Julia
Juju, pig, ah keow. wadeva u call n i approve. heh.
Ju is a christmas baby, 25/12/1990
GMPS, CCHMS, VJC , NUS FASS
Affliations to YMCA, CCHMS wushu team, genacts...



1) continue wushu if i have time
2) do well in my mods in NUS
3) be more pro in my di zi
4) successfully join the police force?
5) can go shopping and splurge!!!

reflective is from my sat's y con lo. asked my group to use one word to describe their whole ycon programme. i tink la. mine was reflective. really felt so lo. cuz i really reflected without the direct help from tom like the previous ycon what can i do to make this ycon a meaningful one for the group. haha. did a lot of reflections on the last ycon lo. so yea, thank jan for the cute picture on my knee, but too bad i din get the chance to take a pic of it and post it up here. haha. but wait, i dun tink i even posted pictures lo. so mafan. haha.

tues was quite a slack day. went to lee kong chian ref lib to study agn. totally love that place sia. quiet, many spaces, many books. great place. den at night met up wif him for dinner lo. gosh, damn scary lo, i was juz craving for wanton mee and he was like, lets go for wanton mee. lol!!
"有默契浪漫就不难." from wang li hong song.
yup, agreed. feel nice lo. haiz. wad if i dun need to stay at home. how nice will it be man. no time limit. "今夜有最适合谈心的天气，能不能晚点回去" RAWR!! another quote from the same song agn.
and that night i concluded that i dun like small cars. haha. dunno how ta get in sia.. -.-" haha

wed was a totaly slack day. spent my night waiting for a phone call that nv seem to come. hmmm. den when it finally came, it was such a short short while. damn, shan't complain le la. muz accommodate!! heh.

suddenly tot of sth that really made me wanna blog. the use of the word 'sacrifice' is really hurting. alrite it may be out as a joke, as sth to disturb me, but this is brought too far. gng out with me is really a sacrifice? izzit really that bad a thing, sacrifice ur slp and rest time to go out with me, damn, it a f-ing strong blow to me. ok. i think i thought about this enough to keep me awake till late night, time to move on. f**k the word sacrifice, u tink u sheep or pig? sacrifice. argghhhh.

heard a nice new song on radio in the car ytd. hmm, lets see, i tink its on tues? yup, 画沙 by jay chou and cindy yen, the song is damn good luh. melody by the gal, lyrics by fang wen shan. if the male singer weren't to be jay the song will be much better. hmmm, i guess, TANK or cao ge will make the song much nicer, seriously. yup its totally the kinda genre i like man. geezzz...

Quote:
午后的风摇晃枝丫 抖落了盛夏
我对着蝉认真说话 在对你牵挂
晚风轻敲着海沙 浪堆积起无暇
我跟纯真在比傻 爱上你放不下

这风景如画 （开满凤凰凤凰花）
院子里花撒 （挠灌着那种情话）
等最美的晚霞 等故事长大

用手中的流沙画一个你啊
曾说过的永远我们一定不会擦
我的青春开始在喧哗
因为大声说爱你而沙哑

用手中流沙轻描着你的脸颊
也答应说好的未来绝不会重画
许过的承诺我就不会再去拿
因为我爱你呀

将思念压成花 有你的记忆干燥成瓶中沙
像沙漏般想着你滴滴答答
擦美美的指甲 喝你泡的茶
原来幸福可以这么优雅

不论多大风沙 路多分岔 我一样找到你呀
管它风怎么刮 管雨又怎么下
越痛我就越来 越潇洒
不摘不属于自 己的花
喔爱闪着泪光为你我可以当傻瓜

这风景如画 （开满凤凰凤凰花）
院子里花撒 （挠灌着那种情话）
等我们的童话 等誓言落下

（画沙，周杰伦与袁咏琳）

Labels: 画沙

julia nv blog for a long long time le!!!

haha i tink the last time i blogged was arnd 5 days ago? finally i'm free to blog lo. finish my last assignment, chin essay, last fri la. heh, last min work agn, finish the whole damn essay in 5 hrs. damn, i dun tink i'l do well lo, CAP sure screwed de. but nvm, wad i wan is psyc. heeee.
JULIA IS SO HAPPY HER SEM IS GONNA END!!!
but ya, with that, comes exams and then YCAMP! heh. excited luh!!!

anyway, after the completion of the assignment, went out wif MR to celebrate lo. okok la, nt really celebrate. when to bedok blk 85 to eat. heh, the lala is damn good lo! yummy, i'm so gonna go back there to eat agn man. julia feels hungry now. lol. oh ya talkin bout gng bedok, saw mayer di on wed when i went lo. heh. wads the face di gave me sia. but yup, MR complimented di, sae he damn handsome. of course handsome lo. my di can? lol.ya damn long nv see CCH wushu team ppl le. hmmm. wait till their exams finish sia. heh.

sun was a GREAT day. went ta watch poker king lo. long since i watch a chin movie. e!hub is good but he wasted like 8 bucks playin the pick the toy machine. haha. ya man. felt so damn relax on sun la, like finally all my dumb assignments all over le, can play happily le. but julia is gonna start mugging le. tmr shall go ref lib at nat lib to mug chin! gosh, that is like a treasure place la. so happy i found it, goodness, haha.

rite that about it. but ya, about 2 weeks ago i juz tot of sth damn funny. saw on tv the blonde bimbo who din dare to go down the water slide. den i suddenly had this tot, bimbos are named bimbos mebbe cuz they are more expressive with their emotions and thoughts lo. sometimes when we dunno stuff we juz keep mum and hope to find clues on what is that thing by listening to other people's convo. bimbos will just ask straightaway without stopping to observe what is going on and thats why they look damn dumb askin stupid questions. haha. ya man, next time cannot blame bimbos for being so bimbotic luh. cuz mebbe a lot of people are bimbos and himbos themselves just that they dun express their thoughts and emotions so much. make sense eh? heee. obtained another level of enlightenment le! =P ok la this is a bimbotic comment now. RAWR!! but ya, just to add on, mebbe bimbos are not to bimbotic after all. they noe what is going on but they just want attention so thats why they make themselves seem stupid. and stupid gals make guys less alert with them around? haha. dunno why i suddenly have all these thinking sia. but yup. my feelings bout bimbos. LOL i am laughin when i'm reading wad i've typed la. haha.

alrite i guess thats about it. heh.

Quote:
多想要记住这一分钟
回应我幸福的要求
我或许没有别的梦
唯一的是
我爱你你也爱我

不担心一杯红酒，把我的真心透露， 或许你在就该懂
冰淇淋在喉咙，能多冷静几秒钟， 气氛在浪漫都不够。
烛光晚餐像一场美梦，向这样望着你到永久
一束玫瑰交到你的手中
这一天这一刻这一切，你属于我

多想要拦住这一秒钟，
你每天晚餐都陪我。
美味比不过你温柔，
从此以后，我爱你你爱我

多想要记住这一分钟
回应我幸福的要求
我或许没有别的梦
唯一的是
我爱你你也爱我

我不是个浪漫的家伙
却甘心为你这样做。
想要什么都跟我说
从此以后，我爱你你爱我

我是不是有一点别扭
从不曾这样说出口
太多的愿望在心中
重要的是，我爱你你也爱着我。
（烛光晚餐，曹格）

Labels: 烛光晚餐

30/10/2009, fri
fri was an uneventful day. 2 hrs of lessons in sch, den went home to try to do chin assignment but to no avail. guessed i procrastinate too much agn. read up on the articles but it took me so freakin long to read it la, shit damn pissed me off. din get the chance to meet him on fri. yea, felt a bit bored lo. glad he still called me at night to chat. haha. this time round our chats were broke up to 3 parts lo. with him stuck at office and the last one was late night, when i off-ed my com. haha. alrite. i guess the only good thing that happened was i finally get to have dinner wif my family. haha. damn, felt abit bad for not gng down to help out the phone interview but yea, i guess it's almost done le rite? hmmm. was looking forward to dry run, with the small small hope that he might attend in the afternoon though his job is holding him back.

31/10/2009, sat
dry run was great!!! i love the programs lo. the way dry run was structured was damn good. those super strenuous ones were done from the start. den slowly the games got more n more slack. dunno wad to say but i really feel that the games were superb! and i guess the ice breakers really helped us break the ice lo. haha. it was almost full force for the leaders la. even melvin went can. wow. i guess he is less busy than.... haha anyways yup. everyone really spoke up. and marlon was damn crazy sia. haha. dry run was good!

after bathing at home i went back to shines to meet them agn to go out. when we started walkin out, damn the rain got bigger la. and i juz finish bathin can?!?! haha eventually we went to have steamboat. damn, i like the steamboat place lo. the waiters and workers there are v friendly sia. i'm gonna go back there agn. hehe. mebbe with MR? yup. after steamboat i left early to meet up wif MR. haha, we seem to meet at least twice every week? went ta KLP to have the damn good kkochi agn, the chicken kebab? dunno how to say la. MR tried the level 3 spicy-ness this time. hiong sia. damn shuang la, esp for a cold weather liddat. he brought along a jacket for me. so nice luh~ i was juz askin for a change of clothes cuz i was cold. heh. he brought like jacket towel and shirt la. but i guess my steamboat smell difffused to his jacket lo. too bad.. haha.

caught a late night movie lo. watch pandorum. damn its nt really good sia. its a typical sci-fi show. hmmm. so far the movies we've watched were nt that nice lo. man. next time muz really read up on it first le. haha. ytd i broke house rules agn, reached home at 2am. LOL. frm ytd, i got some conclusion. unlike wad i told val, i tink it will take a damn long time b4 he asked me that question. seriously. that was a conclusion frm ytd luh~... but nvm, more chance to see first. haha.

today will be a sucky day cuz i need to work on my last assignment den i am free to mug for my exams le! i totally hate assignments can. RAWR!! haha. need ta get back to work liao...

quote may come later at night. LOL



val said i very long nv blog le. haha here i am. no time to blog everyday lo, got ohilo to read up on and then calling. haha. but once every 2 days i guess its fine ba. bloggin is the first thing i do when i reach home today la, cuz there is stuff to say bout today lo

today is the last main comm meeting for y camp. many many ppl sia. haha. i bit paiseh i nv do up my survival guide lo but nvm, i guess we still have our chances. haha. yup. mix feelings in me now, ok mebbe just now. when i see her and kmkz jokin with each other, omg, i felt it agn. RAWR!! damn weird feeling la, a bit the irritated, ok dunno why it came out but ya, i cannot feel like that, i got MR liao. haha. then during meeting she said like, nt a lot, but her words came out a bit wrong la. oh wells, that did make me feel nt really happy oso. ya. its oso a bit on her insensitiveness i guess. good thing i wasn't her co-**...haha ok la, but her words make sense, just that please don't put it in such a way i guess. ya lo. dun like it when i have this feel.

b4 meetin me n hazmi went hanging arnd ps, ok acty nt much of hanging arnd, more of sitting down, eating and chatting. haha. hazmi wanted to buy moisturizer sia. omg, he got some strawberry flavoured thing frm body shop lo. smells edible la. if i gotta apply it i will eat my hand man. and ya. he was so damn secretive bout it la. super funny lo!! but yup. its damn nice hanging out wif mimi. heh. i tink he is my second y fren lo. ok now my whole hand is filled with smells of perfume from the body shop. it is good, but too much of a good thing sometimes gets a bit irritatin. damn i'm gonna bathe after bloggin sia.

finally submitted the philo paper, damn it f pissed me off sia. juz anyhow do lo. i tink i'l screw up this sem's CAP la. but nvm. slowly slowly sia. today's lesson was quite fun. ponned emotions lec to go for make up tut for chin. haha. i realized chin literary works are quite interesting sia, no wonder tracia was so into it then. haha but i tink i wun find time to go n read such stuff de lo. i'l get more of english stuff ba.

today i sorta missed him a little. dunno why but after ytd i feel that i am a bit inferior to his ex gfs. yea man. like a bit pei bu shang him, shit why i always have this inferiority complex sia. but there was a sentence he said: all my ex gfs very good at expressing themselves and more inclined towards the arts side. hmmm, i felt a bit inferior when i heard it lo. like. damn, i'm just a student. what am i to him man. RAWR!! then today after i said i ended lesson den he nv reply me le. until now sia. i'm still waitin for his reply lo. damn. i checked my phone so many times today la. for his msg, his predicted missed calls, anything... but dun have sia. hmmmm. why? izzit i say wrong things agn, or he really thinks we are nt suited for each other. hmmm. i'm thinkin of that question oso lo. but ya la its too early to say so. juz now got another more exaggerating thought la. i suddenly start to worry did he fell off the building when he wanted to reply an sms, or mebbe MY sms? damn can he please freakin reply?!?!

ok as usual i heard this song on my mp3 agn. explained what i felt for a moment, den i realised mebbe this song can be one of those that he choose to dedicate to me. hehe

Quote:
今夜玩得有一点疯狂
其实我早就该回去
整夜的笑容在你的脸上
你是我最美的旋律

牵手牵得那么自然 ah
有默契浪漫就不难
像是手表被谁快转
你说真的时间太晚 oh no no

oh 在每一秒里都想见到你
爱是不停在期待的心
拥有完美感情才有好心情
能不能晚点回去

oh 在每一秒里都想见到你
太多话我想讲给你听
今夜有最适合谈心的天气
能不能晚点回去
(每一秒里都想见到你, 王力宏)

today is quite a nice day though he nv reply me. haha. nice weather too. hope it will be the same tmr, but with him replyin. RAWR!!

Labels: 每一秒里都想见到你

Labels: another night

went to send ning off at the airport early this morn lo. gosh. i actually felt a bit like crying when ning started to. damn. this must be the retribution for making ning cry. RAWR!! but i really wanted to hug her luh~ no intentions of making her cry de. mannn. really hoped i could have cried out but dunno why after so long of nt cryin my tears juz got choked at the ends of the tear duct. man, din feel it when we sent jieru off lo. this is the second person i sent this year. heh. ning, like now we've been really close she just left sg lo, i think i'll miss out on someone to talk to when i feel confused and stuff liddat le. and i lost my partner to speak in lingo le lo. though MR speaks it too. haha.

will miss ning for being there every saturday to accompany me lo. cuz val usually has family stuff so cannot join the big grp. so most of the time its just me ning and the guys. haha. really thanks so much for ning to be there. all the htht's i'l miss times sharing things with her. nvm, i guess 53 days will past really quickly. after all my exams and y camp she will be back agn! yay! julia is being optimistic.

after ning left we went off home lo. have this real burning urge to call MR to make him comfort him. shit, i sorta longed for him to be there so that he's there to lend me his shoulder lo. arghh. finally when i am alone le i called he was sorta busy and cannot chat with me. haizz. hu was the one who say 'girl, you can call me anytime you want'. damn.

i tink like wad val said, i'm falling liao. ok, i guess i fell le. sobs, i feel like meeting him everyday. but this is impossible for me lo, esp wif my mum. haiz, stupid reasons can only be used once. darn. i'm damn scared he's toyin my feelings sia. like after my heart is dedicated to him, den he smash it onto the floor. RAWR!! muz build up on my defence le... anyway, ytd i told him that i wanted to meet him. haha. great job he met me as KLP. man. the kkochi is alrd so nice but with someone sharing the nice food i felt the chicken was heavenly. the best thing ytd was, i'l come back agn for the chicken. man. this simple sentence alrd recognized that my taste (for food) is nt bad, at least he agrees to it. this is recognitions i need lo. <3.... julia is floating away.

forgot to say. went kusu island ytd for this 'annual pilgrimage'. haha nt to the extent la, but i look forward to gng there to pray every year. the nice scenery, the serenity, the anticipation of wishes to come true. and every single thing on the island, it never failed to attract me back there every year. hope the next year i go there will be someone else with me too. haha. yea, i agreed to bring him there some day. hehe. i hope my wishes will come true...

i'm looking forward to tmr and thurs meeting. haha. and dry run too. ok the big obstacle today is to pass nt meeting him and finish my philo essay. shall reward myself with an eps of liu xing hua yuan korean version after my essay. haha. i tink later in the night there will be another round of blogging lo but right now.. i guess i shall stop ranting. hehe.

heard this song on my mp3 on bus ytd, gosh, it somehow described my feelings ytd. hehe
Quote:
.......
直到你现在能感应
紧紧地抱着我
让我在你怀里躲

糟了 习惯了
你把我宠坏了
在你保护外 没有别的安全地带
糟了 习惯了
是你让我笑了 陶醉在天空宁静的白色
我像个大小孩 依赖

(宠坏了，stella huang xiang yi)

Labels: 宠坏了

today was i freaking tiring day. being volunteer is so great compared to being a leader man. yea. today apsn outing was to gamehaven to play wii. i guess they benes have a nice time, but i din really get the chance to play it. so ya lor. its the benes time n nt mine anyway, so it is great to see them enjoy themselves. haha. jospeh gave a deep deep speech to us, where some of the points really hit me, nt hard but ya, i guess i realised i have real much room for improvement.

1. sometimes it isn't good to keep nagging at the benes, they will get irritated. they feel what we feel though, so yes that will feel irritated
2. we don't need to make our benes actively participate in everything. nth can be so perfect and go ur way, so yes. be passive at times when u handle benes?
3. though benes are nt good un using their 5 senses tgt wif logical thinking, they have this intuition thing that make them realise things arnd them and this is how they gets to remain at this world. so ya lor.....

wad i've learnt. a lot lo. to be more organised and think of the whole process and activity b4 anything starts. hmmm, think more thoroughly b4 everything, dun be too hard on the rules. heh. ya la wadeva man. ytd was so nt prepared lo. i cannot slp at 3 b4 outings liao. muz slp earlier.

yea ytd i got 3 ppl to say sry to, now still wanna sae sorry.

first to babysitter, though he wun read the blog and i dun wan him to read the blog. man ytd was crap. i told him that i dun wanna associate with him sia. it was totally the wrong stuff i was thinkin about la, so juz blurted out the thing lo. sia la, it is totally damn bad, freakin totally. arghhh. REALLY WANNA SAY SORRY. told him le but still i guess it was too traumatic for him. omg i feel like a super bad woman sia. shit. and ytd i tink its cuz i dun have enuff slp plus dunno why la, i feel i damn bad towards him lor. shit man, keep pickin on his pronunciation stuff. arghh. nvm la, after a few days then i go back talkin to him? hmmmm

2nd is peifen, hmmm, i was totally nt prepare for setting the dates la. shit, this made her lost confidence in me huh? i hope she doesn't, cuz i really wanna do well at this camp. hmmm. sorry peifen. i will think more next time b4 each meeting de.

lastly is MR. hmmmm. wad belay team said is true. physical or emotional. i was a lil worried when i met him at night. had this little distance from him lo. but nope. i dun think it is a problem le. hmmm, he knew his limits. i guess he din wan me to feel uncomfortable ba. lol. thanks belay team for the concern. =) for now i will be more aware but still, wanna say sorry to him cuz i sorta doubted him. haha.

yea, today was good but a bit weird. like every sun i've been meetin MR, suddenly a sunday we din meet up, like sth missing huh. lol. shit man, like wad val says, i guess i'l falling le. haha. yea. still hope my belay team is there to look out for me. =) but after ytd's incident wif babysitter, one less person is no longer a belay team le lo. shit man.

i've been scolding a lot of shits today, but yea. the shitty feel bout ytd is still there...

quote:
when you start thinking if you love that someone, you alrd stopped loving him.

this is an old quote but reading thru my past posts i feel this is real meaningful. yes i totally agreed to it.