyin my feelings sia. like after my heart is dedicated to him, den he smash it onto the floor. RAWR!! muz build up on my defence le... anyway, ytd i told him that i wanted to meet him. haha. great job he met me as KLP. man. the kkochi is alrd so nice but with someone sharing the nice food i felt the chicken was heavenly. the best thing ytd was, i'l come back agn for the chicken. man. this simple sentence alrd recognized that my taste (for food) is nt bad, at least he agrees to it. this is recognitions i need lo. <3.... julia is floating away.

forgot to say. went kusu island ytd for this 'annual pilgrimage'. haha nt to the extent la, but i look forward to gng there to pray every year. the nice scenery, the serenity, the anticipation of wishes to come true. and every single thing on the island, it never failed to attract me back there every year. hope the next year i go there will be someone else with me too. haha. yea, i agreed to bring him there some day. hehe. i hope my wishes will come true...

i'm looking forward to tmr and thurs meeting. haha. and dry run too. ok the big obstacle today is to pass nt meeting him and finish my philo essay. shall reward myself with an eps of liu xing hua yuan korean version after my essay. haha. i tink later in the night there will be another round of blogging lo but right now.. i guess i shall stop ranting. hehe.

heard this song on my mp3 on bus ytd, gosh, it somehow described my feelings ytd. hehe
Quote:
.......
直到你现在能感应
紧紧地抱着我
让我在你怀里躲

糟了习惯了
你把我宠坏了
在你保护外没有别的安全地带
糟了习惯了
是你让我笑了陶醉在天空宁静的白色
我像个大小孩依赖

(宠坏了，stella huang xiang yi)

i wanna say sorry

2009-10-25T11:25:00.003+08:00

today was i freaking tiring day. being volunteer is so great compared to being a leader man. yea. today apsn outing was to gamehaven to play wii. i guess they benes have a nice time, but i din really get the chance to play it. so ya lor. its the benes time n nt mine anyway, so it is great to see them enjoy themselves. haha. jospeh gave a deep deep speech to us, where some of the points really hit me, nt hard but ya, i guess i realised i have real much room for improvement.

sometimes it isn't good to keep nagging at the benes, they will get irritated. they feel what we feel though, so yes that will feel irritated
we don't need to make our benes actively participate in everything. nth can be so perfect and go ur way, so yes. be passive at times when u handle benes?
though benes are nt good un using their 5 senses tgt wif logical thinking, they have this intuition thing that make them realise things arnd them and this is how they gets to remain at this world. so ya lor.....

wad i've learnt. a lot lo. to be more organised and think of the whole process and activity b4 anything starts. hmmm, think more thoroughly b4 everything, dun be too hard on the rules. heh. ya la wadeva man. ytd was so nt prepared lo. i cannot slp at 3 b4 outings liao. muz slp earlier.

yea ytd i got 3 ppl to say sry to, now still wanna sae sorry.

first to babysitter, though he wun read the blog and i dun wan him to read the blog. man ytd was crap. i told him that i dun wanna associate with him sia. it was totally the wrong stuff i was thinkin about la, so juz blurted out the thing lo. sia la, it is totally damn bad, freakin totally. arghhh. REALLY WANNA SAY SORRY. told him le but still i guess it was too traumatic for him. omg i feel like a super bad woman sia. shit. and ytd i tink its cuz i dun have enuff slp plus dunno why la, i feel i damn bad towards him lor. shit man, keep pickin on his pronunciation stuff. arghh. nvm la, after a few days then i go back talkin to him? hmmmm

2nd is peifen, hmmm, i was totally nt prepare for setting the dates la. shit, this made her lost confidence in me huh? i hope she doesn't, cuz i really wanna do well at this camp. hmmm. sorry peifen. i will think more next time b4 each meeting de.

lastly is MR. hmmmm. wad belay team said is true. physical or emotional. i was a lil worried when i met him at night. had this little distance from him lo. but nope. i dun think it is a problem le. hmmm, he knew his limits. i guess he din wan me to feel uncomfortable ba. lol. thanks belay team for the concern. =) for now i will be more aware but still, wanna say sorry to him cuz i sorta doubted him. haha.

yea, today was good but a bit weird. like every sun i've been meetin MR, suddenly a sunday we din meet up, like sth missing huh. lol. shit man, like wad val says, i guess i'l falling le. haha. yea. still hope my belay team is there to look out for me. =) but after ytd's incident wif babysitter, one less person is no longer a belay team le lo. shit man.

i've been scolding a lot of shits today, but yea. the shitty feel bout ytd is still there...

quote:
when you start thinking if you love that someone, you alrd stopped loving him.

this is an old quote but reading thru my past posts i feel this is real meaningful. yes i totally agreed to it.

post happiness syndrome

2009-10-23T19:28:00.005+08:00

shit man, i feel damn weird and down and sian and irrtitated today la. mebbe its cuz i have pms today or cuz ytd was to happy le. so i am suffering frm the post happiness syndrome. this is damn dumb but i wanna push the blame wholly to MR. he ended ytd so nice for me but today its such a cold day. like, nth exciting, nth fun. this is just like some post camp syndrome la. anyway i hope he's better today le.

i dun deny i fell aslp smiling to myself ytd. haha. had wake up call today though, 'snoozed' 3 times la. hehe, i finally woke up. when to sch for 2 hrs lesson den chiong home le. presentation for sw is totally crap, i tink i screwed it up lo. but i dun care la. its like the second last tut of the sem le. man i like social work. and i was tinkin mebbe i shud have let it be my major. no, it will be my major if i cannot get into psyc. haha. got back my sw indv reflections. ok mebbe its cuz i wrote quite a few reflections paper for ymca activities le so thats why my paper got A. hehe, vv happy though its only a mere 10% and i spent only 20 mins doing the 350 word reflections. sucks man i had so much more to write lo. haha.

yea decided to drop by the library b4 i go home. wanna look for philo books but i cant find the section in the public lib, so forget it la. randomly i borrowed a malay phrasebook home to read. heh. haven started reading lo.

when i was walkin home i was thinkin about, if MR post me the ques, will i accept? haha. i finally concluded that i'l bring him home for my parents to vet first, den see if he will pass or nt. lol. he'd better have to get into my parents good books b4 he does anything else. oh wells, like wad horoscopes says, capricorns are really family oriented. so yup. that is if he asks me lo. i have a feeling it wun be so soon though. i insisted we take time. =)

i juz rem the day b4 he was tellin me about why is babysitter so nice to me, mebbe he likes me? haha, crap la i told him it was nonsense, but ya, he is the third person who tells me so le. anyway i shall just believe that he is my babysitter and he is nice to me cuz we are in belay team. haha. but next time me and him have chance tgt i will nv call him along agn lo. lol the previous meetin was the chance gone. lol, the meetin b4 halloween party.

heard this song on bus today
reminds me of that time me n ning sang this song but yea, i guess part of me want this to happen:

QUOTE:
但请你不要太快揭开还沉默的情话

先让我多着急一下再终于等到解答

太容易的爱故事就不耐人回味啦

像这样触电就够我快乐熔化

我们就耐心培养萌芽不要急着开花

反正有长长的日记等我们去填满它

在被全世界发现以前先愉快装傻

就这样触电一直甜蜜触电

直到爆炸
(触电，SHE)

y camp meeting

2009-10-23T00:29:00.004+08:00

changed the blogskin to this new one lo. its quite cute sia, and its totally the format i like it to be like la. great! hope this skin dun go away so soon. from cradle to grave lo, sound like one of the lessons i had for social studies in sec sch. hehe. its so interesting man.

ok anyway today was quite a long day but i feel its quite a happy day for me lo. heh. 2hrs of lec, den met wif bek n victor for cs comm meeting den down to y to meet val to do stuff den y camp meeting. haha

hope that i wun be dead next yr doin my stuff for u**y sia. ok la i must have trust in my fellow members that they will not leave me in the lurch to settle everything myself. hmmm. anyway i tink we settled our stuff quite fast lo. so ok thats the good part for the lunch meeting. yea man.

oh jumping back to the lecture. seriously i tink the lectire is quite memorable sia. about romance in late modernization. haha. sia la the lecturer ask the guys how they date girls out, how much they spend each date blah blah blah. damn funny sia. the best part is the carpark joke. haha. 'i'l hang out at any kinda parks besides carpark', ultimate. ok anyway its a long story i'm lazy to talk about. heh

yea camp meeting was good. today i felt damn happy at meeting lei. mebbe its cuz the feel is nice, quite informal, jokes made blah blah. i like todays meeting. hehe. ya man. our angel mortal thing goes well oso. hehe. today u felt we seem to settle quite a few stuff liao. really, one of the last meeting b4 the exams start lo. heh. i feel real happy today, though now i'm supposed to be reading my readings and not slack arnd blogging. haha.

today juju took mr greedy down the phone le. =) i guess there may be some 藕断丝连but ya, i guess my crush for kmkz ended le. the moment when i got my hug. haha. hope there will be new things to put up to my phone pouch. =)

feeling happy feeling high feeling so good! and i am laughing to myself. haha. shit man. smiling giggling and laughing. RAWR!! this is totally crazy!!! haha

Quote:
有没有一把剑

能够真斩了藕断丝连

有没有一条线

能缝撤散的缘

独唱情歌最苦涩

逃不了的折磨

当生死相许说出口

别后眷恋已久

......
(独唱情歌，tank & selina)

tues wif ning n y people

2009-10-21T21:07:00.002+08:00

tues, 20/10/09
nice nice time i had in the afternoon till night time. morn we met up for a short short belay team htht at fort canning. its a real nice place lo. heh. val ning and me~! so much to say, so lil time we had. dumb dumb wh, reach so early for wad lo. lol. but yea. hope ning likes our small small appreciation hehe.

went to ikea after meetin wh and tom. for lunch. haha this sounds noob but its the first time i had lunch at ikea. nt bad lo the meatballs, but seriously i tink i a bit scared of meatballs now liao sia. haha. when i saw the place i suddenly rem of the scene in 500 days of summer at ikea. haha, quite funny lo. imagine the couple on the bed and the chin family lookin at them. hehe.

den we went to bugis, for steamboat dinner luh~. wanna say sry to tom val shaun and wh cuz they wanted to play l4d but i refused to go lo. haha. went to coffeebean at iluma instead. they have real nice choc ice blend sia. yums!! ok after that i'm nt so guilty le cuz the 4 of them went to play b4 gng for steamboat lo.

steamboat brings back nice memories huh. the previous time i went i was sharing the same ma la guo wif him la. this time we went we were sitting far far away from each other. lol. the soup base was diff this time too, heh. the whole belay team is on the same table lo. haha. man. i juz tot of the nice nice time we had previously at the first time of steamboat and i realised, wad a waste man. haha. nvm la.. time to move on. i guess in 2 weeks time mr greedy will be down frm my hp pouch le. =) yea. worried bout her luh. but in the end it turned out well!! feel happy for her! =) glad stuff turned out ok lo. i guess. haha. yea, MR was sick too, poor guy, so much to do so lil time to rest lo... lol.

when i went home the msg on sw proj totally pissed me off sia. i oso felt a bit sick le but i don't got the chance to rest lo. shit man. felt so anal when i on-ed my com ytd la. arghh. well. ytd night was the ultimate. i guess cuz of the steamboat it got heaty in my body, was running this slight fever liao lo. den reading all the stuff nearly killed me. ok i shud not deny this. there are so many times i felt like callin MR to talk to him lo, for at least someone to comfort me but when i nearly called i gotta cancel the call cuz he needs his rest more than i do. omg man. i was literally writhing on my bed when i finished my stuff la. like shit can he gimme a call now. arghhh. ok this is weird lo, but at this point of time when i need comfort the first guy i tot of was him le. last time seein kmkz's name on msn is enuff to keep me gng liao. haha, now its a change huh. hmmmmm. but anyway the damn night passed lo, like finally. but i still feel hot now. as in feverish hot. gross feeling sia.

wed, 21/10/09
day of sch lo, wad else man? the chin lec was quite funny though. haha. but yea, the whole time i was talkin to MR. thru sms. haha. woots, he is gettin more and more, ~~~~~~~, haha the stuff he say really make hair stand huh. LOL. but i an shuang la.... haha. but its so nice having someone to talk nice stuff to ya after a whole period of dan lian and 1 day of illness. haha. finally cheng until the end of the lectures le..

on my way home i tot of ikea agn. suddenly had this feeling to rearrange my room lo, so it will be damn spacious. woots, damn excited bout the idea la. i can almost feel myself in the new arrangement of my room le can. its gonna have a new cabinet, wadeva u call it, a beanbag sofa, and a nice rug. omg this seems super cosy la!!! haha. free frm the messy messy times le sia. =)

ok i guess i need to go back to work now lo, dunno why i had this weird weird feeling when he nv reply me on msn. hmmmm. one ton of you. hahah

feeling anal?

2009-10-19T21:39:00.004+08:00

haha, my title for this post is feeling anal lo.
indeed i am feeling a bit irritated.
i just tot of the confession and i was pissed by it.
so wad do u take me as huh?
wad are you tryin to achieve?
am i just one of the other noobs u r tryin to kidd?
gosh, dunno why i got this feeling la. irritates me sia
good thing i've got my nissin laksa to console me. haha
it never failed to do so =)
food!!!
ok this is a random post but yaa, at least i said out my bu-shuang-ness. haha
back to doin sw report le! last part..

change my life?

2009-10-19T02:55:00.002+08:00

damn, i suddenly realised i dun wanna live llife like that anymore
there are much for stuff for me to do lo
but i am just wastin my time away
i freakin know it for goodness sake
but i am not doing anything to change it
facebook is killing me, it is taking my life away
but it is a horrible addiction
i've really gotta put my priorities first
arghh
i am feeling damn anal now
first time i am stuck with an assignment
shit man
i tink uni is makin me getting more and more stupid
it toned me down so much
i freaking wanna go back to the old times
when i can still get to train with my dears
walking by chung cheng lake
enjoy the trouble-less life in sec sch
time is never gonna turn back
i will never get the chance agn
i hate the hectic life of Singapore
it totally sucks
TOTALLY

damn, i was feeling damn lousy luh~ hence the double post on one day. indeed, fuck singapore life man. but i dun tink i have the rights to complain here though. heh. i just hope the end of the world will really come soon so i dun have to worry about what is gonna happen to me in 4 yrs time?

BAM!! MAY THE WORLD BE DESTROYED!!

pool session?

2009-10-18T22:31:00.001+08:00

haha. another nice day of slackin. went out the whole day luh~! MR got the car from his boss, so we went arnd with it. yea, had nice indo food at TM den watched 500 days of summer lo. haha, quite a hmmmmm show but ok la.. haha. den went for pool at parkway! like finally we went there le, but seriously i tink i suck at pool la, or maybe he is good? shit man, i tink guys arnd me seriously play pool well lo. haha. and ya, C classic is damn nice. feel is damn good la, but sadly today i nt in the correct mood to play lo. after that we had a long long chat in the car. haha. chattin agn huh. loads of stuff said sia. but then he gotta lend the car to kok so yea, went back to my area lo. =) anyway we were late and kok was pissed, i tink. haha. nv see him b4 sia. and he stays arnd my area. hmmm. went for dinner arnd my house area. the mussels are damn good sia. yumms!!! heh. yea, saw another of his fren luh~. woa, i tink i've seen like almost the whole of his clique le? haha.

he told me he like me ytd, but seriously, i feel we still have a long way to go. no. he has. now the feel is just attraction? yea, he admits to it too. haha. the long long chat today is really useful. and yea, i believe attraction will not bring you anywhere far lo. haha, there was no answer to the confession from me. it just went pass. hmmm, i feel he still wants us to be friends first? yes. i oso tink so luh~. haha. wad a weird thing. this is happening way beyond the rate that i expected. yea man. mr greedy is still on my phone pouch. will it be down soon? and how soon will it be? lol.

julia is damn sian bout all the things that is going on lo. shit man i shud nt have taken up the post at vice pres for cs. rawr! but its slowly gettin up. i feel? i see the plan is there, volunteers are there, but how am i gonna approach them sia. i feel so inefficient. hmmm. there is still a proj submission waitin for me sia. sian sian sian!!! and i seriously dunno how to start doing it la! arghh. ok i muz get back to work le, so much of procrastination sia, lol.

SW indv assignment

2009-10-16T01:15:00.002+08:00

woa. it damn fast luh, its the end of the week alrd. hmmm, time is passing so fast that i hardly ever realised wad i'm doing. it seems like i've been slackin my whole year 1 sem 1 away luh~. juz finish tushing our my sw indv assignment which is due tmr 5pm. hmmmm. there seem to be so much to do but so little time for every thing, or probably its just me wasting my life away?

went to haw par villa for a real walk today. hmmm. its real nice lo, but a bit eerie to walk all alone in the big garden with the figurines around you that seem to come to life anytime you turn your head away. i guess i should have gone with someone else. haha the chance will come. =) anyways, really wanted to stay there and stone for arnd 2 hrs but i guess i cannot bring myself to do it cuz i felt uneasy there. lol. spent half an hr finish walkin thru the whole place lo. really hope i could have had someone's shoulders to lie on, or just someone walkin right beside me o feel i'm nt alone. heh.

wanted to visit grandma in the hospital today but mum said that she is discharged le. lol. felt happy but guilty. guilty that i din manage to find time to go down to visit her but happy she is fine now. =) the hospital does not seems a really friendly place to me lo. hmmm

lookin back at the message history with MR, i realised we've been talkin for arnd 3 weeks le? wow it seems damn fast lo. lol. yea man. i concluded he is a nice good guy. haha. but this may not mean much ya? lol

gonna meet up wif waihan tmr le. like damn long nv see him le la, finally after sometime i'm gonna meet him. gosh both him n young all the same one, once they got attached the gals are put in first priority. sia la. how bout ur good fren here who is still alone and waiting for the right one to come by. i'm gonna mug wh tmr le. haha. and he's gonna meet me cuz his gal initiated it. wow, i dun have a good feeling bout this.

eh when ning leave i tink i will miss her a lot a lot, yea man. but hope the 70 days pass damn fast and we'l be able to have our heart to heart chats agn, BELAY TEAM!! haha

when the day mr greedy is off my phone pouch, it will be indication that i moved on le. lol. frm kmkz. haha. then i guess i will owe that to the few ppl arnd me luh~. lol

gosh i realise today's entry is so haphazard, seems like there is totally no link at all luh. hmmmm.

quote:
我给你最后的疼爱是手放开
...
把爱收进胸前左边口袋
(手放开，李聖杰)

interview with tc

2009-10-13T15:13:00.003+08:00

din blog for the past few days le. it seems a long long time since i blogged, mebbe its cuz i din get to talk and bitch and.. wadeva lo.. lol.

what happened on mon? hmmm, mon got sch till damn late huh. den met up wif MR at night for him to help me out wif my work lo. help me out wif interview which is due the next day? haha damn heng i finished it in time. gosh, i learnt so many things frm him la, insurance, work, planning of career. wow. its totally so cool, esp when he drew the map out lo. LOL. thats wad a mature man will do sia. hmmm. its so nice hearing people talk bout their plans in future and the stuff lo. feel so happy for them, esp if it turn out well and right. wahaha. yea went back at 11 plus. he sent me home lo. ok everytime we go out is he send me home de. haha. mon is ok ok, feeling floaty lo.

next day i woke at 6am to do my hw la, the interview. haha. feels damn slack can? like some last min work. lol. but glad stuff went well. hehe. oh ya oh ya, before i left my house i found my wallet right at my doorstep sia, like it magically appeared lo. WOW! though the money is gone le i'm still happy other stuff nv get missin. haha. muz thank lao tian and everyone, who helped me prayed and... blah blah blah. but yea. first person i called was MR. like damn happy la. cuz he was there with me all the while when my wallet was gone. hmmmm. julia is lucky! yay. den wad. when to sch lo. told my prof sth MR said to me. beauty is not visual, it is not only bout looks, but it comes from within too. haha. prof was sayin maybe mature guys have different mentality from the guys now who only look at looks? then slowly to the inner beauty haha. and yes, i rem him sayin smarter girls are more attractive. haha totally man. after lesson when y agn, to get ready for tri uniy camp meeting? i was the only NUS rep sia. heh a bit de sian cuz i was nt in the situation sia. distracted, tired, eyes closin, so yaaa. a bit the sian. though meetin val val and jing was fun. heh. plus the few other uniy's people. LOL. after meetin was dinner tgt. supposed to find grandma cuz she hospitalized lo, but it was past the visitation time when meetin ended, so forget it le lo. hmmmm. blah blah blah.

when i reach home den i realise i forgot to bring my lappy adaptor n charger home can? cannot read my stuff usin com lo. gotta print so much rubbish using the damn desktop la, damn irritatin sia. haha. plus the readings all in trad chin characters, damn siann. sms-in MR when readin. it was damn nice of himto call me back when i din reply him for 15 mins la. if he nv call i sure wun go n slp de. i was supposed to finish the readings b4 i slp but cuz of the call i could slp properly la. end up he din slp well n din need my morn call. hahaha. he called my big sweet potato in canto =(, for leaving my stuff arnd, sia la he is one big one can. hahaa

wed morn chiong to sch sia. tired tired tired!! the first person i talked to was him agn. got a call to ask if i woke liao. hahaha. i'm nt so slack can. heh. talked to yin yue after so long lo. damn nice. she is damn super funny n slack like me can? haha. yea man. after that went to y to get my adaptor. but detoured to haw par villar to see see look look. sia la. its as nice as ever, but as miserable as ever, almost no one in there la, but still, its a super serene place. i tink i will go there to mug sia, wif all the nice nice scenery and stuff, that is crazy sia. heh. din explore cuz i was afraid it rain and i'm stranded there. lol. had another chat with him on my way to y lo. lol, on the phone. omg, i realised these few days its really him everywhere la. juz now juz after tuition we met up agn for dinner, acty its beef horfun but no space to park!!! so went to joo chiat for wanton mee. hahaha. nice time huh.

finally i found time to blog lo. like v long nv blog liao. feels so good getting my emotions and wad i wanna say out of my mind. lol. there is just this one more thing i wanna add on. smart guys are attractive, dumb guys are irritatin. haha. shit man this is gettin bitchy agn, but sometimes when stuff is like so duh you still ask for what, its damn dumb la.. arghhh. cannot take it sia. sometime i really feel pek chek talkin to the nt so clever guy. nvm nvm. i muz ren, cuz he is still concerned lo. ok this is nt bout MR. haha. i feel he is a smart matured guy. and he will attract girls de lo, like seriously. haha. ok la i guess thats about it.

today's quote is nt a song, its wad someone said:
beauty is not visual.

outing wif tc?

2009-10-11T22:19:00.003+08:00

today is a great n bad day lo. heh. acty quite excited b4 gng out sia? dunno why. and yup, cuz of some delay me n MR met at 12. haha i guess a nickname will be better? heh. he is damn nice luh~ this is my conclusion bout him. nice to other people nt i dunno la, but to me, i guess it feels good. lol. movie is at 1pm, phobia2. we went to have quick quick lunch first den went for the movie lo. gosh the ending is damn sucky sia. irritatin la. and its nt scary lo. a bit of a disappointment sia. but after that we were walkin arnd KLP den headed off to parkway lo.

at parkway when we went to c classic when i realised my wallet is GONE. omg!! was stunned but ya, i dun feel worried sia. i seriously dunno why. with MR arnd i feel that anything can be solved sia. omg what kinda mentality sia. den we went everywhere to find my wallet la. parkway, carpark, cinema, pet shop. everywhere we went sia. heh n he was ferryin me arnd lo. damn nice of him arrrr. lol. and he's feelin guilty bout me gng out wif him den i lost my wallet. lol. totally nt his fault la. but ya, vv comforting with him arnd. den he was the one who acc me to make a police report lo. sia la first time into a police post. heh. den we went to ecp to have this vv long chat, cuz i was feeling emo. heh. v nice talkin to him lo. we talked about a lot a lot of things under the sun
literally under the sun, the setting sun, but it was too cloudy to see the setting sun. still, nice weather atmosphere chat. really a great day. i felt comfortable with him arnd, seriously.

sia la, a mature guy arnd, felt a small sense of security. lol. and ya, felt that he is really intelligent, nt the academic kind but the street-wise kind, and lowers down his standard to talk to a immature kid like me lo. heh. that feels nice. really appreciated lo. =) really nice to have someone to talk to so well, n i hope he is my co leader this camp sia. lol. den i tink i wun screw up the camp le. lol. for now i guess he can be put as a nice fren? LOL. i din tink of kmkz today cuz of this outing, yay! another day of less misery.. haha. one more thing, he set the song i sent him as his ringtone luh~. haha. midnight romeo...=)

quote:
爱我的人对我痴心不悔
我却为我爱的人，甘心一生伤悲
在乎的人始终不对
谁对谁不必虚伪

爱我的人为我付出一切
我却为我爱的人，流泪狂乱心碎
爱与被爱同样受罪
为什么不懂拒绝，痴情地包围

《爱我和我爱的人》

back frm halloween night

2009-10-10T15:58:00.005+08:00

finally i'm back frm ycon after the halloween night. damn seh sia. slpt for about 1 hr den choing for y con le. plus all the lipstick marks on my face cannot be removed le lo. (sounds scandalous^^) but yea. it sucks to have everyone, esp the boys, askin why ur face like that one. haha. plus i gotta wear a cap due to my now green hair. heh. damn mafan luh. this is all due to a moment of chong dong-ness. haha. i tink the lipstick will be damn scary so i bua quite a lot, now everything is stuck to my face and it is quite gross lo. tmr cannot go out liao laa. =( den wad, the hair oso the same. next time i go for ycon i muz bring cap along le lo. cuz of my hair and someone says it is bad influence to the boys. oh wells, looks like my sadistic level alrd up one level, to the 自讨苦吃 level le. LOL. i really like my hair though. hehe

after the round of halloween party i came to stuffs i noted bout lo. val val sorta proved it true that honeymoon period in a relationship does not only last for 1 mth to 2 yrs due to attraction when ur hormones are raging and there is some physiological changes leading to attraction to the specific person for the period of time. after the honeymoon period is over there will be nt much left to sustain the relationship. but yea. she proved it otherwise. very very envious when she says she misses her boyfriend. well, i guess it is a bliss to love someone and get the feelings reciprocated yea? happy for val =) and yea. time will pass vv soon. no worries to val yup? hehe. i look forward to getting such a strong relationship. thank val for injecting some hope to what i feel about such stuffs lo.

during the long long chat at night b4 we slp (and that was wad caused us frm all slpin for only a short short period of time say 1 hr plus?) the topic really got me thinking bout me n him now. ok i shall give him a name too, uuhhmmm, kmkz for kamakazee? haha yea. seriously, they asked me a question that left me thinkin, what do i really see in him that kept my crush going? what do i like bout him lo. well, rather stuck at this question. hmmm. at first it was chemistry ba, attraction? yup, you wun noe wad kinda stuff can such bodily changes cause. then due to the constant suanning of someone that i start to see more good of him? being with him makes me feel really comfortable luh~. but that was during the start when we knew each other? yea. he really give me that kinda feeling that i feel he is a guy that i like. yea.. like, aiya i dunno how to say la, though he is playin arnd all the time he is the kinda guy that really thinks deep into the situations and consider circumstances? considerate thinking i would say. hmm. this is the biggest part that attracted me. other things like cute behavior and stuff. makes me <3... hahaha, but ya, recently due to some dunno incident we nv really talk le. not really close as b4 le lo. i feel its a waste but the feelings are still there.. yes it sucks with no common topic and stuff like that, but being with him make me happy enough. its only when i tink about the dist b/w physical bodies and the dist b/w the hearts, its so freakin near yet far, this will sure make me emo luh...... haizzzz. well i need time to sort out my feelings but as of now, i think 走一步算一步. dun wanna think of it for the moment.

another thing, gosh, i feel unfair at times. when we were back at the table talkin bout our stuff erm some guy was sitting there. ok i know its wrong but i have a bit of thing to bitch bout him lo. hmmm. he is always listening to our woes and emo little secrets and everything. expects us to let him know everything and keep him involved but does he do the same to us too? i dun feel it lo. he is always keeping everything to himself. when you ask what is going on with him he always say nothing. like, man, this is wad frenz are for. i dun believe you have no problems that you wanna share with someone lo. but like, i dun feel like a close enuff fren lo. like i keep telling you stuff and you are not confiding into me, nt even to anyone. gosh, like, why liddat, mebbe he dun wanna bother us with his problems since we have so many problems at hand le. but he seem to always want to be part of everything. for our little chats, i tink he will express his dissatisfaction in us not telling him stuff lo. then what, threaten us? hmmm. this is our little secrets yea? ok i shall stand firm when i need to but i just feel it is unfair, at least to me. but ya la, i am the one sharing my stuff with him so i dun tink i have the rights to say anything here. hmmm.

he's getting from bad to worse luh~. i understand the situation of being involved in every activity, but when some stuff dun even concern you why are you involved too? why is he like everywhere for every single activity. like, ok, i noe you wanna be in, but isn't that getting a bit too far? it is even getting on to my nerves lo, so i guess probably the situation getting worse le? now it seems like i am drawin the line clear now but ya, it gets a bit irritatin when you are also there in stuff that don't concern you yea? omg. i'm bitchin so much agn. ok, but hope he changes for the better, though i seriously dunno how to tell this to him. haizz..

alrite, enough of bitching la. today y con was nt bad but nt v good either. lol. din like the rainy weather sia. it sucks, but yea. it stopped magically, like wad bf junlong said. WOW. we got to kayak but it wasn't that sorta good cuz there is so little chance to kayak lo. =( but still i tink the boys n volunteers did get to enjoy a bit of the kayakin ba. haha. keepin an eye on them today was a bit tiring but i guess victor help us made the situation easier after the warning for the boys. lol. realised they are actually cooperative in nature but they wanna act cool so thats why they din wanna do stuff. lol. empathize with amanda and jan and chikki. omg this is like half of my team? hmm. amanda, really tough for her cuz her buddy is so cold towards her luh. poor gal we see wad we can help yea? chikki, lucky or nt lucky for him his buddy din get to kayak. gosh this is bad. how is he gonna survive camp with his buddy when the bondin is still nt there. haiz. jan, omg, really hope that she feel so bad bout her buddy sia, but that is my fave pair out of my ycon grp, the rapport they built up. omg. this is good, but hope it juz stays as a platonic relationship yea? haha

woo finally get all the rubbish out of my heart le. it sucks to be kept in sia. LOL. this post is made up of 2 parts cuz one part is when i was waitin for my hair to dry b4 i go to slp, the other is after i wake frm my sleep. hehe. julia had a big achievement today! she manage to not follow ahem all the way down le. juju can stay firm and learn nt to go places that don't concern me to waste time cuz someone is there. haha.

tmr is sun le. hmmmm. we'll see how it goes luh~. haha, dunno if i'm lookin forward to it or nt lo. lol......

nice thursday!

2009-10-08T23:54:00.003+08:00

today is damn xiong sia. after u**y meeting in sch i chiong-ed down y for another meeting.
omg i got stuff to complain sia. heng heng bek is on my side lo. the y staff are so ambitious la. omg. expand mini y camp to like wad? 100 benes. b**** la sia. den its nt a mini y camo anymore. how can this be possible sia. ok, though y camp has the framework done le, but still. u tink benes will wanna go for camp for 4 times a yr meh? den if yes, the volunteers where got so xiong wanna do so many camps de. omg laa. shit man i really feel like bitchin but i dunno how to express myself. another one is the adventure quest thing. i tot we'l start small so we'll be lookin at 20 plus pax. den wad? suddenly bomb 80 benes. omg, den the benes dun need to go for camp liao sia. this adventure quest thing can be y con for benes den they still got 4 camps la. seriously i tink this is a bit too much, plus still muz let it run for 9 mths. F*** man. will this be some superman thing. and the more clever thing is. staff was sayin its big boss de idea so we shud go about doin it. but have they tot bout how to implement it? like argghhhh. find volunteers, wanting them to commit, make sure they are free. pls la. this is damn bloody ambitious can? shit man. i bitch so much will have karma de lo. later some y staff find it out i jiu die liao. lol. but still, damn i cannot help but express my emotions here. damn.... still really muz thank bek for standing wif me bout startin out small. cuz like, really too ambitious la.

but otherwise, y camp meeting was so much more realistic sia. seeing the comm really brighten up my day. gosh, be it the old comm or the new comm, i guess today's meetin was nt bad though we dragged till arnd 11 plus. heh, got tc to send me home, dun need to take bussss!!! and ya, realistic stuff. now i compare u**y meeting wif the staff and y camp meeting, damn i hope vic can be part of u**y staff lo. haha. thanks chaos so much for helpin us along the way lo. dun tink he will find this la but ya, really appreciate his protection hehe.

well for the moment still can cope i guess. lemme live for the moment. lookin forward to the next 3 days, fri got party, sat y con, sun out! yay!

okkkk. i'm waitin. waitin. waitin for ..... to come online. FASTERRR!!!

perplexed?

2009-10-07T23:13:00.004+08:00

yet another day of slackin at home. sia la how i wish every week in uni is elearning week. its damn shuang can. LOL. everything is own time own target lo. heh.

juz now while packin my room sth dropped out of my jeans. saw the note one of my grp bbh boys gave me lo. lol, read it thru agn. damn satisfied to actually get a boy open up to me. probably i din do much n its his buddy that helped him along lo, but still i damn happy he wrote that note to me sia.. one fulfilling accomplishment from my grp guys. LOL. hmmm, probably that reassurance that i am doing ok? so yup. pat on julia's back! keep up the good work. i alrd kept the note nicely in a file of encouragements le lo, tgt wif previous y camp's simba's notes. haha.

hmmm, he's been giving me a bit of problem over here. he'l be named mr A? things he say is suggestive, but i really have doubts about what he is doin is out of erm... for fun? boredom? lets hope wad i see from his actions are not true, esp after i told him i have a crush on someone le. well, these still continue, dunno wads gng on sia. hmmm. his actions are leaving me perplexed lo. like shit, wad am i supposed to do? believe in the words? play along? play dumb and act that i dunno anything? lol. hope i get the ling gan to ask him bout it soon lo. really dunno how to ask him about what is he thinking. but its really nice talkin to him. haha. if the HE does that so nicely jiu hao le. haiz.
what a contradiction, how contradictory. damn....

in the morn while talkin to ning she sent me this song crush. damn its really nice lo. n describe me n him de situation now la. 完全说出了我心里的话. totally wanna dedicate this song to him can? arghhhhh.

quote:
why do i keep running from the truth?
all i ever think about is you
you got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
and i've just got to know

do you ever think, when you're all alone
all that we can be, where this thing can go
am i crazy or falling in love?
is it real or just another crush?

do you catch a breath, when i look at you?
are you holding back, like the way i do?
cuz i'm tryin and tryin to walk away
but i know this crush ain't going away.......

see it's a chance we've gotta take
cuz i believe that we can make this into something that can last
last forever, forever

(crush, david archuleta)

reflective mode

2009-10-06T17:15:00.004+08:00

when i was on bus back frm daybreak FSC juz now i suddenly tot of me suanning tc bout him being scary n he wants to self-reflect. haha. i guess i had a long enuff bus-ride to self reflect a little lo lol.

there are really many roles a person actually plays when in this society and we all juz let it pass, or take it on ourselves. or we are so used to it that we take it for granted that these are the roles we need to play. oh wells. i realised these few roles in my life luh~.. haha

being my parents' daughter
being an elder sister
being a student in sch
being a volunteer (leader)
being a person an lian-in someone
being a friend's friend
being someone in singapore
being some being in the world

soo many roles to take on, so much responsibilities to take up. but no one seem to complain huh. lol. ok mine is juz really little roles only lo. other people have more, someone's employee, someone's father, blah blah blah. heh. i really feel probably i haven fulfill these responsibilities to the max lo. will playin a better role in each different character bring about better environment for everyone?

for 1, have I been a good girl, not letting mummy angry? have I been trying to meet their expectations? will i be able to support them in the future like how they supported me now? will I be filial even after i got my family next time?
for 2, have i gave my sis sufficient attention so that she learns well? have i been neglecting her so much that we are not really close now? have I guide her to the path where i think will be good for her? do i dote on her but at the same time be strict enough wif her?
for 3, have i given enough attention to my studies? have i been hogging on to facebook for a long long time? do i even give my studies the required attention? lol!
for 4, being a leader. have i done my very best? have i been putting conscious effort in doing all i can? do i go it cuz of own initiative or juz cuz i wanna please people? do i even learn form what i am doing? am i really happy being a leader or i am happy juz cuz i get to be near .....?!
for 5, oh wells, i seriously think i have given too much attention to this part. izzit really needed? or is it juz redundant cuz he wun even noe it and dun appreciate it? this is the worst part sia. izzit even worth all my attention? gosh.
for 6, am i really being a good fren to everyone? do i, at times, complain and bitch bout them? do i worth the good friends that i have around me? do i appreciate them a lot? hmmmm.
for 7&8, have i done my part well. seriously i dun care but this statement had alrd stated probably i haven fulfilled my responsibilities as a citizen.

wooo. this is really a chunk of reflective questions. i feel these are really superficial stuff la, but ya. these were what was going thru my mind on the bus. but if i were to fulfill all these responsibilities wun i be too tired to do other things? den it seems like i am living for others. mebbe what i am doing now is just right. it has juz stuck a balance between being true to myself, able to enjoy my life, but at the same time, still let the others have a nice time around me. hmmm. this is wad i think though. lol. a bit philo huh. LOL

oh wells, its in the near future when i have the answers to these questions lo. lol.

quote:
Everytime we touch i get this feeling
and everytime we kiss i swear i could fly
can you feel my heart beat fast i want this to last
need you by my side

And everytime we touch i feel ecstatic
Everytime we kiss i reach for the skies.
can you feel my heart beat slow, i cant let you go
want you in my life....

(everytime we touch, cascada)

e learning week

2009-10-05T11:42:00.004+08:00

heard this new song on radio, forgot which channel la, called midnight romeo by push play i tink. rite, this is the kinda genre i like, hmmm, rock? yup. romeo, juliet and romeo. is he really the right romeo for me? in my life? lol. i really dun wanna doubt that. cuz he really fills my <3 completely lo. lol, till the point that it is 无可救药. ok mebbe nt so kua zhang la. but the idea is there.

how do you know if someone thinks deep? thru actions? words you say? wadeva. i guess its hard to show how one thinks deep ba? but does not mean they don't think k? hmmm. i'm still pondering and munching on the words i was told a few days ago. lol.

elearning week starts le!!! damn slack la, dun need to go sch for the damn lectures. lol. but i still gotta go sch or somewhere near sch later, tues, thurs and fri lo, which equals to no holiday? hmmmm. later 1 hr philo tut, tues pool session at wcrc, thurs got uni y meeting at sch lib, fri got social work tut. hmmmm. all go sch for such a short short while only la. damn irritatin!!! haha. ok i guess i'm in the middle of psyc elearning lec now and was distracted by the nice nice blog skin thats up there so started blogging le lo. hehe.

one random thing, i like my turquoise hair. heeeeeeee. hope the colour just stays but this is rather impossible lo. hmmm. i guess tonight i shall blog a bit more. thats all for the moment.

alrite this is continued from the afternoon post. i juz rem granddad went for his Alzheimer's check-up last fri. mum says doc saes he dun have such disease or brain degradation lo. he has all these weird behavior juz to attract attention from people arnd him. omg. i dunno if this is goood or bad la. good that he is quite fine(though i suspect he really has mild dementia but still not very bad) or bad that people are ignoring him? hmmm, now probably i need to make the effort to go down and visit him ba, but i keep having reservations about going to find him lo. hmmm, this internal struggle is killing me sia. ok mebbe its not killing la. i keep pushing my responsibilities away and escaping from this reality. dunno what to do lo. i feel not ready to talk to granddad yet la, but, he is my granddad. haha. contradictions man. haiz, shall 走一步看一步，船到桥头自然直. things will get better i guess. lol. heng i had interactions wif the dementia old people before lo, for sw visit so yea, guess i'm a bit more experienced? juz by a bit. heh. will utilize this knowledge de.

hope life is still happy-go-lucky for me. i look forward to fri's halloween night ><

quote:
ok no quote, i wanna quote midnight romeo but it seems a bit inappropraite, but its a nice song! hehe

fairytales

2009-10-04T12:30:00.004+08:00

man, i never believe that fairytales ever exists. but i really hope one will happen to me. what is this man? irony? knowing something will not happen but still hope it will happen? i start to feel emo la. haha.

its always like that luh~. the guy i like wun like me de. why man? i feel like quoting another song but i tink i quoted it b4 liao

quote:
难道我就这样过我的一生
我得吻注定吻不到最爱的人...
（从开始到现在，张信哲）

yea. this sounds sad but i really feel my future relationship life really very 渺茫. i'm only yr one lo, but it seems like i dun have much time left to find my right one and have fun b4 i go on to work next time. 4 yrs. if i am gonna spend the next few year continue liking him den i will like him until i end my studies? it wun be reciprocated, i am very sure of this. so i am gonna waste all the whole 4 years? haizzz. seriously i look forward to everytime we meet. everytime we talk. i miss those days that i really get to talk to you every single day lo. and the replies are damn quick la. those where the days, gone and will never be back. really really miss it. everytime i see u i really wanna tell you my feelings la. it sucks to be kept in there. sucks. totally. =(

oh wells, i tink my blue hair is makin me blue la. baddd. juju cannot emo sia. muz be happy! heh. conquer the blues, look forward to the bright sunshine!

welcome back =)

2009-10-04T00:18:00.007+08:00

woooo. damn freakin long nv blog le. haha. i suddenly have the feel to blog today sia. hehe. so go julia! and i realised its almost one year when i touched my blog. haha

rite, for some updates, me is in nus fass le lo. wanna major in psyc. hope things goes well for me thruout the 4 yrs. life now revolves arnd sch pool n ymca only lo. seldom get to see mummy daddy n sis sia. when i am home its always late le so its hard to see them. miss mummy n daddy! joined cuesports as cca lo. juz got blue highlight on my hair ytd. gosh, wanted it to b blue but it came out turqoise. still nt bad i guess, but the y ppl sae it looks like algae. wahaha. alrite. thats about it la.

hmmmmm. uni life is good. quite slack n everything lo, though is missed out all the orientation stuff i still made a few good frenz. hehe. meetin soulmate? i guess nt. someone in mind le lo. haha. good thing i am in FASS n took all arts mods so i guess i'm nt that stressed le? haha soon la i tink the stress will step in in sem 2 lo, when my cap cannot get what i want. LOL.

yea. today the y ppl celebrated yiwei's bdae den mid autumn festival tgt. haha. seriously, when i am nt wif my sch mates i am wif y ppl le lo, one day see them for dunno how many days sia. hehe. but seriously i'l miss the times gng out wif them, cuz i can unglam to wadeva extend and its a norm cuz everyone is UNGLAM!! wahaha. and also cuz of...... went to watch cloudy with a chance of meatballs? eh dunno wads the title but the show was quite funny. lol laughed till peng la. heh. rite that was the most recent thing that happened so wrote it first. heee. the other big thing today was celebrating yiwei's bdae at smu lo. damn funny sia, he walked level 1 of SOB wif the noisy lantern n windmill kinda thing. rite. if it were me i'l juz dig a hole n hide in sia. wahaha.
yet another thing that happened was picnic at ymca. haha, at y AGN!! wanted to go henderson waves but tian bu zuo mei. nvm we still had fun i guess. i still have the leftover 7-up in my bag that i'm lazy to take out. gosh. i feel so happy today! always look forward to sats lo. hahaha

yea, i was treated like a kid yet agn. mebbe i really have a kid mentality? haha. yea, i'm nt as innocent as a kid pls. everyone esp him thinks i am. damn, i am aware of stuff gng on la sia, juz diam diam dun sae doesn't mean i dunno rite? hur! nvm, this is for people to realise n nt for me to comment about ba? mebbe i'm really kiddish. haiz. deep thinker? think deep? oh wells. mebbe the connection in my brain to think deep have nt been set up, soon it'l be up. heh. and, i argue back ur suggestions does nt mean i am stubborn i ignore ur suggestion luh~. cuz at my part i will try to change la, but u dunno the real reason of me havin such mentality sia. u really dunno. n u presume u noe it. yea, so much for reading a kid. wells i guess i really should put in effort too. haha, i hope and dun hope he will see this. project BBQ will commence today. hahaa at the point when the post is posted.

one more thing. i really wun find my soulmate in sch oso le lo. it sucks man, totally, to have someone fill ur heart fully n he doesn't know it. or mebbe he knows it but tries to ignore it? ain't that F-in obvious? or is he tryin nt to spoil the frenship? haha. the 镜中花 , 水中月 ; 可望不可及 de feelin really pisses the shit out of me sia. man. he is always so near yet so far away from me. HOW?!?! sob sob. 2 days ago i tot of confessin to him sia. thought bout the scenario, how am i gonna tell him, wad am i gonna say, in wad form am i gonna express my feelings and wad to hope for after the confession. damn, its really tiring doing all these waitin. damn he muz have been the longest crush after sec sch de. haha. hong hong lie lie sia.

quote:
爱情的计时炸弹快要爆炸我的情绪你晓得吗？
当你抚摸我的头发我又为你心跳十下
(计时炸弹，潘嘉丽）

heys, i still remember the quotes i used to have for every blog post sia. guess its been in my long term memory le lo. haha really really hope and dun hope he reads my blog, but yea, i guess there will be a lot more of such parts in future posts lo, since now i have my lappy wif me le. heh. i feel that my heart really goes all the way out to him le lo. the time i get it back is really after i biao bai and see that there is no hope at all le. he is so bing shan how to even melt the ice when my fire is not hot enough, or when my fire is still not penetrative. i tink i muz be the Sun sia. heh, of any supernovas lo. to burn his ice mountain.

facebook says i should move on and not waste time on him anymore, really, i start to think so too, but its damn hard to pet it go, esp when i'm really so obsessed wif him. well the pea has a meaning to it too. heh.
so much bout him, guess the next post i will have summore quotes to describe him de?

one more thing, i feel really really happy for my damn good fren sia.
mood: happy!

study leave starts...

2008-10-10T22:43:00.003+08:00

sian!!! so finally our study leave starts lo. its a damn long time since i blogged, oh wells, I've got loads and loads to say. lol

ok first. 3 oct is the graduation day for the j2s. gng to sch just for the few moments. ok la. the performances they put up for us were quite nice. v funny also lo. oh ya, mr lim being one of the cheerleaders. epic sia. damn funny. i guess the guys got the vid of the whole part lo. thanz mr lim for the great performance. haha. thank you j1s for the nice stuff put up lo. oh wait, why am i starting to thank every1? not like i freaking care? lol. aniwae after that we celebrated 'mummy's' bdae at cryatal jade at bugis. 'mummy' suddenly had a craving for xiao long bao lo. so yup, mi val n marg went to eat. was looking and deciding where to go when finally we went crystal jade. wow, damn cool. the xiao long bao v nice, the la mian nt bad n quite cheap, i like my dessert, and the service damn good. i like them being so efficient lo. haha. well, altogether its a nice day. (=^.^=)

then sat, 4th oct. its vj open house!! damn cool lo. ok, maybe the cool part is cuz i pulled jellybean along. haha. met at paya lebar mrt den took bus lo. when we reached it was still early la. i was in this cch pe tee, den tio scolded poser (sth liddat la) by a j1 fren, wadeva his name is la. lol. aniwae i brought AH arnd the sch lo, ok la, acty the open house quite boring ar. lol. bt bryan brought aik hwee arnd to perform. wa i tink he wowed damn loads of ppl la. lol! no1 noes yoyo can b so zai lo. n yup. he performed damn loads. thanz man, for being so sporting.
after that went wif him to suntec. aawwwww. i finally started yoyo-in. haha. saw him did his 4a ap first. wow. i tink if clean he sure own de. if nt still win la, bt nt own lo. the tricks r damn awe-inspiring la. haha. den i started learnin yoyo frm them peepx. in conclusion.

yoyo rocks man.

lol!! anw thanz aik hwee, sophia n tim n other random ppl for helpin mi out. haha. thanz AH for the string! now i shall go yoyo-in every sat whenever i can le. lol!

yup. then come to this week. damn sian la. everyday i go back sch for stupid reasons. juz for a few hrs den go home la, damn waste of time can? arghhh. bt heck la. now i noe i can only mug at home. n mebbe wif some ppl lo. lol. so yup. muggin at home!!!!!!!!

thurs went kusu island. hope my wishes i made there come true. lol.

sucks man my life now damn sian. can't wait for after exams lo. prom, yoyoin, learnin korean, y camps, mebbe taiwan. wow!!

happy belated bdae mummy n yap heng!

emptiness

2008-09-30T21:43:00.005+08:00

tmr is hari raya dunno wadeva lo. well, it'll be another day of muggin le lo. damn. tryin to studyin is damn sian. keep procrastinating and not startin, the feel is killing mi. wanna start but can't bring myself to start. gosh. this is bad bad feeling. lets hope tmr i'l feel good enough to mug yea?

today saw my og mate in j1, shan't say hu la, but i feel vj people, a handful of them, are damn fake sia. ok, its nice to give a smile to sae hi, but, wads with the big fake smile sia. this irks mi la. nt lyk at cch, when u smile, it is an almost genuine smile (muz gif them the benefit of doubt). gosh. i hate this feelin man. i tink this is really time for me to get ready for the working world le. haiz. sucks man.

我还想成为你的小女孩，让你捧在手心里疼。
当初所有的点点滴滴，都在心中不停的翻腾。当初走的是我，为什么现在又有这种思念的感觉？
连老天都在嘲笑我，大雨不停的落下，似乎想冲走我忧郁的心情，却无法发挥那神奇的功能。
雨，已经加重了我以周遭的心情。
我，不想再想了。

today shuffle my songs in the mp3, man, even songs can trigger the thoughts in my mind lo. heard 大男人小女孩，way back into love, 玫瑰花的葬礼，wad the hell. all the songs r songs of THAT time. now all appear today. reminded me of the past lo. mockin me eh? jellybean said to not look into the past, and dun put the useless thoughts into ur mind. quite true. the past is history, the present is passing, what matters is the future. look to the future man.

haiz, another emo day la. plus the emo weather. man. mebbe i shud listen to 'another night' to cheer up more. but well, for now, thanz jellybean. =)

miracles actually do happen

2008-09-25T22:27:00.003+08:00

luck is when opportunity strikes when you are prepared.
miracles happen when luck n coincidence occurs.
this is damn freakin true for mi this time round lo, for prelims.

i guess everything is quite alright la. no a or b grades, a lil disappointing. i thought i'l get A for math but well, i guess its the amount of effort i put in la, careless plus not enough practice. well i tried to reflect, but actually... dammit la, stupid math paper, wad the hell sia, i could have gotten A de can. stupid paper. dumb argh. bio: D; chem: E; gp: E.
econs case study 1 gittin back tmr. hope i dun screw it lo. bt no matter how bad i do i'l still pass la. whish is like. wow. finally i passed my econs. guess that was the miracle that happened lo. n my essays were ok lei. upon 25, got 3 ques, 16, 15, 7. ok wwad the hell 7 upon 25. lol. i did the killer question lo. bt thats nt the point, impt ting is dat my essays finally improve lo. haha. really luck is when opprtunity meets preparation. cool sia. juz humtum sum rubbish, plus a bit of content, lol. econs is not you mug everything then can score de. hmm. i'm tryin to slack la. oh wells. hope tmr everything goes well.
n bio! i passed with a nt bad grade lo, considering i only mugged for 6 hrs for bio. lol.

woo crap so much bout exams sia. prelims suck. i wan liberation from hell la. i hate muggin!! hmm. some time to start complainin? oh hell no. i should say,
i love mugging! its my life man. i can't live without muggin!!

dis is crap la lol. trying so hard to psycho myself. haiz. i still can't find the real meaning in muggin can? besides proceeding on to uni and get into the course of my choice den to a job i aim for. hmmm. long reflections eh? well, last shot le. 1 mth to A's. jiayou gambette all the best, aja aja hwaitin. wadeva la.

special thanz to jellybean lo. lol. he rock man. guess he'l b smiling when he sees dis part, and say, : ya i know i rock. LOL! thanz for pei-in me n encouraging me. lol.

ooh tmr gittin colours award lei. yay! my third award. this came as a surprise oso too. grats to myself. wahaha. din remember there was such thing like colours award until (dunno who) told me lol. thanz huiying for lending mi the ah ma shoes. lol. its looks real ah ma though. lol!

woo. i feel damn shiuang after bloggin so much. like blogged 'legally' la. damn shuang. woohoohoo!!

now, i shall read some chem stuff inpreparation for chem mcqs practice tmr. lol. happy time for me!

est. plus thanz to uncle wh ;)

2008-09-22T22:48:00.003+08:00

haiz.
exams are finally over le. i should have blogged straight after exams, now i've forgotten wad i wanna say bout prelims. on the whole, it sucks. really sucks big time. i hate exams la!!! i'm prepared to screw prelims, but my mum is just adding oil to fire. arghh, shan't blog bout her. she sucks la. fuck sia.

shant tok bout her le. some happy stuff lo. went to suntec ytd wif uncle. thanz for gng wif mi yea? i get to watch almost the whole est lo. yoyoin rocks n i officially announce: i'm gonna learn yoyo after a's!! marcus was damn zai. so was lionel. haha. both of them r my sub sub idols. heex. bt aik hwee is still the most zai!! he's judge lo. big big sia, though shadow judge only. lol. din get to c idol perform la. sian. lol. bt aniwae, boss damn nice arh. watch whole of est lo, almost the whole. i tink waihan is interested in yoyoin le. lol. n after tokin to AH. lol.

k la dats bout it le. damn my mum la, i got kicked off le. shall blog more next time.

2 more days to prelims

2008-09-05T21:42:00.003+08:00

wa sian. this 2 weeks i'm freakin unproductive la. go sch study did only 2 chaps, go macs study oso do 2 chaps. its the same routine everyday lo, yet i'm nt makin any effort to improve. man. dis time prelims sure screwed de la. haiz. shall try to do a bit more today. b4 i go play tmr. lol!

thanz jiehao for the french toast today. lol. nt bad lo. v cheezy (ahem, i mean the toast, lol) bt cold le so... nvm still its nice. heex. den had a cup of coffee frm the macs 2 bucks breakfast. damn la. after the coffee i'm so bloated that i din eat the sausage mcmuffin, at last gif jh lo. sian. go home le i feel lyk pukin la. lyk some pregnant women sia. wanna puke bt nth comes out. damn damn sian. cannot mug for the day le la. nvm nvm. still muz try, cuz tmr go play le!!!

hmm, i keep sayin i gng to play, gng to meet jellybean den go watch cubin comp. lol. gonna git my yoyo tmr lo. yay!! hope it isn't too hard, n that it wun b a super distraction for mi study for prelims la. lol. dun care le. tmr den sae. lol!

aawwww, i'm feelin excited lo. lyk finally can go out play after so many days of unproductive muggin. but play is more impt dan muggin, hope i can mug better after playin.

hope i faster git well soon ar. the nauseous feel go away, my running nose run away. grrr. damn it.

2 more days to start of prelims, first 2 papers killer paper lo. chem essay ques n econs essay ques. my hand sure die de. haiz. sian to the max.

wish mi luck man. i hate exams.

i saw my idol!!

2008-09-02T02:48:00.003+08:00

aawww man. in the morn when muggin wif may at mp lib. reached there at lyk 9.55am. wa the whole entrance filled wif ppl sia. lol. damn loads la. when the door open chiong up to the top storey lo. faster dan the ppl takin lift. ha too bad, no space for you bleh. den started math. may came so late la. many people came by to ask, eh is ani1 sittin. damn paiseh sia, cuz the sign put, nt reservation of seats. lol. bt eventually she came n we started muggin. did some econs n math arh. damn un productive(lyk it had been in the past whole week) lol. may keep gng down to git dis git dat. i was a bit beta lo. only go toilet. haha. we went at arnd 2.45pm for lunch.

lunch at parkway hawker. the wanton mee damn suck sia. lol. may's porridge was nice, v nice lo. got the wok smell. ok its my imagination le. bt well. i shud have eaten dat la. after lunch may bought tissues. she wanted to give it all away lo(*after keepin 3 packets for herself) bt dunno how to gif. lol there we go to suntec.

36 was rather crowded lo, eventually we reached. now i noe where to stop le*-.-"* den may wanted to gif her tissue la. damn lame. n no1 wants it lo. i got 3 packets frm her. den the rest. hmm. walked to carefourre to buy my jellybeans lo. went to the wrong storey so went up. there she was tryin to gif ppl her tissue!!! of cuz no1 wants it. lol finally she left it on the public fone booth there (orh hor!). finally on the correct storey n i found the jellybeans station, bt it was a bit too ex, so nv buy lo. awwww. we went to the electric piano side. may was spammin the piano lyk all the other kids n ppl there lo. lol i admit i was damn bored then. haha

finally we left, walked thru my playground lo. den saw sum ppl doin yoyo. i was lyk. eh? yoyo here one meh? was lookin at them arh (ok, also searchin for aik hwee haha) n i tot i saw him. i tot, cuz it was quite blur. haha. aawww man, den dunno y he suddenly turn arnd n was lookin at mi? lol. wa siao, damn paiseh, dunno y, mebbe cuz i was in shorts ba, damn unglam. haha. i siam-ed i tink, pull may away lo. haha. den eventually we walked back n he was lyk, wavin at mi. -.-" haha. v lil yoyoers lei, i tot ll have at least 30 odd? apparently not. haha

then he was sayin lyk, b sum random passerby n stand there to look lo. lol yup we did so, n yoyo-in is cool man. i am more determined to learn liao. haha. saw ppl playin diabolo, wa oso v zai sia. bt offstring still damn cool.watch for a while le jiu go toysrus to 'play' le. lol.

wa we created havoc sia. may was tryin to juggle n i was knock down a few v heavy tings(dunno wad izzit la) den blah blah. saw yoyo too, n cube and stuff lo. lol. disgraced myself la, lyk totally. den i was wearin vj shirt. wa gg la. lol. den i tink we went back to my playground bt they nt there le. den wanted to show may spinworks so ya. went there lo. halfway we stopped for magic show. damn lame sia. haha. the crowd reaction was damn bad. den when to spinworks to look at the yoyos. wa a hayabusa is lyk, 50 bucks? siao. freakin ex la. lol. n the counter weights r damn cute. haha. den blah blah blah. wa suddenly a yoyo roll over. stopped it in time. lol! man, it was AH's yoyo!!! haha. its a white haya. damn cool lo, bt i stepped on it lei. damn. should have picked it up la. bt aniwae. its cuz of dat he talked to mi. lyk wow, i'm tokin to my idol. waaaaaaa. haha.

'wad time u leavin?' 'soon lo, mebbe now' ......(i forgot) 'den when u cumin agn?' 'hmm dunno lei' ' nvm est arh' 'ya hor ok next week,..., i gng off now lo, dun forget my yoyo arh!' lol!

sth liddat la. it was a damn short convo only. marcus walked pass lo. i feel its purposely de la, though mebbe its i tink too much le. lol. ya thanz to the hayabusa i talked to my idol yea? lol.

den afterdat went home lo. den tuition.

at tuition wanted to ask if the new hci guy lyk noe jellybean or nt la. i still haven tok to him b4 sia. lol. bt ya. din have the chance to. n wad the hell. wayne is havin his last lesson last sat la. damn, nv tell us earlier. wa stupid guy. aawwww. i guess we'l all miss him lo. lyk the last 2 mths n he left.

hmm dats bout it for last sat. sun n mon, as usual, unproductive muggin. damn sian. gonna go geylang east lib to mug tmr. lol

1 week to GP prelims

2008-08-19T22:17:00.003+08:00

gosh. life sucks sia.
here i am agn, ranting. well, i shud stop my relentless bemoans n start appreciatin wad i haf la. time is so little, n there's so much to do. *oh fine mebbbe i shan't be bloggin how?* but come to think of it, well, i'm havin the motivation to start le la, so, i guess it isn't too late? i dun wanna study animore!

wadeva time izzit now, waitin for sum1 is damn suck sia. oh fine, val made mi realised my feelings. ok, wadeva feelings i have, its juz a waste of time la. damn la, juz ignore all these stupid stuff n git on with life yea. people of different worlds cannot progress to beyond the certain limit, we'l reached it. the more i wanna prove this theory wrong, the more i feel this theory holds. haiz. stop tinkin so much le. this sounds damn ambiguous eh? definitely no real feel involved.

gosh, i seriously dunno wad am i talkin bout la. mebbe i'm too tired, mebbe gp had this PROFOUND effect on mi le. man, all the weird weird thoughts all came up lo. my fone is now stagnant sia, no msg no calls nth. wad a contradiction, 1 mths ago my fone bill explode like dunno wad la. dis mth, i guess i can have so much excess msg n call time le lo.

i dun wanna end there lo. i dun wan. i still got stuff to do after a's de. oh dear. no link. wadeva la...

i found this old old song, i like the lyrics, the tune, the feel:
another night (real mccoy)
...
in the nite in my dreams i'm in love with you
cuz you talk to me like lovers do

i feel joy i feel pain cause it's still the same
when the night is gone i'l be alone

arghhh

2008-08-08T23:39:00.002+08:00

darn, i feel so frustrated nowadays

results. had chem n bio test, well, the zammin damn shuang, bt hope the zammin goes into effect. thurs, gp essay, nt a test though, bt the points came to me by instinct and the words were flowing freely lo. straight after gp is break den econs case study. man, after the test val said sth dat make me feel quite pressurized lo. she was sayin the case study was easy bt no, i tink its damn hard can. now i start to doubt my ability to do econs. wa sian.

damn, mum is tryin to cage mi up at home to study, nt like i will mug like some freak when i'm at home. grrr, i shall stop complainin n start muggin, yes, the 2nd last lap le. after prelims den a lvls n poof!

oh man, i screwed some stupid registration, which added on to my frustration la. damn, after screwin ma still niao n niao, wa lao u can cum n do if you so zai, my brain was so saturated with econs n math that i cant tink liao la, too bad gotta wait till 12 aug to cont eveyting lo. too bad.

yes i'm gng for sdd(prom) my time to rebel sia. haha. shall look forward to finishin of a lvls.

n damn sian AP is much earlier la, rite b4 the first paper can, gp, damn, i tink i can only go watch 1 day lo. sian. jellybean promised to go watch wif mi. haha. v gd, shall git the yoyo frm him le. haha.

damn, dis post is super super random, totally no flow at all la. nvm, xi guan jiu hao, gonna cook noodles now le yay! SUPPER TIME!

damn the tests tmr la

2008-08-04T21:29:00.001+08:00

woo.
dats a spam of news on yoyo-in blog of sg. okay, he's alrite le, i'm nt gonna spam him wif the details. lol. boy, git well soon sia. yup, there's a next yr, u damn super lucky la. free for worlds. damn la. i wanna go n watch lo. wahahah. aniwae. thank goodness u're 'fine'. worried lyk dunno wad sia. oh well, i guess u r. haha. hui is rite, guys n gals take stuff differently. yay.
jiayou man, there's a great spam of tests when u're back la. me too, 2 stupid tests tmr. bio n chem, plus my econs case study haven do lo. gonna heck le. haha. still yup. jiayou man! my msn oso tio spam arh. lol.
today's post short n swit, shall end here. still the same ting, git well soon!
p.s. yes, i wanna change my POV le, he'l win rei de. though rei got the max le, yes, idol is better than the max. go on man, next yr pwn them all! lol, n no joinin cd le. haha. stupid category -.-"

i'l nt miss ap dis yr! cannot miss it sia. shall see world class competition lo. hehe.

Phew.

2008-08-02T23:04:00.003+08:00

man i've guessed it lo.

he's sure to stay to watch worlds since he's there le and look at every1's style n stuff. sittin down all the time, muz be damn hard for him ba, with the yoyo-in temptin him lyk dunno wad. oh wells at least there's some news of him. he isn't mia le. *heaved a sigh of relief* so.. it'l b at least mon when he'l b back ba. hmm.

this yr real shockin lei. rei is damn gd. i really like his style, and bloddy no mistakes at all la. bt still, my jellybean is the best. my idol lei. rei a bit poser arh. ha. seriously, if jellybean were to be there, he'l probably git 2nd ba? wow. damn, i am waitin for next yr le sia. wads worse is shinji, after so many yrs of champ, got thrashed dis yr. omg. lyk damn shockin la. bt well, who can stay up there all the time. guess its time he met some strong opponents le b.

if jellybean were to go, where will he stand? i guess he'l b at a nt bad place lo. the competition was damn tough lo, in my point of view?=) 5a. hmm, muz jiayou! we shall see how is it at this yr's ap. 20 nov at suntec, juz nice on the last day of my a's. i am super lucky wor.

guess i've to wait till he's back ba. haiz. soon soon. 2 more days to go.

I WANNA GO N WATCH WORLDS LIFE NEXT YR!!!!!!!

ah is injureD!

2008-08-02T08:38:00.003+08:00

damn
wads dis man. he was real aniticipating his world champ title la. all the hard work he put in. all the enthusiasm, all the efforts, all the anticipation, all the pressure. omg. there he's injured. damn suay can. haiz. din qualify for 5a lo, oh wells, mebbe muz jiayou more. bt dis is nt the main point!!!!!!

wa lao he freakin suay la. read dat it was quite bad. on the forum it says, he suddenly sat down on stage blah blah blah. mia after combined freestyle. haiz. we will expect such suay thing to happen. took so much effort to go half a planet away and poof......

BUT. there is always next yr yup. dis yr cannot nvm. next yr, more zai sia. and end of yr got ap. in sg la, bet he'l retain his title. really hoped to c him perform n cum back sg damn happily. haiz. life sucks eh?
nonononono. i can't mourn bout this. muz remain the optimistic feel and cheer him on. there are much much more chances. mebbe heaven dun wan him compete cuz dis yr if he wins can thrash, next tym when he go, with more experience, he'l be yao yao ling xian. haha.
orh man. dis sounds so...................

haiz wait for him to come back then console ba. i'm already feelin damn suck la, dunno how is he gonna take it lo. poor guy. really hope its alrite for him.
gogo jiayou! nt only ur dcs ppl n the yoyoers and ur other frenz ll cheer you on,
ur fan will always be there!!!!!!!!!!

get well soon green apple jellybean!

to jellybean

2008-07-28T00:19:00.004+08:00

ah:
jiayou for worlds sia, bet dis is ur anticipated event lo. lyk the largest yoyo event that can occur? lol great luck sia. yup. success is luck plus skill de lo. haha. yee its damn weird sayin dis liddat lei. juz hope my idol ll live up to his name! yay i lyk 4a the most! maintain ur coolness n style sia. luck is on ur side! plus i'm waitin for my treat n my yoyo. yay. hope u'l b back wif damn zai results lo. lol. wadeva la i dunno wad to sae le lol. juz jiayou. yay i believe my idol can do it, n i'm aniticipating for the great results le. lol!
gogo jiayou!

agn i damn long nv blog le. oh wells, shall juz sae briefly bout last mon ba. went to parkway sakae for lunch wif young. wa damn long nv c him le sia. he looked beta, mebbe its cuz he wear contacts ba. mebbe i shall change to contacts soon. mebbe after my a's. haha. super long nv eat sakae le. young helped me pay a bit lo, i still owe him money sia. lol. haf peach flavoured mochi icecream, yay i love mochi ice cream haha. chatted non stop while eatin la. damn cool. i shan't rant bout his childish-ness, scared of bein seen wif a gal. wadeva lo.

went to cut hair during halfday on fri wif ma. well my new haircut is ok ok only, now my face look rounder, grrr, plus my frilly curly hair, yee. bt ok la, shall bear with it until it grows longer. at least my fringe isn't disturbing mi now. hahha. i lyk food at maxwell mkt.

sat got tuition after college day. college day is a total waste of time can, i could have done more econs if i were at home lo. stupid day la, nt lyk i'l go back next yr to git anitin. i feel so nt acknowledged lo. suibian, dun wanna rant bout dis also. den in tuitionwe laughed a lot. lh's hwa chong fren came along to join us oso. we laughed a lot la. n i tink his fren is lyk his pattern de lo. birds of the same feathers flock together. wadeva n how-ever u sae it. lol. mebbe he's more man ba. lol

gosh its less than 29 hrs to his departure le. n worlds is gonna start!! i wanna go watch la. grrr. seems damn cool lo. sian. nvm i shall go watch east regionals(which clashes wif my prelims) and ap 08, at sg dis yr yay!(straight after my a's, shall camp at suntec le sia, dis yr in sg le!). n i'm gonna git my yoyo when he comes back. bleh, wahaha. sian tuition make mi so nt free during sat to go suntec c the yoyo-ers display their damn cool skills. rawr! lol

dats bout it, after 1 full, entire day of econs, its bio now! haiz.

stupid gay

2008-07-19T23:04:00.003+08:00

went for tuition today. was quite, well, happy, lyk tuition for my fave subject cuz happy lo. as usual the gay sittin beside mi. fine. then wad, he nv bring gc, borrow frm mi, okay lo we share. walao. irritatin can, i'm damn disgusted by his gay actions la. mebbe its inborn, his nature to b damn gay. oh wells. yucky. utterly disgusted la! i dun even c gals as 'gentle' as him can? the way he talk, so deh la, summore speak into my ear liddat. yew. the way the type stuff into the gc, pls, can go take the tai hou de 'finger extender' (wadeva you call dat). wa lao, pissed la. den tryin to hao lian ur calculator skills rite? stupid gay, can stand you la. BLOODY HELL!! shall call another person sit beside mi next wk.

oh wells, repacked my room today. ah, looks nt bad lo, damn neat now la. now i tink i'll feel much happier studyin home. well i dun work well studyin outside lo.

sian i missed the sc carnival at vj ytd. shud b damn fun lo. bt after meeting mr lim mr lim said wanna go siglap disturb the klaz ppl eatin there. haha. din wanna go bt at last we went, me marg n yap heng. cool, he treated all of as there lo. total was lyk 80 bucks, and there la. haha. thanz mr lim. den yap heng siyuan deb went back to skool. n mi, i did a crazy ting. walked home frm siglap. shall post the many pics i took on my way home on facebook. my route, silgap to katong to outside cch, to city plaza there thru geylang den to grandma old house then home. grandma moved house on fri, ah gong ah po n ah yee. went up to look at the outside of the house lo. damnb nostalgic sia. all my childhood memories there. the corridor i played at since i was born, the ladder i wanted to climb since young, meetin ryan grandma house. all the small details and memories. man, its damn nice and swit. now shifting to a new place le. the new house damn preety la, bt, i wanna go back to the old house lei. level catchin. the corridors, the long long walkway. all are gonna disappear in 4-5 yrs time. en block. man. time doesn't wait for people. i wanna return back to when i was a kid (mebbe i'm still a kid now). shit man. another sad ting was i knew the preety white cat died la, the day before was its 1 mth death anniversary. sad, it was buried behind the temple. sad tings on a day. haiz. finally when i finish the whole route walkin it was arnd 5.00pm le. started at 2.35pm and end at 5.00pm, it took 2hrs25min.damn zai. haha. dis is to offset wad i got for the 2 lunches in the day. wow. damn tired lo.

oh wells, i shud go study le la, at least i muz try. haha. gambatte neh. i still wanna wish green apple jellybean lucks in plannin. 10 days to departure, 12 days to start of worlds. i'm startin to look at the stereograms, i noe how to see it le! yay. well. juz type magic eye into google and try lookin at it. damn nice. yep shall end now. today is the first time i come online and i nv c him online de. haha.

damn bored

2008-07-16T00:32:00.003+08:00

damn, i'm freakin irritated n bored now. i dunno y la. to hell wif bloggin but the fun times in the june hols, i shan't blog bout it until i feel like it, otherwise my blog ll n damn stagnant la.

hmm. got back all my results le. damn sian. only math still did okay la, the others. wow, amazingly lousy. damn its already the mid yrs can. and i'm still doin so badly. stuppid siew mee still rub in by strongly advisin me to drop. i will nv nv drop. damn, so bo hua, after studyin the full syllabus for so long and knowin almost everyting le. shit her la. drop still need to pay 140 bucks la u gonna pay it for mi? nt lyk i'm damn rich or wad. n i trust my abilities, i am not gonna listen to you. never gonna drop. wad the hell, my mum din sae anitin la. hu are you sia.

grrr dis is v extreme. oh wells. i feel irritated now. dunno why. mebbe its cuz of the stupid bio hw i'm supposed to finish by thurs? bio remedial hw to b precise. damn sian la. waste my time gng on com to type the stupid ting when i can juz write out everyting on paper. its a waste of time, strain on my eyes and hinderance to my progress in studies. damn you la. stupid. marg said sth n i agree wif her to the max. results r proportional to the teacher you git. oh wells. for bio its freakingly, disturbingly puzzlingly true. wadeva i tink i'm startin to tok nonsense agn.

i feel i damn lucky to haf v nice n swit frenz arnd mi la. special mention to xinhui amanda waihan aikhwee huiying marg val. thanz for comforting mi when i got back my damn suck results. well ya all helped mi pass the small lil obstacle lo. hmm. i gues, muz damn pia le. shan't state my results here to embarass myself la. freakin throw face sia. oh wells. i wanna go out wif hui n mandy for a nice long chat. haha

thanz to aik hwee for chattin wif mi to late nites sia. well also another waste of time bt i disagree to a large extent. i'm socializin k.ha, i tink i'm crazy le, he's gng for worlds soon. jiayou yup? when time comes i shall dedicate a full post for him. i'm swit yea? haha

vv long nv go trng nv tok to my darlings. my di henry mayer yihong ks qiuyan and many more. happy (belated)bdae to qiuyan sia. i tink our present for her v funny. haha. all the yummy gummies(ooh, it rhymes -.-") den dat time di oso talked to mi. i'm damn nt responsive la. mebbe i'm losin my socializin skills le. prob i gonna b a loner soon, or izzit juz my mood swings? haha. sry dear di. wanna chat wif ya on the fone agn lo. miss u guys yup? great big hug sia.

damn. last time collecting money le, i tot i step down le bt oh wells, it was an overdue debt. sry jiao lians for delayin the payment. shitty sia. i'm nt gonna b in exco ever n ever agn. grrr.

den wad else? went to xin wang hk cafe to haf luch ytd to celebrate val's bdae. mi mummy n val. haha. i lyk the ambience bt i dun lyk the food, crystal jade is still the best! i'm nt rich, my aunt is. lol. treated val the meal, i tink she called v lil food lo. thanz dear for helpin mi save money. heex. its mi n marg, nt mi only.
happy bdae once agn val. loads of cam whoring n pics, love it sia. bt i look fat dat day, shall out the pics on facebook, it takes damn long to load it onto the blog.

i still feel i'm antisocial in klaz la, juz stickin to marg n val only. well, i'm nt gonna make ani effort to change the situation. mebbe i did le, lunches in canteen wif the klaz, its great achievement okay. if nt i'l go wushu rm to eat la. haha. walao, the bimbos r really bimbotic. hmm, shan't sae so much le lest i become worse dan them next time.

wad else to kp about?my room? it was ina mess de, bt i packed it a lil its much nicer le lo. haha

oh ya, grandma shiftin house dis fri. exciting sia. damn happy. i tink her house freakin sexy can. wwad a word to use on a house. lol. i'm gonna camp there next time le. exciting sia, quite conducive for muggin too. haha.

count down to departure of green apple jellybean,13 days. count down to my noober sis departure, 16 days. count down to fangyu's departure, 11 days. many ppl leavin lo. sian.

as for now, i'm broke n i still need to buy present for ppl la. walao. dis is seriously a platform for mi to niao n rant and kao bei lo. haha. shall turn my attention back to my bio ting.

yay i blogged after so long.

y camps!

2008-07-08T01:33:00.002+08:00

shucks, i shall find another time to blog bout this. it'll b damn super freakin long!!
lol
tings to blog bout:
y camps frm 5-8 june
first day i did amazin race n sum lame games, saw my new found eye candy, noe the nice ri guys, rumour wif uncle waihan started.
2nd day did high elements, first time doin, i lyk the tiring bt fun rock wall. afternoon the buddies came. i lyk my cute buddy. frm apsn. had a nice chat n stuff. nite walk to kallang river was at nite, i like
3rd day did high elements wif the buddies bt there was rain. sad. den my buddy din git to play the stuff. den wad. there was sum indoor games bt she was resting. so ya, rested wif the cute lil boy. den i was chattin wif joseph. in the afternoon we went safra mount faber for water games. damn fun. at nite, nice buffet dinner wif loads of desserts. yum! there was campfire oso. haha
4th day, packin up, cam whoring, debrief, sendin the buddies off. mine was the last to leave haha. den after debrief n prize presentation we left for lunch. at the cofffee shop. den tio teased by riders bout mi n my hot eye candy. wahaha.

dats bout it, loads n loads to sae. leave for next time la.

i love riders in y camps june 08

DAMN LONG NV BLOG

2008-07-08T00:52:00.003+08:00

shit i damn super long nv blog le. haha. i got so much to say that i'm lazy to blog le. oh wells. i tink it'l all b seprated to different posts. here it goes.
wildlife buddy prog:
wow, its damn cool. it was the first time i bring kids out n i'm the leader. well i dun tink i did a gd job in leadin bt hui was there to help mi. oh ya, let mi introduce my grp members for my grp, there r 12 (or 14??) grps in all. we r, erm, grp 5 i tink. lol. got mi xinhui gaoyan, i being the leader. cool eh?
so ya. we were to promote conservation n stuff la. bt the main ting is interactin wif the super super cute kids. haha. there were 8 in my grp. lemme try recallin their names: desiree, felicia, aminah, iris, guan yu, yxavion, su jun, ming hui. wow i've amazin memory. haha(acty i referred to 2 names ;P) aniwaes, off we go to the zoo after sum introduction n wacko game. guan yu super nice dun wanna bully gals de lo.
wa i shan't go into detail how much we walked, how badly i was bitten by mosquitoes, how tiring the kids can make us, how tired the kids were, how cute they were. lol! bt there was 1 incident dat shocked mi. desiree had height phobia. she went up the ladder to see more bout elephants den blah blah blah. n she din dare to some down. had some old injury arh. den she cried. wa siao. damn shocked can. lol. finally she came down. everyting is over la. haha. hui was tryin to peado, holdin the lil boy's hands, wahahha yxavion or ming hui dun wanna hold her hand cuz she had braces.
while we were on our way back the kids were already dyin to rest la. i was holdin felicia n amina's hand. they were complain lyk mad. lol. din really c all the animals, damn sad. bt ya, the impt ones all seen le. haha. fragile forests, wild africa, elephants of asia, the baboons. lol. suibian la, these random stuff... when we reached the entrance i gave the kids theie lil souvenirs n they left. awwwwww. the kids were damn cute can. shit man. it was 1 paedo session for mi lo. plus i was tryin to tell aik hwee how fun was it. lol. it is fun. bleh.
well dats it for the wildlife buddy prog de la. 1 down, loads more to go

lazy to blog

2008-06-20T19:14:00.004+08:00

lemme put wad i shall blog after cts.
1)zoo cip, i'm a wildlife buddy!
2)y camps, totally rox
3)muggin wif wh
4)chen lao shi's treat at sum hotel
5)the riders outing?
6)i hope i hope i can pass cts wif accee
7)after glow for y camps
8)anticipation for comps cumin up!

shall go n haf dinner den mug le. tym is runnin out!

briefin for zoo cip

2008-05-30T17:11:00.003+08:00

today went skool for sum briefin for the zoo cip on next wed. y can't singaporeans juz observe sum punctuality.they told us to reach there at 9.30am. i even tot i'l b late n told wynne bout it. end up i was on time(though on time is late, quote frm mr soon) n there r only lyk 2 ppl there other dan mi? even the excos r late. so, the whole briefin end up startin at almost 10. which is super late can. half an hour i can do many tings le. grrrr.

okay, after ranting i still muz sae sth. i look forward to the trip. same grp as gaoyan n hui. den we'll look after 8 kids of age around 7-8? haha cute lo i guess. hope it doesn't rain. sob sob. yan n hui n mandy all nt there for the briefin den i'm lyk alone. haha. though still got lijie n shun wei n wynne ba. still. liddat lo. nvm. i muz learn to b alone, hui tells mi. haha

went bendemeer to buy cheap pens after dat. 10 for 1 buck. oso got sth for the kids lo. haha. sum cheap mechanical pencils. for a memorable day at the zoo? lol.

ytd spent damn long usin com la, chattin facebook-in blah blah. ytd due to mum nt at home went i git the chance to unbridle n unwind. haha. toked to my idol for super long oso. wow, git to noe him more le? o.O wadeva, hope he doesn't c dis if nt i malu le. haha -.-"

tmr is nature walk le. 8 at jurong east mrt. T.T damn early can. the earliest y outing i'd ever wake up. i tink muz leave house at 7 lo. haha. meetin wynne first. hope i'm nt late.

thanz waihan n hui for pei-in mi kuku bout him ytd. haha. n waihan for answerin my bio ques hu ended up in a headache at arnd 12am. lol.

dats bout it. hope it does rain tmr until we finish the walk.

all's well le

2008-05-29T16:56:00.003+08:00

well i guess stuff is gng on track again ma.
ytd went for briefin for nature walk. i din noe so many ppl gng. got wynne, shun wei, li jie, daniel, mj, mi. haha acty nt a lot ba. ytd i experienced bad stuff, stupid bastards. bt well, good stuff came along.
塞翁失马，焉知非福.
dis is real true.
i was disgusted ytd. can't forget the thing i saw. yuck.
today my darlings flew to china le. awwww my dearies. nvm they'll b back soon. when i go for my y camps.-.-"
for now, really muz go for intense muggin le. grrrrrrr.
motivated!!!!!!!

deception

2008-05-28T15:11:00.003+08:00

all is juz a lie, a deception, sum nice wrappin over sth so saddenin. wadeva la. now i'm dead(okay dis sounds a bit familiar bt wadeva), nt dead ba, if nt ppl sae i no sense of originality. i'm hangin in there, nt in the sense of dying. arghh. wadeva. life sux man. once i tot everyting was gng well today the thunder n lightning struck mi lyk dunno wad. mebbe i was too positive le. now everyting lyk burst n pop lyk bubbles le.
i shall juz stop my wishful tinkin dat tings can go back to last tym. i should nt live in the past, no, aniticipate the past to be the present, and i muz leave life on. it only goes forward, nt backwards. nt lyk i'm sum god hu can travel across time. today is a bad day la. dun tok to mi jiu suan le. den wad, the weather is freakin bad n broke my plans of the day. n i end up at home bloggin, n mebbe hopin we'll nt b in such weird situations next tym. okay mebbe u can juz look away or ignore, bt i cant. haiz
想被雨淋醒，我走在大雨下。任雨打在身上，希望能从梦中清醒。可是，怎样都忘不了，怎样都摆脱不了，那伤感。够了，我要抽身于这被痛苦围绕的流沙。但越是挣扎，陷得越深。我累了。曾希望能有人救我出来，但，每人能做得到。让时间做最好的精神疗效，但我等得累了。我放手了，自陷与悲伤中。

jellybean added mi on facebook haha

2008-05-27T18:41:00.004+08:00

woo. i seem to associate ppl wif the same sirname as mi as my idols.
first is lin jun jie(okay, same chin sirname)
now is lim aik hwee(dis new idol)

okay. now ppl gonna sae i'm into small boys liao, paedophilin again. well, i'm nt okay. haha. he's damn zai jiu shi le. n nt bad wor. frm hwa chong de. haha. well shanb't b so superficial la. went to c his videos le. nth to sae liao. haha

nv i felt so happy these few days le. nt happy la. at least i'm relieved. after the msg. thanz man. dats wad i need. seriously. my posts has more 'haha's in it le. lol.

yay gng for trng tmr. lyk i damn long nv train liao sia. tmnr ll b my workout day. after trng go swimmin den at nite go meet wynne for dinner den go for briefin at ymca. nature walk is dis sat le. really lookin forward to it lo. hope i nt paired up wif sum1 frm sum ulu vwo. den i'l git lost tryin to find the place la. haha.

i'm really happy now. smilin de wor. haha. nt only cuz he added mi. haha. shan't sae which he. bt cuz of things dat happened today. lol!

the kids leavin for china on thurs le. wish them yi lu shun feng in advance lo. haha. love ya peepx my darlings.

heard dis song frm mtv tv den straightaway fell in love wif it. its super nice. 吻得太逼真by张敬轩:
和你吻吻吻吻吻吻你吻得太逼真
讓我把虛情假意當作最真心的親吻
怪自己來不及區分你對我是酷愛是敷衍
我想吻吻吻吻吻我該怎麽脫身
你卻說花花世界不必當真
多麽傷人讓我愛上多情的紅唇

full day in 2nd term

2008-05-25T19:53:00.003+08:00

well did i mention bout the soccer gals a div league? they v zai, won, though by penalty, bt still win. i applaud. bt haiz. the guys lost to mj. wadeva la. i tink mj super tyco on the day lo. the guys played damn well, i terms of skills, they sure win mj de. bt well, luck is also a skill, n wads worse is that luck cannot b trained. so ya lor. mj won. nvm, there's always next yr de. jiayou man. i'l nt miss the matches next yr. i tink i wun.

fri was a full day for us. a bit sian y the video nv show the wushu ppl on the last day of comp. bt well. we contributed n so conscience no prob le lor. many many annoucements then. quite waste tym bt ya. finally git to go off le lor.

went wif hui to places. wanna go hwar par villa de. bt well, too piseh to ask if the bus got go there nt. ha. so we ended up walkin to parkway n had macs for breakfast lo. had the sausage mcgriddles for breakfast. a bit swit la bt i tink acceptable only lo. bt no doubt its v aromatic. den after dat went to suntec buy stuff. acty wanna buy de bt still haven buy. dunno la. find sumtym muz go buy le. shit sia. only got a damn card.

we were walkin to the tropics atrium there den saw there'll b dis yoyo championship gng on. wa lao the ppl damn zai sia. super gd la. well. i found a new idol. haha. dis guy called aik hwee. i gonna b a fan of him sia. his off string yoyo damn zai. n he was lyk champion for his category for lyk 2 or 3 yrs. damn jaw breakin. v gd. i tot lyk he was how old. he's lyk the youngest guy in the duncan crew la. dunno wad exactly izzit for bt yup, for ppl hu specialize in yoyo n r pros of it ba. juz super zai la. AIK HWEE!!!! well too obsessed. n cuz of us waitin for the comp to start we waited for lyk 2 hrs bt at last went home wif nth. the stupid comp nv start la.haiz. nv c aik hwee perform.

happy bdae to my di. dis is a belated post for you. bt really wish ya b happy. dats my greatest wish for u ba.

still got huimay jiajun n sinyee. happy bdae to you too!

生日快乐我对自己
说蜡烛点了寂寞亮了
生日快乐泪也融了
我要谢谢你给的你拿走的一切
还爱你的一点恨
还要时间才能平衡
热恋伤痕画面重生
祝我生日快乐
（祝我生日快乐, 周杰伦，温岚）

mum's nt at home.

2008-05-20T18:14:00.004+08:00

poof, finally there's a day when ma is nt at home. though its only for the short 1 hr, still v shuang. haha. almost lyk the house is mine.

was real restless n sian juz now. well mebbe i'm sick of studyin. mebbe i'm sick of remedials. mebbe i'm sick of how r we now. mebbe i'm sick, n tired of life. felt so much to wander arnd la bt well. dunno y i din wanna go pp walk lo. bt took the long way home. the neighbourhood v nice lo. sort of calmed mi down a lil.

dis few days i feel v weird. there's sth really buggin mi lo. n haiz. dunno la. 0956. gd no to buy 4d (nt funny).

i tink i gittin more anti social lei. dun wanna tok de. dun feel lyk tokin lo. shit man, dis cant happen to mi it really cant.

juz now gp quite screwed, i was disgusted by my own part. at pe oso v sian. lyk din really touch the ball. mebbe i stand wrong side lyk wad marg said. bio lec was pissin mi off. gng at such slow pace la. irritated. dis is bad. i'm irritated at everyting.

i juz wan tym to go back to comp days. when everyting is so nice, every1 piain for the same goal. every1 busily trng. no 1 slackin. haiz.

我不屑纪念这一天我们分别
我不屑怀念你的嘴喊着抱歉
我后来发现你的侧脸只是我脑子里面的一点残缺
一点残缺
（不屑纪念，吴克群）

泥沼

2008-05-19T16:00:00.003+08:00

爱情好像流沙，我不挣扎，我不挣扎，随它去吧，我不害怕。
sinkin into dis shit. well though nt ai qing or wad. still. haiya. dunno wad to sae.
hope dis will resolve soon lo. haiya haiya! why liddat?!

thanz mandy for chattin wif mi for so long on fri. we missed the matches, bt ya. real nice chat. bought purple nail polish too.

i wanna go bugis shop! waitin for great sg sale.

feel lyk gng trng lo. v long nv go for wushu trnng liao. feel damn slack la.

broke my calls record ytd. 5 hrs 15 min. thanz man for chattin wif mi. the both ji zha talkative ppl cant stop tokin de.

love dis damn cool blog skin, bt cant sign into the webby so haven put music. stupid web take so long to send mi the verification email. ha complainin again bt well, dats mi.

hope i've got tym to go out wif xinhui. v long nv really go out wif her liao.

my grandma's house v chio la. damn nice. hope renovation ends soon so i can go there le lo. plus its so acessible la.

i muz git the feel to mug. aimin for ACCE. ha. ace!

我是一个没勇气的人，带着小小年纪的天真；
想你一定是不敢转身，脸上微笑心舍不得。
我没有莎士比亚的天分，写出我们的喜怒哀乐；
但在这一刻，写了一个完结篇，
失去了你。
（莎士比亚的天分；编号89757；林俊杰）
i tink i wrote dis quote b4 le, bt still, feelin down, so put dis ba.

stagnant tym

2008-05-15T22:01:00.003+08:00

bloggin in eng agn le
now my feelings r stagant le, hope it remains ba, bt still, i wanna go back to the past, when wushu can b my first priority. now with all the freakin limitations, how to make it my priority. i wanna train oso cannot. volunteerin is the best way for mi to git out of the house la. bt my studies muz really buck up ba.

well i feel sad for the chona n myanmar ppl. china super suay la, olympics cumin still got such ting. myanmar nt really rich le still got disaster. haix. wad the world gng to become?

wait la sian guan hao zi ji. hmmm. i mug study!!! n dun b pig lol.

hope my ankle faster recover n i hope i can go trng.

i look forward to nature walk n y camps! yay.

you are freakin tyin me down

2008-05-13T21:40:00.005+08:00

1）对你，我还有资格说什么吗？

2）我很想逃离这烦人的国度，让我到想象中的天外世界。

不需要很发达的科技，不需要很时尚的地方，让我能放松紧绷的心情，

让我能远离这快步伐的世界。

塑胶绷得太紧总有一天会断裂的，更何况是人？

家的温暖，我怀疑这句话的真实性。

2008-05-12T21:04:00.003+08:00

我不知道这是什么感觉，我不知道这是怎么一回事。
屋漏偏逢连夜雨，为什么这种使人情绪低落的事总是一而再再而三地来临？
当我好不容易接受了你你却这样忽冷忽热；好不容易有一位好友，却怪怪的不知我是你怎样一位朋友。那么多年了，希望友谊能长久。
当我好不容易找到可以诉苦的人，我的精神支柱竟也退了十几丈外。可能我太习惯有人能陪着我过着寂寞的夜晚；可能我习惯了晚晚听你讲冷笑话的感觉；可能我习惯了我有什么事都能像你诉苦向你说；可能我已经太习惯你总是在我举手就着的距离；可能已经好久没有人能让我这样肆无忌惮，无可牵挂的表达自己；可能我太习惯你的存在。现在没有你在那听我说着我心中的许许多多的事，心中的那种孤寂，好怪好伤。那么多的可能应该是我已把你的存在视为理所当然，你说要让我不再那么依赖你，还有一些原因，你退开了。我的茫然，能向谁说呢？我真得很需要自我反省。
today mr lim said sth make me v demoralized. he sae he assume more than half the ppl in klaz dun need git results next yr cuz their names ll b announced by poh meng le. the straight a's ppl. well, i'm nt can. okay la mebbe i too sensitive dis few days, i start to feel the pressure buildin up le. i really dun wanna do badly, i tried, bt juz cant la. really dunno how. *grabs n pull hair*
wads happenin to everyting. i really hope there's sth to free mi frm these stuff!
AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

no title

2008-05-04T12:20:00.006+08:00

long tym no blog liao lo. so sry the blog stagnant for so long. haha.
well juz random updates:

vj wushu comp did quite well, a gals champion, a boys second, lost to mj bt ya, still nt bad la. for mi, oso nt bad i guess. i got 2 indv second lo, new dao new gun. bt a bit nth much liddat, cuz my event only 3 ppl. zhang qian, the super imba 1, mi n random ppl lo. well zhang qian really gd la. after competing wif her for so many yrs. yup. ll miss the times in competition de. i feel my dao did so lousy lo, n its really wad i feel. got ppl still sae i did so well emo for wad. okay la its nt u u sure dunno rite? tong ren bu tong xiang fa. u wun noe de lo. fan er my gun did beta den wad i expected. yes, u dunno wad i feel la. cch wushu did nt bad oso. c gals champ, b boys champ, b gals second. b gals more unexpected la. well. everyting end le.

thanks di for pei-in mi emo by the lake during the comp days. i really tink the next tym we'll still sit by there is dunring wushu camp liao lo. i'l miss the times too. thanz so much di for consoling mi, make mi laugh, well including the others as well.

well cuz of sum ting we sort of quarrel n stuff, heng everyting went alrite after comp. real sry mi for bein so... no such ting ll occur agn. at least nt on u. u said u were disappointed. u wun b ani more. haha

happy bdae kang sing, my sis, yixuan, sheng xian, zheng feng, yihong, gao yan, sean. i hope i nv miss out ani names. sry no present lo haha.

dat tym studyin at airport, gt mi ks qy jo huiying. a bit unproductive then. smsin u, u damn sian la. tink u spreaded ur negative feelings to me den, i was quite emotional too. bad ks dun wanna do the practise paper. lazy sia. haha

heng he nv join my tuition. if nt i really sian diao le. yup. dis is a comment only. ha. i dun mind wayne sittin beside m i in tuition lo. haha. he v blur blur kind bt well. quite cute lo. lol. stupid tiko sae wad wrong judgement den sry gal. i c le v bu shuang, hu r u to call mi gal. gal bu shi gei mi jiao de.

went to the zoo on a wed(forgot which wed le) to train to b a wildlife buddy. really hope i can pass the test next wed lo.i wanna b a wildlife buddy. help conservation n protection of the animals. gng to bring ppl arnd the fragile forest n wild africa. saw ah meng's burial place. well had great fun, learnt many tings n crappin session wif gao yan n hui. damn fun la. yes we will pass the test together de.

y outing wif apsn beneficiaries n volunteers. met many cool ppl. weili the eng teacher in my grp again, hui n wynne oso gt go, yiliang start chatting wif mi thanz for helpin mi distract s haha, aye my partner for taking care of beneficiary, mj the wushu gal, guosheng pei us chat n crap a bit though i still dunno him well, nicholas hu really look lyk a studious boy n haf a noce shirt my di ll lyk. n ppl. thanz for the fun dat day, though i was freaked out of sum incident. haha. thanz yiliang for takin bus wif mi to aljunied mrt, long way for u sia.

there was a period of tym i sae my heart feels v empty, lyk kong xu, n i wan ppl cum in to fill my heart. di saes dun juz anihow find sum1 la. let ppl find mi nt i go find ppl. shun qi zi ran can find de. though ren sheng duan duan ji shi nian. bt ya. i guess it was a period of tym when i emo lo, pms ba. the chats till late night really help, gong lao to my di.

mr t suddenly tok to mi on a random day. haha. okay. it was real nice tym tokin lo. bt really random la. n cuz of u my sms really gonna bao lyk siao liao lo. you ui kui huo shou. still owe me breakfast n beancurd. lol. mebbe u'l fill my kong xu? i told di n got scolded. haha. well, lookin forward to noe you more. mebbe u r the next random fone chatting partner.

first tym doin gym on fri, b4 dance concert, wif vj wushu, only gt mi n huiying r the j2s, den jieru teachin us how to do. its tiring bt gd de. haha. now my arm r unbalanced liao, right arm muscle more tense dan left arm muscle. still got ti neng n stuff. woo, after workout is shuang de. haha. den when shower wif the wushu a gals. hehe. audrey pei mi laugh till siao la haha.

dance concert on fri was really breath takin la. wa lao. it really confirms my decision n plan to learn dancing after a's. the ballet was so pretty, the couple dance or dunno wad was v sad n touching. their barcelona dance item was v wow. breakdance geng bu yong shuo. the hao lian guy was really gd la. now i feel he's got the rights to hao lian le. haha.

after the dance concert went to geylang to haf dinner or rather supper lo. huiying brought mi to eat penang laksa. really nt bad sia. bt after dat when i gonna finish a bit ni cuz the spices a bit too much. bt ya nt bad de lo, next tym i'l prob gonna eat again.

wa lao i got scolded so many tyms by the same person on the same day la. u where bu shuang, wa lao eh. bt da ren bu qi xiao ren guo. i'm da ren nt da zhu. lol

when finally i tot my mum xiang tong let mi reach home late, the moment when i woke up the next day, i hear her ranting away, sae its the last tym i'm gonna go home late. wa lao. ni dong shen me. i really v stressed up by all ur stupid restriction la. u noe v super gu dong. wads the prob when every1 is doin dis nowadays. pls la. gif mi freedom. wo bei ni bang de zhen de shi yao feng le. everyday i've gotta c ur lian se n guo sheng huo, ni bu lei wo dou lei. even tokin to sis oso cannot. wads ur freakin prob. if nt for my lack in funds wo zao jiu dun stay at home liao la. the only ting keepin to stay at home is dat i can survive cuz i no money. ha. ma, fang shou la.

first tym i tok to mr t on the fone. u really sound lyk waihan sia. haha. nt only the voice, bt the way u tok n stuff lo. well, a bit gt qing qie gan, cuz mi n wh r frens for so long liao la. lol.

after cutting my hair the week after comp, my head feels lighter liao lalala.

i miss talkin to sze yan n amanda(ang), dear gals, v long nv tok to u liao. muz catch up wif them soon.

sry ppl for this super super long blog post. let mi fa xie n say out everyting in 1 post lo. n haf an excuse to rebel.

well i dunno when is the next post liao so yup. qing shi mu yi dai.

p.s., mugging dulls my life bt it plans my life too. i dun wanna b a closet mugger, oh pls!

quote:
人生最大的距离不是生与死...

2008-04-10T20:32:00.003+08:00

to dear(puke) mr '..'
first, my blog is only for ppl i noe. do i even noe such losers lyk you?
if u tink we win cuz our coach is chief judge, too bad, mr/ms sore loser.
u losin le bu shuang rite? now cum ppl's blog to write stupid comments. okay la.
nvm lo. this only shows u r childish. even if u or ur skool win le. its by pullin strings de lo. wad we haf is the potential. and pls be clear of sth. chief judge for court a everyday is mr liang wen yao can. in case u r suannin urself, pls b sure of wads gng on b4 u leave ur naive comments on ppl's blog u imbecile. put ur name there la. y u dun dare izzit? i wun clear the stuff lo. it'll b put there to show how naive u r? venting ur anger online, wastin ur time la. might as well go buck up on the last event n mebbe u'l haf the teeny weeeny chance u or ur skool might win? we git wad we git due to our shi li. no strings. there r loads of times when the dear judges duck our scores la. okay la i shant waste so much time on u. to stupid naive no brain imbecile idiotic ass,
i only haf 2 words for u: fuck off.

hey ppl, wa tag spammin sia. i wun take the stuff away. juz wanna show how sore loser is the noob. chill n relax la. dun git angry cuz of noob n stupid ppl. mebbe callin them these words are insulting the words la. bt i shall b nice n call them liddat only lo. well they r juz jealous of how zai we r. liddat lo. aiya guan ren jia. n we all noe wads gng on. no choice bt to impress them wif wad we haf. ha. ji ti we'll all jiayou. c gals leading lyk imba-ly siao la. ppl we'll jiayou de. last day le. haha. dat noob only put sth as morale booster.
show them wad we've got, watch us

quotes: 不跟不值得注意的人斤斤计较

a few more days to end of my wushu days

2008-04-06T11:12:00.002+08:00

hmmm. 2 more weeks, my wushu times are over le. now nt the time to tink bout this. its time to tink bout how to boost my confidence. lol. ys wished mi gd luck in skool lo. thanz haha. hmmm. a gals. we dun b qi nei okay. i'm v sorry i cant contribute to the dui lian. paiseh i forgot my routine. sooo sry. bt yup. my first tym lo. nvm la. past liao. now i'l concentrate on givin my best for the other events. i tink we shan't b so zai yi bout the scores le lo. we'l fa hui yup? dun tink bout them le. hy, dun liddat la. i tink we can de. their cards gonna finish le. they dunno there's still at least sum marks boost frm mi. haha. at least 6 lo. so yup. our cards r still here. den ji ti. we'll jiayou n trash. we'll nt only win them 2, the diff ll b pulled to 4 marks. so yup. we'l jiayou! oh dear, so much you later ll explode lei. no, i muz keep the energy for n oil for my events. yes i will! haha. hy puen jo n ppl. muz jiayou wor. we can do it! tmr i'l b manager again. nth to do. den i'l observe. haha. okay la. endin for now. dis post very no use can. den lets hope zqsw. haha. a gals u noe wad i mean? lol.

dis wk is comp liao

2008-03-30T21:35:00.003+08:00

hmmm. sry alex forgot ur name la. now i put there le yup? lol. thanz every1 hu helped mi in 1 way or another lo. oh ya i forgot the thank the most impt ppl. cai lao shi n guo lao shi. oh dear they r lyk the most most impt ppl to why i'm in wushu n vj n achievin nt bad lo. haha.

well comp is really really cumin soon la. n real real soon. great luck to myself yup. haha. n every1. oh dear my most nt confident event is my earliset event la. haix. nvm thanz henry for an wei-in mi, really really i felt much beta.

ha wads dis sia. zq in everywhere i bi. thanz cai lao shi for sayin dis v encouragin ting. we r nt as good as other ppl la. we dun b greddy, dun aim for first, 2nd jiu hao lol!! v encouragin cuz its lyk she is comfident in i can do it. at least i tink dis was wad she meant la. haha. i'l try ta do well n bring glory to vj.

last fri got vj trng. i really no mood da la. go on the court still lyk damn sian. wa sia la. i start to do everyting den i finish le went out to ask for comments. haha. alomost every1 sae nt bad lei. lyk i got improve frm previous tym la. haha. even yz sae lei. wa sia la. now i noe wads the meanin of yi ping chang xin da. den will haf unexpected results lo. haha. can de now i noe how izzit lyk le. got feel got feel. n my dao is the last day. i haf more den enuff tym to prac lo. lol! gd dude. my most confident event on lat day. its ya zhou hao xi. u guys deng zhe qiao.

thanz puen for helpin mi buy the ankle guard n coat cover. no link la bt i try to express my gratitude nyaha.

once again jiayou my dear darlings! wushu is our passion!

quote:
wushu is the best cca in life, ever n ever. i love wushu!

wushu comp cumin

2008-03-27T23:48:00.004+08:00

well well wushu comp is juz round the corner la. less than 2 trngs to comp le. next wk jiu shi den still stagger for so many weeks. heng i still got tym to prac sia haha. mine later de. dis yr, i aspire to do my very best n try nt to shi wu again lyk last yr. wa a bit stressed lei. i nt 2nd jiu last liao. haha. cant b last la, damn malu. bt its okay. i'l achieve my personal best.

dear puen, thanz for ur long long post for a gals. mine nt as long la bt here it goes:
hey dear a gals. well we really went thru a lot, esp huiying may jo puen ting. well though sth bad happened, i still feel we can jiayou jiayou de. no worries gals. we're the best. heck wad lc zq blah blah blah. tink u r the best the shui ping sure ll ti gao de. dis came frm cai lao shi. our quan still gt tym can jiayou. ge ren de. every1 jiayou okay. though winnin is nt the most impt, we'l try to thrash the blah blah jc yup! dis tym we'l all jiayou. thanz dears for being there. a gals 08 rox sia.

then to my darlings at cch:
hey hey darlings. thanz for being there to train wif mi yup, ya all really brighten up my life. okay dis is lyk cliche but yup its true. when i sian sad n emo ya all will really suan mi n make mi laugh. haha. laughin at myself again, bt dats my ge ren feng ge hor. haha. nt lyk the vj ppl nv cheer mi up, the a gals rock, bt cch darlings rock too!! i love the times at lucky bread studyin n stuff la. den wad, play pool, crap, tok, phone chats blah blah. thanz man! dis is dedicated to the cch dears i'm close to, esp mayer henry ks qy nic n those close to mi de. love you guys. when i cant train wif ya all le muz miss mi yup? haha

finally to the peepx competing for vj n cch:
hey hey. jiayou n bring glory to the skool yup. dun worry sure ll contribute de. a boys muz jiayou too. dun b intimidated by the blah blah jc. haha. c gals c boys b gals b boys every1 jiayou. even if u nt competing nvm de, can gif moral support. yup jiayou every1. dis ya at cch. well quite familiar wif it le rite? so dun worry. lyk wad cai lao shi sae. take prac as comp; take comp as prac. we all can do it de!

extras to zhiyu n yuzhe n ALEX*:
well thanz for cumin back helpin us c our tao lu n stuff. wif ya both, i tink i got improve a bit la. i'l try to stop bouncing too much lo. haha

i believe we can do it. we'll haf our moral supporters de.

quote:
备战时努力不懈；
应战时胸有成竹；
打胜仗，小事一幢。

要战胜敌人，首先要战胜自己，因为自己就是自己最大的敌人。
（anihow wrote sum rubbish, well hope it'll encourage mi)

watched rule no1

2008-03-21T22:45:00.002+08:00

well today was nice. i watched rule no 1 at plaza sing wif wh. it was quite a nice show though i spoiled it myself when i told cs to tell me the whole story. both me and wh were in conflict about the unheralded twist and abrupt ending of the show. wow i personally liked the endin. it was well.... unexpected. and that bring mi to the conclusion that one muz not conform to the norm. why cant the gd man die and the bad guy live? rite? anyway after dat we went ri ben cun at cathay to haf sushi. wh's treat. i lyk the yummy mua chee. taste a bit lyk oneh oneh. haha

i learnt 2 paradoxes in life today
1)the good girl always got more scoldin than the bad girl.
2)we are all taught to help someone when they are desperate and in need. bt well who will lend out this helpin hand when you need it?

re:(1) a mother's expectations for her children are doubtlessly high, esp the one that produced comsistent excellent results. well. mum pays extra(or should i say excess) attention to the good kid in the family hopin to get her to succeed as the best in the family. reprimanding her for the minute mistakes the good kid does in inevitable. well sad it seems. the bad kid already left this bad impression in mum and mum cant be bothered to lecture bad kid again. she directs the attention she once had on bad kid to her good kid. now bad kid creates havoc but gets lesser scoldin. the good kid did mere mistakes and is punished. dis is the first paradox i learnt. so lesson learnt: be a bad kid

re(2): are frens indeed fren u find when you are in need? i was editing her reflections bout sum dnt stuff(which i awfully miss) and i read this "From this project, I learnt that charity is very important as we should always help one in need, and others will help you too if you are in trouble and needed help." a ha. is this really true? my sis was so desperately lookin for peopke to help her print her stuff and everyone she asked conjured up lousy excuses like"my printer spoil", "no ink" "no paper". well i came to help n the first(intended) person i ask (thanz dear emo didi) said wad thing is there to print. direct and inhesitant. dis is wad is called yi qi. my dear sis. are your frenz really frenz? dis is gettin a lil overboard. bt well. i noe ppl ll be there for me de. lesson no 2: my frenz r worth keepin

well, life like that. lol

bloggin on full day

2008-03-20T12:07:00.005+08:00

today is thurs. no skool cuz we're granted full day lo. thanz to all seniors hu've done well lo. the results quite zai. some subjects improved and the no of distinctions increased by significant no. hope we can bring full days to our juniors next yr lo. well i'm slackin at home now, anticipating the movie wif wh tmr. rule#1. the movie i've been wanting to watch for v long. so yup. now for sum recap..

sun, the last day of hols. mi mayer may henry jo ks went for muggin. acty shud b at nat library de bt yup.i heard cuz ks laugh too much den they change to macs to do. haha. i was late being caught up wif sum housework at home. i'm gd gal de lo. i help out at home de. i wasn't the latest. mayer was. when i reach it started to rain liao. heng sia. henry look nt bad in dat pink shirt. okay a conclusion here. guys generally look nice in shirts lo haha. we all eat le den study. hmmm. only henry can concentrate. we r all quite distracted can. nvm. b4 mayer came we were chased away by the man in charge. he was sayin that there shan't b any studyin at macs on a sunday lo. den may was lyk, 'no studyin of maps allowed too', cuz the 2 ang mohs were reading the map. haha. we waited for mayer lo. his arrival caused laughter frm every1 la. in a flowery shirt n white pants dat look lyk skinnies plus leather boots. wa win liao lo haha. every1 laugh lyk there's no tmr k? haha he was named flower by ks lo. hmmm. bt after dat i tink it looked okay la. nt bad de lo, juz a bit nt normal so we laugh. aniwae we went funan food court to study after dat. dat place super nice to study la. well after a while ppl start to leave lo. henry first, got chased home. den jo, oso gng home to eat, den ks n may, ks gt curfew. so left mi n mayer to haf dinner lo. ate xiao wan mian. nt bad lo. den we went towalk walk at peninsular plaza n raffles city cuz we both dun wanna go home. haha. thanz didi n every1 for such a nice day. n i saw where's ding tai feng le lo haha. ready for skool!

mon we went back skool. with the omnimous feelin of gittin back lousy results. well it was lousy. i failed my chem. sia la super pek chek can. i studied the most for it n i failed it. damn sad lo. was considering whether to go wushu nt. well both mayer di n henry di told mi to. emo di was sayin mebbe i can cheer up there. haha. so i went, after cycling wif marg. thanz to my wushu dearies. i had a nice tym sia. den qy taught mi new gun lo. after dat i super got feel, hopin i dun lose it(apparently i did). well dat was mon, i had free wafer frm uncle cuz he took the wrong order haha.

tues got back bio n math. i fail bio la. din really expect it cuz i tot i did nt bad bt ya, so unfair lo. my math was okay i got b, bt sad i'm lyk juz a lil to a la. oh no!! my 50 bucks. hmmm. siew mee gave us a lecture sayin y r we still so slack when our results r liddat. suibian lo. i guess she nearly cry. math was okay. i wa tryin to look for marks bt to no avail. nvm la. dat day gt gp n we started on topic art. damn cool. our discussion grp gt mi marg val yong sheng n yap heng. haha i tio suan by ys for everyting i siad. yap heng gt crazy n started laughin nonsensically. i oso followed laughin. i said sth chim wor. sc can b artistic sumtimes, there is the art of science. hahah they all laugh at mi. fine lo., after skool acty meetin my 2 didis to study de bt mayer went home early. okay lo i wait for emo didi until after his detention. saw guan meng n clarence. den ks n qy came in after i finish my chem. haha. laugh lyk dunno wad agn. i realise these 2 kids can really make mi laugh lyk dunno wad la. jokers sia. haha. nt long after henry came. n the 2 gals left. so yup tryin to read econs lo. di was tryin to listen to mi explain bt he dunno anitin la, haha. thanz for the effort. saw anrong too. all these happen at lucky bread agn so yup. went home early n met my sis lo. went home together.

wed was feelin fab n arts day. damn cool la. well i got to learn LA salsa. my partner. haiz.i feel so.. haiz nvm i shan't sae. well we changed partners halfway la. den rotate our partners. i danced wif HIM. haha shant sae hu, bt its my eye candy. wa xin tiao jia su sia haha. after dat we went to parade sq n watch this guy disgracing himself la. damn hot sia the sun. we watch the performance under the large sexy(hot) mr sun n nearly went bbq-ed. okay dun wanna mi roasted pig le haha.den we went o watch accapella. well nt bad. bt i feel the beat boxers r more cool. there's dis guy in cool dress up n guess wad. beatrice lei! she wasn't so her bt recognised its her lo. siao she noes how to beat box la. win liao lo. den there's dis beat boxer frm vj. hmmm v zhuai bt zai. well a lil contradictary. i feel he's a lil beta den the beatboxers lo. esp the scratchin parts. haha. den there's dis local band bein invited. high stellarstory i tink. nt bad la. they were sayin the keyboardist v cute, the guitarist hair lyk mop, the singer look lyk a soccer guy in vj gomez(well i said dat n lia agreed wif mi) haha. i feel they okay la. den got summore i lazy describe bt after dat we haf lunch together, gt mi val james marg edmund jiehao. said loads n loads of crap. damn funny sia haha. after dat gt wushu. i suddenly diam diam on the bus den ppl keep askin mi y i so emo. wa okay lo. quiet means emo meh? i dun feel lyk tokin den dun tok la. haha. mebbe i pms-in lo. bt well my performance was horrid on dat day. i v dui bu qi qy la. i dun applied wad she taught mi, practically screwed my whole tao lu up. oh dear. evrn my didis oso sae.. haha dunno wad la bt now i feel i got a bit more feel liao. lol dunno wad i tokin le bt yup. after wushu we walked out together. nice tym eh. den waited for the damn bus for super long la. when i reach home arnd 9 plus den after i'm home its lyk 10 le la. made mayer call mi cuz i feel lyk tokin lo, haha. mayer kena called by his dad so cant tok le. nvm i made emo di call mi. haha. i laugh lyk crazy agn la. wa keep tio suan yup. my emo di n mayer di. hmmm nvm. i had i v nice tym lo.

well my another long long blog post agn, collating everyting ma. wad happens n in life n blah blah.thanz wushu peepx ya all nv fail to cheer me up. n may got injured on wed la. oh my home she git well real soon. i wanna c her back fast n furious lo. she can do it de. she hopes miracles can happen. yup it will happen wif strong will power. may i believe u can do it. cuz u r my daughter yup? jiayou jiayou! we'l all support you de( i can guess wad my didis gonna sae, she so heavy cuz muz all support la haha) well juz jk hope u git well soon yup? vj cch wushu rox!

march hols 08

2008-03-15T23:35:00.003+08:00

woo. finally gt tym to blog liao. okay la mebbe its cuz i lazy lo. thanz la my di's n all ppl. the permanant nicky pig is stuck wif mi liao. sian. bt yup my hols is full of trng trng n trng. nt bad la.

mon gt trng. erm lemme recall. i tink it was the day where i realise when i do my tao lu i super bouncy la, lyk wad they sae. oh dear. i muz b wen. haha. steady is the word. hope i can improve in such a short tym lo. den tio yi yang teach. i tink he oso pek chek liao la. nvm, i'm nt gd in sports lo. bt can train de. after dat was demoralized. thanz to puen huiying n yujuan. esp puen n juan. specifically pointed out my prob n urge mi on. thanz dears. after wushu we sit at lucky bread tok. got mi, mayer henry ks. i tink we sit tok stone blah blah. forgot le la. haha. dat nite cuz discussin wif emo di henry whether if i shud go nt, den he called mi. we tok frm lyk 11 to 2 la. zai nt? haha. really tok a lot lei. bt he spastic la. spend the first hr boring mi wif his gamin stuff. haha. wish him lose n lose sia. at the end too late le den he still gt lesson so he went to slp le.

tues was a super slack day for mi can. only day of the wk wif no trng(besides sun). woke at 9. do housework, slp at 12pm. woke at 2pm to eat. den slp agn till 6. go grandma house den dunno do wad. okay la quite slack lo. haha. acty wanna go play pool wif cs n ppl de. lazy plus tio nag, so i din go lo haha.

wed. trng day agn.its morn de trng. i reached skool super early can. henry gt lesson again so he left early. he was supposed to reach early to train de bt he was late. ahhh, bad henry. den wad? after wushu acty wanna pull ks qy go study de bt they wanna go watch movie. oh dear temptation too big i went wif them lo. many ppl went. the gals got mi ks hy jo wanting may audrey(1 table), yuzhe jingren yujuan qy mebbe soon yang at another table lo. haha i forgot la bt yup. we went to ri ben cun to eat lo. 19 plates of sushi on our tableplus 3 bentos. woo. each person lyk arnd 5 only la. except wanting. she eat so much so paid quite a lot lo. haha. after dat we went arcade, dunno wad to do, so they went arcade lo. the guys plus wanting went home after lunch lo. left mi jo hy ks qy may yj. we were wandering arnd the arcade n c ppl play n we played sum lo. haha. mayer n zf joined us later. they went home first. so yup. mayer brought his bowling ball, he siao de la. zf look nice in dat shirt.den wad. after they finish playin we went to buy tix to watch the water horse la. okay i really gt sth to sae liao. wa lau dat bloody malay bitch(sry lia if u read dis, u r my only malay fren, the only exceptional gd fren) dunno wads the fu**in prob wif her can. freakin slut la. okay la mebbe we wrong la, we take a v long tym to decide wad tix to buy den take long tym to collect money la. bt her attitude can dun b so suck rite? wa lan eh. stilll scold wad xt tym wanna buy tix can collect money first? wa is scold can, nt sae hor. bitch sia. nt is slut. bitch praisin her liao. f*** la wa lau. pls, we can easily outnumber u la stupid malay wa lau. u tink u v chio izit? look worse den the ugliest whore still so zhuai. the bez is... i dun wanna waste tym to curse her sia. haha. bitch. hmmm. they went for 2 rounds of bowling b4 the movie, den went in to watch. the water horse. i feel its okay okay la. bout the loch ness monster, bt nt as excitin as eragon. haha.after movie went to stone until i buay tahan walk off alone to the busstop. the others came to join mi lo. thanz dear ppl. haha. got may mayer ks zf. den took same bus. i went to lucky bread to find henry la. he was studyin alone there lo. i tried teachin him physics. hmmm, nt bad nt bad i stil rem lei. i pro de nt?its was bout moments la bt ya. den tio 'scolded' by henry for easily tempted. so wad, told him to chase mi home when i wanna go play lo. went home at 7 plus, slpt quite early i guess.

okay lo thurs gt wushu. i gd gal la i went muggin. haha. got mi ks henry. mi n henry tried teachin her lo. den zf oso joined us at dunno wad tym. haha.cs oso suddenly pop out. den dunno wad la. after dat we walked into cch. quite heavy rain. zf n henry share unbrella. wad a sight. haha. trng as per normal. i tio yz teach, he was sayin my buoncing decreased le bt still gt. so yup. a bit happy la. after wushu go studyin at lucky bread again. acty cs was organisin pool de bt i'm nt supposed to play play den henry was stoppin mi. den i nv go henry nv go. mayer oso nv go. zf joined us oso, in nt gng. den ks n may came along. the ting was cancelled le. haha. sry cs, nxt tym we go lo. i really wanna play de. though i suck at it la haha. me ks may mayer henry zf. may left early. so left 5 ppl. we tryin to teach ks stuff lo haha.blah blah blah. after dat henry chiong home nv take psp. di arh di.

fri gt trng. b4 trng study again. really the grp studies is useful for the kids la, bt for mi, hmmm. liddat lo. aniwae gt mi ks qy mayer zf. arnd there la. haha. nothin much, juz grp studyin everyday. lol.den gt trng. tracia scary wor. she was breakin down la. den cried blah blah. mebbe stressed ba. lol. after dat was team dinner! fun fun fun! its lyk the most fun team dinner i ever had can? gt a gals minus yujuan n wanting n denis zf jingren bryan, n cuz ks. ate at the blackborad at coffee shop opp tj. damn nice can. mi jieru n ks shared fish n chips, cajun chicken n spag carbonara. its nice de lo. we v swit sia. keep feedin each other. lol. dis is lame. bt well. after dat went play ground(s) had fun lo. took loads of pics la den cam whoring arnd. jieru n jingren n kangsing look lyk happy family liddat sia haha, for the first forfeit. den next forfeit zf n jingren(agn) tio,forced to dance pole dance. stupid la. haha. den wad. we climbed the fake mountain*as quoted frm jieru* den cam whore a bit. den take pic on the see saw, den gt random stuff la. still got jump shot n freezin at random positions la. haha, forgot the order le bt we did real random stuff can. sad henry n mayer, both di's nv cum along la. bt yup. mayer nv go for trng henry nv study. ahhh. bad didis arh. haha. fri was super eventful

finally to the last trng of the hols. today did jiti. well it was fun n fun. haha. morn studied agn la. gt mi ks henry mayer zf. den. wa i lazy describe. huiying acty organizin pool bt we oso nt gng lo. waa all studious liao arh haha.

dis hols was quite eventful, v fun n super team bondin. love u guys man. though i made mayer n henry n ppl eat cup noodles for almost 4 consecutive days, well thanz u peepx. love u guys sia. really wanna cont trng wif u darlings lo. awwww man. i dun wanna grow up! i dun wanna leave the team lo. its lyk every yr i git closer to ppl in the team la. y liddatde its super sian diao can. oh no i'm startin to emo liao la.

quotes:
no quote!

tiring day

2008-03-09T22:52:00.003+08:00

well sat was quite a happening day. pool for 6 hrs. dis is outta mind! my hand was achin a lil after dat la. many ppl went dat day. i reached first lo, den qy. ks came along den. we went in n started the game first lo. after dat is henry den mayer den zf. forgot the order le bt liddat lo. finally gm n yh came in the afternoon. after gng sum it fair i tink. dunno la. we stayed there for super long can. i tink mebbe my skills improve a bit liao. i'm gonna go again dis hols or wad lo, after wushu. den play le jiu bi sai den muz start muggin for a lvls liao. 6hrs frm 11 to 5 plus liddat. minus the makan tym n waitin tym. arnd 6 hrs la. mayer n gm left early. so after dat went parkway to look for my cd(which i nv buy in the end) den they went arcade i went tuition. wooo. wad a happenin day. all day at pool sia hhaa.
dis wkend quite lame. bt ya la. liddat lo. nth much to blog bout, only the pool tym.zf was sayin we muz b honoured cuz we r one of the first few he go out if after 5 days away frm civilisation. i was tryin to make waihan jealous cuz i finish my ct liao. mayer look v nice in dat long sleeve shirt. haha. dats bout it lo.

quote:
失去和拥有剎那的感动，人生有时候像一场梦。
...
黑夜白昼我们都曾经拥有，
人生是没有定律的一种节奏，不如用心去感受。
...黑夜过后就有日出和日落。
...多少的朋友来的来走的走，聚散从来都不给任何的理由。

yes! ct finish le

2008-03-06T21:50:00.004+08:00

phewww. ct finally finish le. tmr gt wushu, i'l go man. really really miss wushu lo. lyk i got fat liao haha. hmmm. liddat lo. i tink my ct die liao. can pass can liao la. okay for the previous days quite a few stuff happen.

monday was chem. woo. damn sad sia.went study wif waihan on sun, again at bugis foodcourt, den studied chem oso. shit sia. on mon when i went it lyk forgot my stuff la. crap. stupid guy still sae wad git a, i tink the most is a d la shit sia. den wad, after paper go home slp n slack lo. oh ya oh ya. zf wish me gd luck lei. awwww. stupid lucky boy go pahang liao cumin back tmr. hmmm

tues was gp n econs. gp was okay, i write till quite ji dong lei, ques is shud schools haf monopoly over education. shant tok too much. after gp break. bt go in econs, die. my mind blank n dunnno wad ta write la. juz hope i wun fail agn lo. sian sian. den go home so late la. no tym mug bio. dat nite study till 3am lei.
wed was bio. well, i was laughin at my own stupid ans. anihow zam de hopin to hit sum shit. thanz la wh, teach mi anihow zam. lol jk la, i tink gt a bit use lei. hope i can git out of remedial. oh ya it was on dis day i saw a v swit ting lo.
i was walkin home at dis pavement la. it was drizzling den quite cold. the 'scene' in front of mi really warmed mi up. okay its a v simple ting. dis ah ma was on a wheelchair den the ah gong was pushin the wheelchair slowly. make sure the ah ma nv meet wif bumps n fall frm the chair. i tink got speak softly to the ah ma. den lyk v lovin la. orh man. dis is everlasting love. love for the one you care. when u plan to love the 1 forever, love turns into this special intimate relationship, its nt a feelin animore. its a relationship le. okay i dunno how to sae bt ya. its already more than prolonged mutual attraction le. dat scene taught mi loads. i really envy them lo. haiz. i dun xiang wang to b lyk them. juz reach their 50%i quite happy le lo.

okay finally the last day of exams today. maths was a total mess la. shit cant git a liao la. nvm la. heck liao. after dat we went stonegrill makan. got mi mandy ang n hui. tot got the grill set liao bt now its now stuff. damn cool can, soup of the day cream of chicken, den the main course was fish n chips. the fish fried wif oats batter n beer, the mustrad dip wif a lil liquor, the potato wedges wif mayonise n mozerella cheeze, coleslaw. tea for drink, though i shud haf tried coffee, super nong la. finally is dessert, choc ice cream wif super strong esspresso, a bit, n 2 teaspoons of sum liquor. as wad the chef described. orh man. i really loved the taste la. its super super special lo. okay hui n mandy, i dun only tink its special, its nice de lor. the chef keep cumin out n tok to us. cool. haha. lyk wad mandy said, its gd to b young gals heex. okay den we went to cathay, wanna watch movie de bt finally went walkin arnd. went to the cathay museum, sth liddat, n took an illegal photo. haha.loiter at 'gramophone' for lyk 1 hr, i was listenin to jazz cds. i love jazz. den we went to take mrt. stupid sia, thanz hui, we wanted to follow sum random person cuz we dunno where to go. finally decided to cut hair. okay lo. at tanah merah we saved a snail la. hui crazy idea agn. i cut my hair, a bit shorter now. dis is a stupid decision after decidin for damn long la, haha. din regret it though. i feel the new hairstyle is nicer lo. haha. well.

dis post super super long can. basically its bout my 4 days lo. tmr is wushu le. finally haha. i miss my darlings.

quote:
hey fren,
i dun wan you to b my lover, its wierd when we r over;
i dun wan you to be my enemy, sight of you makes mi angry;
i juz wan you to b my fren, to b there as my lifelong buddy.

stressed..

2008-02-28T21:48:00.003+08:00

orh man wads life sia. i realised i'm nt suited to mug in skool. at least i cant mug econs in skool. oh no i today v shi bai can. spent lyk so long studyin 1 stupid chapter den nothin got in la. ppl sae muz relax n stuff. die la i haven start bio math n gp how to relax. shit sia. now i'm feelin lyk so restrained i wanna tear my hair liao. i studied wif hui today lo, at concourse, acty is wif mandy de den she pang seh. haha. postponed to tmr la. dis wk i most nt enthu wushu de. gonna skip lyk tmr's trng lo. sian la.
dat tym went studyin wif waihan. juz dis wk tues only. thanz man. its lyk 1 of the most successful grp(sth liddat) studyin la. my opinion of grp studyin change le wor. mon went studyin wif mandy oso. at ice cream chef lo. cool. they'll b my study partners nxt tym liao. the kaya ice cream at ice cream chef damn nice can. wif a bit of bread inside de. win liao la. damn nice. seh. i still wanna eat lor. haha
on wed got trng. wif di n ks n vj peepx lo. haha. next tym den tok more bout it. bout henry said gm called his grandfather. cool. mum niao-in le la. wadeva can. shit sia.
no quotes today, nt in mood to tink of anitin.

ma went for lasik.

2008-02-22T20:42:00.003+08:00

woo its a fri le. finally n thank goodness its friday. can rest a bit le lo. bt muz pia for ct1 liao. its lyk next next wk la. today wushu was nt bad. as usual we went to slp on the big mattress until the other a gals cum lo. we hope the ji ti is alrite le yup. n today i nv train dao gun lei, shit sia i muz go da gun liao. den walkin out. wads the prob wif emo didi la. wa lau. he's nt emo liao. its utter attitude lo. sian la. hope he nt liddat tmr liao grrr. ks a bit pissed arh i guess. well heck la.
i wanna thank jeramyn for the belated valentines day present. in need of it wor. thanz boy!!!!
tmr morn gotta pei ma go check her eye after lasik lo. yup she went lasik today. n her eyes r lyk, a lil red, looks dry n i tink nt v nice feel lo. imagine part of ur cornea disappearin. yee. a lil disgustin arh. i dun tink i'l go for it lo. scary can. wad if i blink my eye? den they cut off my eyelids. omg!!!! haha. i tink i'l juz wear contacts nxt tym lo. though a bit ma fan la bt ya, so much safer. though there's a risk of conjunctivitis. spelt lyk dat i guess haha.
hmmm. endin le ba. bloggin is nice.
quote:
闭上眼睛忍住泪别哭泣
末日前夕请留在我怀里
看太阳暗去月光失明我只想牵你的指尖绕地球最后一圈
黑夜降临别害怕我爱你
末日前夕请留在我怀里
我在这世界最眷恋的事情
就是曾拥抱你
（末日之恋，张智成）

i gif up on him le!!

2008-02-22T00:49:00.006+08:00

woo juz now went ajisen agn wif may n mayer. my dear dearies haha. woo nice food sia. bt damn x la. i tink it cost lyk half my wk's allowance le orh man now still owe may lyk 15 bucks. ll return soon de haha. den went walk walk arnd parkway to pei may shop for prez. laugh a lot a lot la. esp at isetan. haha. gonna miss these times. tmr wushu ll c them de so yup, wun miss so much la.

this wk gt quite a lot of stuff lo. mon acty gt rehearsal den becum trng. after wushu at cch mi ks mayer n zf went to eat at lucky bread. wanna eat punggol nasi memak de la, too many ppl le so we nt eatin lo. haha. zf acty v lame n suan de lo. a bit too mature for his age n cool n calm de. so diff frm cch de wushu guys la. bt yup. nt bad though. mayer sae he handsome wor haha. omg my didi become gay liao. instant noodles was nt bad there. we taught zf to eat unhealthily le haha. zf there's more to cum.

hmmm. on tues there was mock napfa, standin broad jump 200, inclined pull up lazy ta do so juz pass, 10, 2.4 improved lei, 14.28min. improved by half a min. its was on tues i planned to gif up on him. there r beta ppl up there dun need to hog on to 1 guy ma. n wad henry didi said is true. when u start to lyk back the person you lyk den dun lyk le, the feelin is juz u 1 sum1 beside you, nt cuz you really lyk him. its really true lo. mebbe i juz feel a lil bored n lonely, or mebbe juz its diff nt havin him arnd ba. bt now i xiang tong le. 过了一时期的成长，我又是一条好汉，一条单身好汉。woo nt bad wor.

wed gt trng agn. dat day was when we choose the feelin fabv stuff. i chose the 5 choices r salsa, yoga, kickboxing, massage n hip hop. yup.i really look forward to it lo. then skool went on as per normal. after skool got chit chat session wif mr lim. well it was nice lo. i tink hmmm, i got quite a few gd advices frm him lor. lyk advices to my ambition. i aspire to b senior police officer. he told mi to aim for law la. siao sia. you tink i can git in? i wanna do the double degree ting lo bt well, i tink dun tink so far first ba, study, study more impt. den gt carrers tok, they told us how diff izzit to git a scholarship la. i tink my name the first few to strike out lo, lookin at my results.

today in klaz we watch a movie during the gp lesson. the history boys. its super nice la, the setting was v calm n soothin n the literature they use was so beautiful. i cant find other words to describe le lo. its a very enrichin story, too bad we cant git to finish the movie la. hmmm sad. there r few really nice quotations bt the paper now wif zhaoling lo. i tink i'l copy frm marg ba. i feel bad for no comments on the film can. its so nice lo i dunno how ta comment. wad a waste. 'pulled thru' the rest of the day den when joggin wif marg val n yaps haha. we walked to the 3.3 turnin pt den ran the guy's route back. it seemed long lo. n i stopped la. wads this man. hmmm horrible timin oso bt heck la. den ajisen blah blah.

dis wk really no tym use com la. nan de can use, well, v happy bloggin. yup my blog ll b kept on de. ya la thanz henry la lol!! dats bout it.

quote:
Hey girl, I wanna catch your wave
Hey girl, I wanna drift away with you
Hey girl, you've got an undertow
Hey girl, hey girl, don't wanna let you
Hey girl, hey girl don't wanna let you go
I'll never let you go
Alright
(catch your wave, the click five)

ffirst sat trng of the year

2008-02-17T20:45:00.004+08:00

hmmm ytd was the start of after cny sat trng le. happy n sad lo. happy cuz i git ta c my darlings more, sad cuz my life in wushu is lyk gonna end liao la. iof i dun go nvm mean almost a total stop in wushu le. though can still c my dearies its diff liao. cant c them so often le. cnt officially shang chang to train for comp liao. wa super sad can. i really muz appreciate the times i haf wif them le lo. love ya my wushu dears.
after trng we went to eat roti prata outside cchg. at first gt mi puen mayer nicole zhengfeng. den came may wanting n kang sing. woo zhengfeng lei. he came wif us la. haha. gd he'l mix wif us le lo. muz make him go out wif us more often. aniwaes. laughed loads ytd la. when we eating. clumsy didi mayer keep spilling the curry on himself. haha. nvm. nicole n her new fren zhengfeng, a bit nv tok liddat haha. mi n kangsing laughin laughing laughin. blah blah blah. cool. i shall miss these a lot next tym. sob sob.
acty it was kai gong fan ytd de bt lyk v lil ppl go so it was cancelled. even if got i oso cant go, i got tuition la. nvm. after comp gt chance de lo haha. hope my last yr we'll do v well. let mi leave without regrets(wa lyk i dying liddat haha). haiz wushu can really cheer mi up. wushu rox man!!
after wushu gt tuition. after tuition went to eat agn lo. wif yingling lixuan. okay, i'm EA la, easily amused haha(given by yl). first tym i share wif her lo. got laksa n bak chor mee. gd tym though haha. vv high ytd la.
today i spent my day slackin at home. sian la i muz try ta study liao. if nt i'll flunk my ct1 n kena told to drop. dats bout it lo

quote:
一千零一夜没有一夜不思念每一份想念化做不成双的蝶
一千零一夜没有一夜不流泪流到心里面变成雪....

一千零一夜夜夜看到她思念究竞谁让她有那么忧虑的脸
一千零一夜夜夜听到她流泪不知该怎么去安慰
(一千零一夜, 邰正宵)

after valentines day the blog

2008-02-16T09:46:00.004+08:00

finally git ta blog liao. after bai tai sui n no 1 at home. later still got wushu lo. haha.okay. special event of this mth. valentines day!!
hmmm, forgot how much i spent le la. bt mebbe arnd 60 plus bucks? well its all worth it la. had fun on that day lo. ppl to thank: siyuan for her meticulous work n the tie xin card, edna n yuhan for the yummy cookies, jiehao for the chocs n the origami, amanda kwek for the chocs, yong sheng for the kit kat, debby for the yummy home made choc erm jolene n zhen luan for the nougats marg for the ruffly pen n chocs, melvin for the part 1,2,3 presents yap heng for the rose(a lil half dead lol!) and dats about it la. yup dats the klaz 1. the outside 1 got a few. serene for the lil card, shun wei for the rocher, xin hui for my belated prez(cool love it la, its border's voucher), my mortal frm junior klaz for the marshmellows, whack my junior klaz angel mayer for nt givin mi anitin yet, waihan for the chocs to git fat plus the rose n ys for the folded rose. thanz frenz. last n the most impt ppl, my dear wushu darlings. huiying for the lil bottle, damn cute sia. puen for the erm.. cookies haha. joanne for the brownies. mayer my dearest didi for the rose frm mini toons n emo didi for the 200 sms(bleah -'-...) lol. hope there's more to come haha. oh no i'm so greedy. bt yup. thanz you guys. love ya!

okay, on valentines day, when out wif NUB waihan to watch jumper. acty wanna watch cj9 bt a bit too late le, so ya lor. i feel the show nt v gd lei, lyk a lil content only. plus nt enuff action(he said so). the few cool things bout the show is juz the special power of teleportin lo. bt its a cool idea la. i can rob the bank liao lo haha. i'll b damn rich sia. haha, tink too much liao. bt yup. wad toks at the high klaz foodcourt plus kopi peng. haha i peng arh. diao.

he says he put the fone strap on liao, n promised mi meetings for makan next tym, hope he keeps up to his promise.

ytd was cross country day. hu wanna buy 4d? my position was 409 la. improved by 100 positions. first tym i run the 3.3 route non stop sia. v happy lor. den at the final side still chiong past lyk 20 plus ppl la. so proud of myself haha. opps a lil bu yao lian here. then had a this v nice tok wif amanda ang. hmmm. shan't sae the details bt really made mi tink thru many stuff. thanz amanda. i tinkt he story reallly super cute esp the part: wads left is yours(after the groom gifs part of his heart to his x gal frenz, he said this when the bride ask during the wedding) damn sad but yup. very meaningful.

hmmm still gotta rush to meet them for lunch later, my wushu darlings. so yup. dun sae i nv update wor. super super busy cant use com lo haha.

quote:
If you get there before I do... don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through... I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down... Darlin' wait and see
And between now and then, till I see you again...
I'll be loving you...
Love Me
(love me, raye collin )

bored

2008-02-09T21:59:00.001+08:00

wad the hell sia. stuck at home n made to mug during chin new yr hols la. siao. darn bored flustered n irritated now. wad is this man. cny dis yr darn bored. tmr hy leavin sg. ct cumin in 3 wks tym. comp cumin in dunno how many weeks la. next wk is valentines day wk. sure pok plus busy de. wa lau. feel lyk blabberin cursin scoldin. dun git on my nerves. grrrrrr.
dis few days tot a lot. patchin up? cont tokin to him. blah blah. c la, now regret liao. wad the hell man. kana sai la. dun wanna tink so much le. next wk jiu cny liao lo. sian sian sian. sian jik bua la. well nothing to type now le. blog oso sian la. bleah.....
quote:
......And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end.....
.......And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
(way back into love, hugh grant n drew barrymore)

cny eve!

2008-02-06T23:36:00.001+08:00

woo cny is arnd the corner. no, its now!!! haha. damn fast sia. its lyk a new yr liao lo. juz now in skool wushu team performed. cool, i tink we damn zai. haha nolar nt so arrogant la. a gals did nt bad lo, lyk the ya zhou. he said a gals was the bez. cool. i lyk praises frm ppl, esp frm him hehe. my dao oso okay lo. i din screw up la. bt nt v gd either, muz train to b beta haha.audrey's taiji damn farni la. she is zai bt the song a bit... hmmmm. nt suited for her routine lo. haha. dats bout it la.
my new yr resolutions:
1) jian fei, git thinner lo haha
2) be a bit more hardworkin la, a lvl yr le lei.
3) nt splurge, save money
4) git cheap bt nice clothes frm bugis st heex
5) wuhsu wushu wushu, luv wushu more
6) dun b so evil to my noob sis
7) mix more wif klaz
8) teng my 'family' more
9) git over you
10) try my bez to forget you!!

quote:
nil!!

long tym no blog

2008-02-05T18:13:00.001+08:00

okay okay, replyin to ppl hu sae i long long tym nv blog. thanz to my mum i cant use the stupid com lo. grrr. in bad mood now. so ya.
juz now in skool we had floorball inter klaz comp la. a bit of com la. s35 a bit lyk quan jun fu mo. i caused 2 ppl to b injured la. i tink i'm the cause of it. ya. i fell too. hmmm dis wk isn't my sports wk. screwed up my bez tao lu xin dao in the rehearsal ytd la. shit sia. my bez routine lei. wad the hell is dis. den today. blah blah blah la. i'm whinin n complainin again. wads worse is he's there to c my worst side la. shit shit shit la. wa i c him i dunno i'm happy or frustrated la. lyk so super super contradictin de feel. dis sux man. i'm gonna git over him, cant b so noob yup. hur!!!
juz now pang seh marg to eat at ice cream chef wif mandy(ang) n hui. haha. we had lyk quite a lot of ices. got 1 regular cup den shared 1 large cup. okay hope i haf a date to bring them there on valentines day. awwwww. quite swit de lo. okay, sumday i gonna work there n b 1 of the chefs there sia. yay!
oh ya, still got 1 more ting, dunno how long ago(arnd 2 wks ba) went out wif kenneth sun thai n SZEYAN! haha. to bugis lo. yes i bought the shirt i want liao. so happy i found it lo. den it was the first tym(a bit noob) i tried ajisen. nice de lo. cool! haha, had a damn fun day wif them. thanz for the day man! luv ya peepx. soo sry sze i quite no cheng yi la. bout the bdae present. okay okay i'l try n git a xiang yang 1 for you can? lol.
quote:
换换我的爱情开始冒险游戏让爱充满惊喜甜蜜在心底
为了梦想出击使你笑容不离阳光就在迎风的距离耀眼
换换我的爱情改变幸福魔力也许不够天份收藏你美丽
天使加速感应请问爱的寓意
祈祷每天爱情都可以加油~~加油~

y outing wif apsn

2008-01-27T09:45:00.001+08:00

i muz git dis out of my heartif nt i'l feel damn bu shuang. yes! ytd was the first y outing of the yr! i tink it was lyk cool fun n blah blah blah. enjoyed myself thoroughly ytd lo. it was quite special for ytd lei. nt normal outings or trips to different in teresting places, bt juz telematches at east coast. haha. xinhui n wynne were 2 of the few game masters there. haha. okay lemme start describin frm the start. was supposed to go alone to paya lebar mrt to meet the folks first lo. alone lei, bit weird sia. bt nvm daniel ll b there so at least got sum1 i noe. haha. quite a few there when i reached le. den toked to dis gal peggy. she's pretty n petite lo. haha. frm ite simei. okay den every1 came n blah blah.den we took bus to apsn, sian, it was acty the 1 in our old pri skool compound la. bleah. it was rather coool bt run down there. on the way i knew a new guy albert, frm nus dentistry. haha oso usual volunteer lei i nv c him b4 lo. there at apsn canteen when we supposed to go into grps, wa so qiao! peggy is my leader la, den the other few is i noe the ppl lo. zenn the ant, daniel, wei li(frm previous outing). yup, other is huiting, frm ite clementi i tink. haha. cool sia.
at the beach we had fun n blah blah blah lo. okay, there was dunkin session too, yiliang n 2 other ppl's bdae, yiliang oso kena dunked la! farni sia haha. free lunch at macs. zenn is a vacuum cleaner sia, lol, same as daniel. heex.
blah blah den to debrief after sendin them up on bus, next to home! on bus i saw albert n dis rj guy lo, lionel haha.we toked n toked, crappin all the way. almost all nonsense la.
yup dats bout it. the whole outing dun only deserve such comments, bt i cant write it out lo. bt yup. wanna go for the next outing bt cannot go la, sian.
l later gng out wif sze sze sun thai n kenneth! haha. gonna haf fun sia! n ytd cleaned my room till 4.30am sian.(random)
quote:
我的爱是说停不能停已经弄的不能说是曾经
也可说出我是错的爱未曾变成真的
也没藏到多少你需要的爱
我不再去执拙我是谁我是我在夜里掉的眼泪
也可说我看不开的为你我能做的竟还没让你相信是爱情
左右你我
(害怕，第二天堂，林俊杰）

why procrastinate

2008-01-20T15:56:00.001+08:00

i bought a new book on last fri, by my x gp cher mr teo aik cher, title "why procrastinate". quite an insightful book. its a helpbook for teens hu lyk to push tings to the last min lo. haha. the book a bit thin, easy to read and all illustrations by mr teo lo. quite cute la haha. well if u interested go n grab 1 now yup. hmmm, i din sae it v convincingly lei. bleh.

aniwae i v long nv blog liao lo. haha. lyk almost 1 wk la. finally no1 snatch the com frm mi liao. went bugis wif xinhui juz now. saw dis super pretty lyk dress liddat la. for only 12 bucks lei. freak i gonna buy liao lo haha. plus got my bangle, n earrings. i lyk. okay dis is super random. hmmm. dis few days lyk gt nothing to sae de. dun even feel lyk gng online la. juz wanna lie in bed n dun wake up. lazy n tired lo. bt yes, muz jian chi dao di.

i v happy i dun miss him now. bt still tok of him la. to xinhui lo. our many lectures together de yup. shit. dis is so bloody random lo. hmmm tink i'l stop for now. try ta do econs lo haha.

quote:
那是才开始认识你的日子我重复想着简讯里写的句子
假如你是我等待的爱情故事我希望每页都有你的名字
两个人陌生认识爱不是个孤独的字
有些话想几千次对你想说些什么但是我没办法解释
爱是个有你才完美的故事我们从以前走到永远为止
因为你有一种很单纯的样子所以让明天忽然那么真实
(完美故事，玩酷，潘玮柏）

skipped bio test

2008-01-14T20:09:00.001+08:00

well, i feel a lil guilty lei, skipped the bio retest lo. i'l study harder n skip the remedial de lo. so i can train wif cch. grrr. miss trng lo. haha. yes hope dis wk can go k box lo, wif mayer may henry mebbe he nian. haix. i scared didi irritated by mi lo. i'm nt gonna sms him liao. at least nt for now. until he sms mi lo. wa cannot la. my didi can b irritated wif mi de. mebbe his sms over le ba. mebbe tmr ask may lo.she's the only 1 hu went trng today. enthu sia. i haf nothing to train wif, so well. din go lo. hmmm, skipped bio test lei!!!! i mean retest ba. lol. heck la. now i'm still wastin tym lo. grrrr. read waihan's blog. chime chime de wor. haha. ok la i tink dats bout it lo. tmr gt pe, ll c him again la. sian. the sight of him piss mi off man. bleh. for my hw, jiayou!

quote:
拆开你曾经写给我的信件你说你好爱我
一张张我和你泛黄的照片你遗忘在角落
是你说要我和你天长地久我烙印在心中
但你身旁守护着你的男人却已经不是我
说你爱我说你要我说你永远不离开我
我承认此刻的我懦弱
说你爱我说你要我说你永远不离开我这要求是否太多
你难道无法爱..爱我吗你难道无法爱..爱我吗
永远是你给的承诺我却无法握在手中
我和你的情节是否已走到最后
(说你爱我，玩酷，潘玮柏）

i hate MCPs!!!!

2008-01-13T13:06:00.001+08:00

well lyk a few days nv blog liao. hmm cumin here to waste tym and space lo. bleh. ah ma out of hospital liao. last mon jiu out lo, forgot to mention. den ya, first wk of real lessons is........ well, refreshin lo. hmmm, i tink dis yr damn busy no tym blog so much le. haha. i'm addicted to coaster rush n tower bloxx le lo. both handfone games. damn fun sia. ytd i took lyk 3 hrs to finish my essay cuz i was busily playin games la. diao........ thanz to jiehao for sendin me these fun games hehe.
wa freak la. a bit pissed lo. cheh i tot i so gt mei li, made him lyk mi. acty is juz the fact dat i'm the available stupid gal in ur circle of frenz for you to kan shang mi. win liao la. i hate mcps!!! damn the 大男人s la. for those hu dunno, mcp is male chauvanistic pig, means da nan ren.... how stupid of mi to tink dat......... grrr dun sae le. heng i haf nothin to do wif you le. dis already confirms my decision was darn correctly made. i tink dis is the bez ting i've ever done last yr la. well, u r nt worthy of my emo-ness n sadness. ha. julia wun b emo over u le. 真得很不值得。n i'll prove to you dat i have my hidden potential lo. 你等着瞧。

quote:
不懂爱恨情仇煎熬的我们
都以为相爱就像风云的善变
相信那一天抵过永远在这一刹那冻结那时间
不懂怎么表现温柔的我们
还以为殉情只是古老的传言
你走得有多痛痛有多浓
当梦被埋在江南烟雨中心碎了才懂
（江南，第二天堂，林俊杰）

p.s. i saw sth on tv dis morn, frm you xi nu wang, korean drama. it says:
stealing hearts is a crime too, and u stole mine.
i feel dats nt bad wor haha.

my decision

2008-01-10T22:25:00.001+08:00

i've made a damn gd conclusion. i dun lyk him le. nian nian bu wang is juz feelin of nostalgia(quoted frm xh). well almost 1 wk of skool pass le. i tink i'm gittin back into mood le ba. hmmm, i tink let quite a few chers scold le lo. no only 2 ba.mr lim n tyh. mr lim a lil upset wif the klaz today lo, so dats y i'm doin the darn research today haha. then tyh catch for skirt? bleh, n earrings n slippers la. lame sia. tmr still gotta kena his scoldin lo. muz make sure my everyting no prob tmr lo. hmmm i suddenly feel lyk watchin sum drama la, damn mum dun allow. sad sia. on wed we had meetin of juniors during wushu. wa lao, damn much rc la. 3 gals out of 6 can. sian. wushu nv had prc lo, last tym cch gt 1 den quit le. sia la. the guys oso.. hmmmm. i tink our junior klaz is ok too. gt a guy oso called mayer lei! he's side view v nice bt front view lyk............ hmmmmmm..... no comments haha. ya la all random stuff la. nothing to sae lo. tmr gt wushu le. gonna haf fun again man. but dearest didi mayer nt gng, leg pain. i tink sth went wrong lo. hmmm. wish him recover damn soon sia. mayer jiayou! hmmm piain tym again! sian la i damn tired le!! grrrr.

quote:
我会送你红色玫瑰(你知道我爱流泪)
你别拿一生眼泪相对
未来的日子有你才美梦才会真一点
我学着在你爱里沉醉(我不撤退)
你守护着我穿过黑夜
我愿意这条情路相守相随
你最珍贵
(你最珍贵，不后悔，张学友.高慧芳)

first day of real lessons

2008-01-08T19:01:00.001+08:00

我不敢再对自己承认当时的一时冲动，不想再看到你。wa f*** la, wads the prob wif you. y ur klaz keep appearin in front or near my klaz de. sian today bio u r lyk right in front of my klaz la. i saw dat u damn sian i oso damn sian can. well, i use my cheeriness to cover up the sadness in my hart, i guess i din do well ba. juz now in bio lec my head damn pain la. den plus u in front. stupid la, i juz wanna leave the bloody hall can. sucker. u r gradually ignoring mi le. i noe we cant be gd frenz animore(wad u said) but pls la, u r practically ignorin mi. wa lau eh damn jue can. i oso v contradictin la, wanna c u n dun wanna c u liddat. fine, heck liao. u dao mi rite? i'l dao u back la. i suddenly feel lyk patchin up, well, i tink if i go ask u its too bu yao lian liao la, lyk a damn bitch liddat. so yes, i wun go ask u de. mebbe juz silently hope u dun dao mi n stuff ba. now ppl r tellin mi stuff lyk we v wasted so fast end. ok lor i dunno how to reply them liao.

hmmm so much of emoness n scoldin today. first day of real skool, i feel, engine still nt workin well, juz oil it soon lo, so JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU! haha. i still haven gif my angel n mortal gifts lei. awww. nvm la. i oso lyk no money le. i predict a 60 plus bucks bill la. next wk no pocket money liao. sian haha. hmmm zai shuo la. tmr gt wushu again!! yay wushu wushu wushu rox! hehe i'l train hard tmr lo. feel the passion sia. ya la dats it for now. my times mag issue is finally okay liao heex!

quote:
Don't you know that I will stand up for you
No matter what you are going through
I'm still on your side
Any time day or night Don't care if it's wrong or right
I'm still on your side
(still on ur side,sooner or later, bb mak)

book review for the shadow of the wind

2008-01-07T21:05:00.000+08:00

well, finished the book "the shadow of the wind" ytd, mebbe is today mornin ba, at midnight. wow, i din study my bio juz to read the book la. its a pretty story. omg. mebbe i read quite little la, but i nv read such an amazing book b4. wa lau eh, its darn nicer den da vinci code la. plus its v tragic. the language is lyk, wad the comments sae, love letter to literature, no exaggeration, its really a damn nice book can. no wonder its a book recommended for read singapore 2007 la. nv came across such a powerful book b4, the twists r lyk, shockin la. nt the dan brown kind, more strong den dat lo. u tink i'm exaggeratin u can try readin la. mebbe it'l take quite a long tym(cuz the book quite thick) bt yes, its truely worth the tym n devotion lo. v long nv came across such a novel worth my readin le. i tink the kite runner oso nt strong enough to capture my attention lo. i dun mind ownin the book now. really dun wanna return the book le la, grrrr. reluctant man. it is totally WOW. okay, my language nt gd, i dunno how to put my feelins into words lo haha.
heng i got book for indulgence, if nt i'l b lyk v sian thru the nights le lo. hope dis yr recommended books r as of same standard. haha. oh ya, another book to recommend, the phantom of the opera, its a classic tragic love story, worth the read oso, bt shadow of the wind is nicer. the settings is in barcelona, makin the whole story v gt feel lo haha.
well so much bout the book la, i tink i'm crazy bout it le. bout today. its sea regatta day. well mr tan scolded every1 in the morn n sae there's no dunkin. wa wads the fun of regatta without dunkin. we went there a while den go back le lo. i tink if we stay longer mebbe gt fun la. really regret y i nv go try out for the ogl lo. hmmm nvm la. its over le. now its back to serious work. tmr is the start of real skool le. i really hope i can rem all the stuff lo. today is the first tym i din go for wushu, went leisure par wif joanne to makan. den wanderin arnd to wait for huiying. acty wanna watch warlords de, bt the moivie end too late i tried ta call my mum to bargain, kena her scold la. sian, to keep future outings smooth i skipped the movie lo. nvm. n 1 ting. jon pang seh mi today la!!!!
我对自己的举动是否后悔了？每次一听到你的名就有那怪怪的感觉的。完蛋了。

quote:
- when u stop to tink if u love someone, you have stopped loving him forever ( the shadow of the wind, carlos ruiz zafon)

one boring day

2008-01-05T11:49:00.001+08:00

ytd was cca orientation for cch ppl, i went back lo. haha, it t'was quite slack there. i scared i go back alone lyk v extra, heng i got my cch pe tee, well i was camouflaged nyaha. went back wif szeyan lo. she's meetin joyce den cum vj find mi first. haha. finally for her to b back in vj yup. she was arnd wif yapheng. i was crashin vj orientation bt it was well, nt fun at all. argh mebbe was i'm nt an ogl? nvm, guess sea regatta ll b much more fun lor. hmmm. cch was much more fun, i feeel v attached to cch la. ytd wushu made mi much much happier lo, lyk i wasn't emo le. cool, wushu perks mi up. henry was still tryin to sae, wa dis is called emo arh, when i was damn happy n skippin arnd. haha. juz cuz of wushu. wushu wushu wushu! damn slack la, bt i did a ban tao. den got ti neng lo, my thighs achin a lil le haha. okays hope i still can go wushu often lo. queenie's didi saw the blog n smsed mi ytd, haha thanz boy i'm much beta le. nt emo liao. muz enjoy life n haf fun lo haha. yea man, i feel i'm back le, no more emo julia. oh ya btw, cch jap delights r so nice la.
其实我的忧郁是多日来的压力吧，你已是我心里美丽的一段往事，而往事只能回味。心是奇妙的，总是能在适当的时候找到自己的着地。时间似乎是最好的良药。
feelin happy now XD.
quote:
我不再逃空虚日子这一路都在熬
也许爱情就是熟能生巧
你绝对想不到我多渴望让生活染上一些颜料
是红橙黄或蓝靛紫都好一圈一圈的围绕
终于能自在的坦承说爱你
火一点就燃烧
(熟能生巧，曹操，林俊杰)

econs over!

2008-01-03T22:42:00.001+08:00

finally finally finally, econs is over liao lo. hmmm i feel much beta ya. mebbe the few days of emo-in is cuz of stress ba. bei mayer didi shuo zhong le. haha. aniwaes thanz u peepx for the tag n encouragement, yup, i noe ya all r there for mi de. haha.special thanz to henry, szeyan, hui, may, mayer n huiying lo. haha.

thanz to xinhui yup. after u pei mi go walk walk at parkway i sae out my probs in my heart le feelin much beta lo. n it was then i realise books make mi v happy la. =.=" wa i book worm izzit? ytd went borders le i feel beta lo. mebbe nxt tym i emo i go library n indulge in world of books le haha.

well today was much beta, damn cold in lt5 la. grrr. first tym ever i do paper until my hands numb can? my lil finger cant feel anitin at all n when i tok my tongue lyk stuck la. hmmm, its finally over lo. den i can an xin go crash ppl's og tmr n sea regatta on mon. econs, arh forgit it la, fail oso i dun care liao.
hmmm i saw u again today, lyk juz b4 my econs r paper. we lyk went into the hall together lo. well i tink u gt over mi le ba...... haha. hmmm u were sittin 2 rows in front of mi la. 我看到的虽然只是你的背影，但有一些些点亮了我今天的心情。weird, wads wrong wif mi these days man. haha. lyk wad hui said, dis yr is nt the tym to b bothered of such stuff lo. haha. i'l try nt ta tink so much le ba. heex. i wish i noe i'm over you. lyk really mei you le. or izzit i mistook lyk for infatuation. still dun lyk dat tym lyk it ended a lil abruptly la. my fault haha. well life still goes on lo.

today is quite a nice day. oh ya i haven tok bout the book "the kite runner" by khaled hosseini, forgot le la, bt its lyk a bk narrated a rich guy in iraq, tokin more of the chasm bet the rich n poor, n how the poor lil boy, fren of his, kena bully by ppl. n blah blah blah la. dunno how ta describe. the comments for the bk is powerful, bt i tink its more of sensual n well, a lil powerful ba. din wanna put the book down lo, even only after readin the first page only, nt bad a bk, its a recommended book for read! sngapoe 2007. now i'm on a new book shadow of the wind, oso a recommended book. indulgence in the world of fantasies, my escape frm reality wor. wow.

hmmm next wk still got bio r paper ba. hope i can finish studyin haha. i wanna go k box!!! wif my didis n may. bez tym man. well i'm done for now
quote:
......只要你在我身边所有蜚语流言完全视而不见
请不要匆匆一面一转身就沉入海平线
传说中你为爱甘心被搁浅我也可以为你潜入海里面
怎么忍心断绝忘记我不变的誓言我眼泪断了线
现实里有了我对你的眷恋我愿意化作雕像等你出现
再见再也不见心碎了飘荡在海边你抬头就看见
(美人鱼, 第二天堂，林俊杰)

my bloggin style

2008-01-02T18:57:00.000+08:00

my bloggin stlye, i luv blogthings haha

Your Blogging Type is Unique and Avant Garde

You're a bit ... unusual. And so is your blog.You're impulsive, and you'll often post the first thing that pops in your head.Completely uncensored, you blog tends to shock... even though that's not your intent.You tend to change your blog often, experimenting with new designs and content.

What's" Your Blogging Personality?

first day of skool

2008-01-02T18:08:00.001+08:00

emo-in on first day of skool
well i dunno wads happenin to mi, i'm gittin more n more emo la. damn saddenin can. grrrrr. well it started ytd, or mebbe 2 days back. after i go to cyclin trip i got more n more emo lo. mebbe its the sea, mebbe its my sun burn, i cant bring myself to do anitin la, nt even study for econs lo. i dun wanna drop econs bt apparently in at dis rate, droppin is expected de la. haiz. today go skool i c the ppl lyk havin so much fun in orientation, i regretted y i din go sign up lo. haiz, too late to b regretful le. nvm, still gt juniors meet seniors. hope the cute guy i saw today outsid my klaz in the morn is in my junior klaz. haha fa hua chi again. hmmm. i tink the emo-ness spreads. thanz to emo didi henry la. bleh, now u spread ur emo to mi. or izzit the tym of the mth? i pms? haha

今天偶然在走廊看到你，心中升起一种莫名地空虚。看到你，我第一件想做的事是闪人。我不想，不想看到你。不知为什么，心中突然刺痛一下，心没滴血，但那剧烈的痛，好难受。我们的结束，我很清楚我的想法；但在刚才对你的依恋连我自己都吓倒了。在我伤心的时候我总喜欢拿出我们的回忆细细回味，我失落时想靠着你的肩膀静静地感受你的存在，被老妈唠叨的夜晚我想通过电话筒对你发牢骚，这些是不是我对你依恋的痕迹呢？好烦好烦，我以为已经潇洒的离去了，这些证明我后悔了吗？那会是我一时冲动吗？希望时间能淡化我这场莫名的空虚。

v long nv type chin liao, hope dis makes sense. haix. i really tink i pms lo. mebbe my yi lian for him is juz i'm a lil lonely now. dear didis thanz for the night chats on sms, bt i guess ya all cant really understand how i feel ba. or mebbe i dunno how to put it well in words. haix, dun wanna tink bout such stuff le la. missed today's wushu le, hope i'l go on fri lo. grrrr. muz really go study econs le la. hope i pass. haha.

quote: ...............思念是一种痛...............（我们的故事；tension）

new year, new day

2008-01-01T17:16:00.000+08:00

new day, new year, new start
well well, muz i b glad its the start of a new year? hmmm, this means more pocket money, more freedom to go out, more frenz from the junior batch n more fun. dis cums wif more stress oso lo. wad a lvls cumin, i'm a year older den muz b more mature, no more jokin arnd, mebbe my LAST YEAR OF WUSHU!!!!! no man, dis is v saddenin lo. i dun wanna stop wushu. or rather, i dun wanna stop trng wif the cch ppl. trng wif them is great fun man. thanz u peepx for the nice tym lo. den now my whole family givin mi stress n pressure liao la. muz study study study. wa damn sian can. ytd new yr's eve i went cyclin wif my family, or rather my sis, at east coast lo. now i'm lyk burnt pig la. haha. red red de. sun burn liao la. den my sms oso explode lyk dunno wad le. tryin hard to keep it within 1400 lo, which is impossible cuz i gottta tahan till 3 jan n now its 1378 le. hmmm. nvm la. i started tokin to yh lo. haha.
i tink i need gd new yr resolutions. bt well, i cant tink much now. till gt econs haven mug la, wad the hell. r paper is on thurs n i haven really touch lo. lazy gal i am man. i suddenly feel lyk trng trng n trng. juz to destress lo. oh ya, there shud b y outin soon, prob end of jan ba. hmm hope i haf a gd tym lo. tmr is start of skool le. gt orientation for j1s n skool for j2s. really wanna go join them to haf fun lo, bt i dun tink got ppl wanna pei mi ba. they gonna study le. wa sian. dis is an irony. i wan skool start bt i dun 1 skool to start. tokin gibberish le la bt heck lo. oh ya, thanz puen for the chat on fone on i dunno when. really den fan dat tym la. den still gt my didis. thanz for pei-in mi chat thru out these few days okay. really really thanz sum1 is there to pei mi. haha. i wanna go wushu! ha i'm a lil siao liao. today is a rainy day n rainy days make mi feel emo. hmmm. jiayou for the new yr ahead. i'l believe in myself de. wow bloggin makes mi feel a lil beta liao lo. i still rem how i use to condemn bloggin la, now i'm a lil addicted to it le. heex.

my presents

2007-12-30T13:39:00.000+08:00

thanz peepx for my bdae
thanz dears for my presents yup. ya all gave mi a swit 17 dis yr. first present i got is from ma, my fave fbt shorts. den frm ah yee n ah po, my bilabong bag, my v first tote bag lo. thanz sheng xian, san mei, for the nice lil paper weight? aiya dunno how ta describe la, bt its really pretty yup. den mayer didi, the nice lil pig cushion soft toy, thanz la, pig. oh i haf a new nick liao, ba hu, wa lao whack them la. damn the 4 heavenly kings haha. frm joanne, er mei, a cute lil frong coin pouch, damn kawaii can. heex. frm henry didi, a cute baby mickey n frenz mug. frm gao guai qiuyan n kang sing, a bag wif baby's laughter n a lil hoppin chick. lol damn cute la. heex. den waihan, thanz for the glam necklace. din expect dat lo, tot u'l gif soft toys, nyaha. den my dear sze sze, the wire necklace n bracelet, v pretty yup, my first gold coloured accessory. den tuition frenz the bread post it, yh, the nice lil swit hand wind musical tingy. n huiying for the lil frog handfone accessory. yup. my presents dis yr lo. they r damn nice thanz all peepx. n the christmas exchange present frm see ann i tink. ha i majong tile handfone holder arh. sth liddat la.
my bdae got the wushu peepx de zhu fu lo. on christmas eve haha. they all sang bdae song for mi. thanz to them n cai lao shi. den she made mi open the ks qy de present infront of every1. a lil malu arh. every1 start laughin at mi lo haha.
christmas exchange was fun too, the most crazy present, a pineapple, frm may to eileen lo. she damn heng sia. still got the shoebox wif fruits too, a mango a papaya n an orange plus 3 pkts of drinks. haha. frm weijun to didi henry. awww.
after dat i went bugis watch national treasure wif waihan lo. wasnt wad i expected too. bt it was okay la, the endin was nt bad. the way they found the treasure n stuff v cool lo. wif all the riddles n stuff. nt bad nt bad.
the next day celebrated my bdae wif my family lo. at hiang suar. ok la, i quite lyk dat restaurant though v ulu. i thank all the ppl hu wished mi merry christmas n happie bdae lo haha. i need to haf new yr resolutions man.

nus pharm camp

2007-12-30T12:16:00.000+08:00

nus camp
i luv u guys man, imipramine og 5 rox!!! we r the champion og yup. okay i intro the ppl first, got mi tania lilian verena hongwei cheryl michele yingyi liying haseenah yancheng. last bt nt least my dear ogl naren(na ren, bt he insist its na rain) haha. okay at first every1 were so mo sheng. bt eventually every1 gt close cuz of the game of life. damn fun la. keep gng to the casino can? lyk wad naren sae, we spent the first decade of our life studyin den the rest of our 'life' gambling at the casino. play da xiao n stuff. fun sia. den mi lilian verena gt closer at alexandra hospital, tok so m uch till we kena sae la. den after dat tania oso came wif us. wow the gals man. we rock! plus hongwei lo. my opinions of hwa chong ppl change lei. they r nt nerdy lo, nt wad i tot. they v funky la. oh still got 1 more guy. ron yeo. hehe v nice guy he is. yup the few dat made the camp fun. nt forgettin xinhui amanda shunwei marg anthea gab n edmund. without u peepx the camp wun b fun lo. amanda was my dear rm mate. okay i found loads of similarities bet us, mebbe dats y we clique ba. she's a damn nice gal lo haha. n hui, omg my bez bez fren man. she's always there lo. she was tired durin the camp yup, den a lil xian diao de face liddat. haha. yup the camp was toatlly fun. made new frenz oso lo. hope i keep in touch wif them. now it confirms my determination to go into nus pharmacy, at least it's in one of my top choices. yup. oh ya one of the ogl's was our og's hate, bt she keep stickin to our og lo, or rather ogl. haha. juz cuz they took the same module together n r lab partners. she quite naggy lo. the v nice farni quote: can i hold you, for support?
we all laughin lyk siao la, inside joke yup? haha. ya dats bout it la, loads of memories r nt possible to b written down in words de lo.

my masterpiece

our masterpieces
my transponder
mi n verena

og5

these r the gals
mi n ron
mi n pretty lilian

to you, ys

2007-12-30T11:45:00.000+08:00

to you, ys
well dis 1 one of the posts i promise to write. hmmm. 281007. well dis was when we stared. unofficial bt yup. thanz for everyting. i wun forget stonegrill, our fave restaurant, ice cream chef, and meetings wif you. those were the most tough times of yr 2007, pw time, thanz for being there wif mi to hear me grumble n complain bout pw. a blessin dat i found you, thanz to y proms. you r always there yup. u really brighten up the days when i was wif you. waitin to meet you was always wif anticipation lo. really truely sry it ended so quickly okay. i cnt reciprocate the way you treat mi. you held mi in v high regards, bt i cun do the same. i'm so sry. u put mi in first place(i guess so) bt i had other more commitments to look to. the few times i pang seh you. i'm sorry. i dunno wad i can do now to apologize, the impact will nt b enuff de i noe. juz wanna let you noe, u were part of my life once. i'm serious. its all my fault yup. hmmm. i'l rem the phrase yup. 身无彩凤双飞翼，心有灵犀一点通。 this was wad ran within us. 离别是痛，但长痛不如短痛。i feel we r better off as frenz, which was wad i tink ll b the bez for us both. but you sae, we can nv b great frenz again, at least not in near future. i din understand truely, bt now i do. after much tinkin. now i really hope u'l ind ur right one soon. acty u already haf 1 waitin for you le, juz accet her yup. she seems a nice gal to mi. forget bout ur 'no internal affairs' theory lo. 缘分，过了就不会再从来了。appreciate the chance man.

the switest prezzie

2007-12-30T11:16:00.000+08:00

the switest present
hmmm, ytd at tuition yl gave mi my prez, frm the tuition gals n another 1 frm a mystery person. rite, i've already guessed hu izzit la. in open the present at first, dyin to open la. so thanz ying ling li xuan cai xuan (those few ba) for the toast bread post it. darn farni can heex. bt well, it smells weird. okay dis is nt the zhong dian. main point is the mystery prez. hmmm, prob dis dun sound v special or wad la. bt the prez frm you, yh, was dis v nice hand wind musical chime lo. song is 'you light up my life'. the card was v much nicer la. u rem wad i've said can. tell you i was truely touched when i saw the card. thanz thanz so so much yup. omg!! i really vv gan dong. i'm so sry i was so evil to you k, i believe u'l find a person v much beta de. i assure you. thanz thanz so much for the present. its super swit super tie xin yup. dis post is dedicated to you yh. ;)

2007-12-29T16:16:00.000+08:00

hmmm finally got my tag board up liao. wa dis sounds v noob la bt nvm. nt much tym ta type le lo. my mum there naggin naggin naggin la. hmmm still wanna try ta act young lo, she watch liang jing ru's concert later la. wif my aunt. lol, got free tixno 1 wanna go den she go de lo. heex. nvm let her haf fun. later i'l haf a nice meal lo, after tuition. sian loads of hw nt doen la, dunno how liao. gonna skool reopen le can. hmmm.

pic of my giant bruise la. awwww pain!!

2007-12-28T19:29:00.000+08:00

cute kitty ain't it? at sum spca roadshow(juz tryin out lo haha)

last day of wushu in yr 2007

2007-12-28T19:11:00.000+08:00

orh man, its the last trng in yr 2007 liao. wa damn sad can. i'm havin my a lvls next yr liao la. haha. today damn pia can, ok la, its slack, but its the first tym i do zhen tao la. my dao super nt in tune lo. wa i can do much much beta can? den my gun, haiz forget it la, its so super lousy la. grrrrr!! nvm i believe i'l do beta next yr. wushu today is quite nice la. wif my dear didis n the other of the 2 heavenly kings nyaha. okay i'l dedicate a post to them next tym when i haf tym. den still gotta dedicate posts to the nus camp, watchin of national treasure, wushu camp, n him. wow, its all damn random la. hmmm arnd there ba. hope i'l haf longer tym for bloggin lo. dis doesn't look quite a failure. nt bad le can heex! bye for now.
b4 i end, sth nice i saw randomly, on a car window:
if u tink u r perfect, try walkin on water

day wif sze grand daughter

2007-12-27T18:32:00.000+08:00

wooh, she's finally back in sg liao my dear sze yan. miss her loads lo haha. we went ps watchin 'i am legend'. its a super super cool thriller lo, haha she keep hidin behind her jacket. hmmm. wa lao damn suay can. fell down the stairs frm the double decker bus la, ouch pain can. i tink i sprained my elbow lei. hmmm. bt i'm still gng wushu tmr, heck arh. mebbe juz do less strenuous stuff lo. every1 on the bus starin at mi la. so malu can. grrr... today the dear wushu ppl went escape lo, missed the outing. bt skool reopen 2nd wk i'l b gng k box wif may mayer n henry. yay all my family de lo haha. ya la dats bout itnt bad, dis is my 2nd post heex.

wad pattern is ma brain!!

2007-12-26T00:46:00.001+08:00

Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is a firestorm - full of intensity and drama.Your thoughts may seem scattered to you most of the time...But they often seem strong and passionate to those around you.You are a natural influencer. The thoughts you share are very powerful and persuading.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

first day on blogspot

2007-12-23T23:06:00.001+08:00

hmmmm, my third tym tryin to blog le. hope nothhing goes bonkers lo. juz wanna sae my bdae is cumin, n tmr gotta receive loads of presents, yea from my didis n ppl lo. n waihan! wow, long tym no c him le la. hope he gt zhang jin yup. nyaha. n wushu is fun la, bt the day before n after my bdae all gt wushu, a lil sian can? heng got my few fave didi's haha. the few fun kids r gng tmr ba, hope i had fun lo. hmmm gotta search for blogskins le lo. dis looks a lil horrible yup haha. dats it for today lo, hope dis wun b a failure too